There I was… Stepping on my own feet on the real ground. Yeah… the real one.
No plus “dad, will toi give me a ride to…?”, ou “ please mom, I need that money to buy a lovely pair of jeans”.
No plus dependence, no plus good meals in family, no plus life as I know it.
Time to step up on my feet.
Lily is my name…and I´m 18 years old. This is the new beginning of a new life. MY own life, the one that I have to build up.
Desperate about all this thoughts, all I could do is call my BF to cry over the phone.
-Soph…Oh Soph! This is nerve racking…OMG OMG OMG! I can´t believe we´re moving out togheter to college! Can toi believe it?! OHH soph, I´m soo nervous, I don´t know if this is for me ´cause…- she stopped me right away.
-Lily…come on. Stop it. toi know that this is super, this is what we´be been expecting since…ALWAYS! And, it´s ok…I won´t say it´s not frightening, but…Imagine it! You, me, cute college boys and parties that rock! And well, the whole new places where we…- she said. Yes, Sophie was the one that could calm me down and make me think wisely. I always leaned on her as she could lean on me. I was the one that would always complain and freak out and she was always the one that talk to me and composer me.
-Ok Soph, but I´m really scared. And I´m gonna miss my family, too. And, I don´t know how to work! I´ve never worked in my life!! Not ever as a babysitter!! OMG Soph..! I´m freaking out again!...
-Ok, just let it go. Let all the things that worry toi go away.- I obeyed. Silence.- Now, Lil, take a deep breath and let all the bad thoughts be gone with the air.- Again, I obeyed. I felt quieter now. Wow, she was really good at this.
-Done. Wow Soph, toi should really become a therapist…
-Haha- Laughed softly- well…you know I´m really not interested on that kind of things.-she answer.
-Well…see toi in two days. And please So, pack my favourite chemise of yours so toi can lend it to me when we arrive.- I smiled.
-No problem! Well, see toi soon and behave please!
-Haha, ok I promise.- I hung up.
Yeah…That was a really hard promise to keep with all the panic I had.
No plus “dad, will toi give me a ride to…?”, ou “ please mom, I need that money to buy a lovely pair of jeans”.
No plus dependence, no plus good meals in family, no plus life as I know it.
Time to step up on my feet.
Lily is my name…and I´m 18 years old. This is the new beginning of a new life. MY own life, the one that I have to build up.
Desperate about all this thoughts, all I could do is call my BF to cry over the phone.
-Soph…Oh Soph! This is nerve racking…OMG OMG OMG! I can´t believe we´re moving out togheter to college! Can toi believe it?! OHH soph, I´m soo nervous, I don´t know if this is for me ´cause…- she stopped me right away.
-Lily…come on. Stop it. toi know that this is super, this is what we´be been expecting since…ALWAYS! And, it´s ok…I won´t say it´s not frightening, but…Imagine it! You, me, cute college boys and parties that rock! And well, the whole new places where we…- she said. Yes, Sophie was the one that could calm me down and make me think wisely. I always leaned on her as she could lean on me. I was the one that would always complain and freak out and she was always the one that talk to me and composer me.
-Ok Soph, but I´m really scared. And I´m gonna miss my family, too. And, I don´t know how to work! I´ve never worked in my life!! Not ever as a babysitter!! OMG Soph..! I´m freaking out again!...
-Ok, just let it go. Let all the things that worry toi go away.- I obeyed. Silence.- Now, Lil, take a deep breath and let all the bad thoughts be gone with the air.- Again, I obeyed. I felt quieter now. Wow, she was really good at this.
-Done. Wow Soph, toi should really become a therapist…
-Haha- Laughed softly- well…you know I´m really not interested on that kind of things.-she answer.
-Well…see toi in two days. And please So, pack my favourite chemise of yours so toi can lend it to me when we arrive.- I smiled.
-No problem! Well, see toi soon and behave please!
-Haha, ok I promise.- I hung up.
Yeah…That was a really hard promise to keep with all the panic I had.
This is a peom I wrote for a competition at my school. Tell me what toi think of it, please?
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Have toi felt the torture of hate?
Like a poisonous cloud, it will wait,
Until toi burn in the flames of fury.
Then it will creep up and incapacitate.
Alas! toi will choke, and don’t try to deny your anger.
It is too late.
Hate is like grasping a red hot coal,
Intent on throwing it at another soul,
Instead it is you, yourself, who burns,
Then your own anger shall take its toll,
You’ll bring about your every mistake and failure.
You’ll be alone.
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Have toi felt the torture of hate?
Like a poisonous cloud, it will wait,
Until toi burn in the flames of fury.
Then it will creep up and incapacitate.
Alas! toi will choke, and don’t try to deny your anger.
It is too late.
Hate is like grasping a red hot coal,
Intent on throwing it at another soul,
Instead it is you, yourself, who burns,
Then your own anger shall take its toll,
You’ll bring about your every mistake and failure.
You’ll be alone.