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In my opinion, it's plus depressing than scary


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I like to think I live a nice life. I own a cozy, 3 bedroom accueil in a quiet neighborhood in the suburbs. I have a wife I care about deeply and a 9 an old son who is my world. I enjoy my job as an accountant, and I'm well recognized in the community. I can confidently say I greatly enjoy living and appreciate all that I have earned. I only wish my entire life had been like this.

toi see, throughout my teens and early adulthood, I suffered from severe anxiety issues stemming from an experience in my youth; one that nearly ruined my life. I had done something that haunted me for nearly 15 years. It was only after 3 different psychiatrists and many sleepless nights that I was able to forgive myself and learn to live again. Fortunately, my memories of those days are cloudy, and the scars have long healed. I will now try my best to recollect the events that unfolded that summer of 1978 as best as I can.

My memory is a bit faded, but I distinctly remember various things in my childhood. I remember playing little league baseball, drawing my favori super Heroes to tag on my wall, going on bike rides to the corner store to buy Candy & baseball cards, and staying out late on summer nights to play "jailbreak" with my neighborhood friends. In addition to all of these things, I was also a first an boy scout. I remember going to the elementary school auditorium every Wednesday after school dressed in my uniform.

In a troop of about 15 kids my age, I learned all kinds of things from feu safety to wildlife preservation. As a kid who grew up miles away from any forests, the lessons seemed incredibly abstract, yet entirely fascinating. I had never been camping before in my life, and the picture these lessons painted appealed to me greatly. Needless to say, after hearing about that year's 2-week long summer retreat, I was determined to attend. My parents were quite protective over me (they still are) and they were a bit concerned because I had never left accueil longer than a jour ou two, but after days of persistent bugging, they reluctantly agreed to send me.

That July, I was shipped off to Roaring Run Boy Scout Camp located in Boswell, PA only about 2 hours from my home. Coincidentally, it is still a summer camp, only under an entirely different name and affiliation. As we drove up the beaten gravel path, I remember looking in awe at the endless rows of trees and the rustic cabins on either side of the road. We came out to a wide clearing with all of the main buildings of the camp, and I noticed my troop leader in the distance among a handful of other troop leaders organizing their scouts. After my parents spoke briefly with my scoutmaster about various specifics of camp, my mother gave me a Kiss on the cheek, and then they were off. I could hardly contain my excitement for the week.

We were paired up with several troops from neighboring towns because only a small amount of us showed up from each troop. We placed all of our belongings in our cabin, "Blue Ridge," one of the cabins I saw as I drove into camp.

Afterwards, we returned back to the main field and slowly got to know each others' names par playing various games. I quickly got to know just about all of them, but one in particular stood out to me. He was small; a lot smaller than the rest of us had been. He had frail limbs and messy blond hair, and the buttons on his chemise were not evenly buttoned. He hadn't a dit a word since he got there, and I noticed a few of the scouts from his troop were pushing him around a bit and picking on him during the games.

For the sake of anonymity, he'll be known as Michael. Taking the game at hand very seriously, I soon disregarded this bullying and continued on. I did notice that par the time dîner rolled by, several scouts from the other troops started picking on him as well.

That night, all the scouts on camp gathered to a bonfire located just past the main field in an outdoor auditorium of sorts. After reciting our honor code, the head counselor stepped vers l'avant, vers l’avant and informed us about all the great activities ahead of us. There was swimming, canoeing, rifle/bow shooting, scavenger hunts, hikes, competitions, and nights under the stars all waiting for us, and I was ecstatic. After a speech on our core responsibilities as boy scouts to the environment and community, we were dismissed to our cabine for the night, a 10 minute walk from the main field. Our scout masters had forgotten something back at the main camp, so they left to go retrieve it.

Alone, nearly all of the scouts began picking on Michael. It started rather innocent, but grew a lot worse once another scout found a stuffed animal tucked under the blankets of Michael's bunk. It was a sickly looking creature; obviously enduring many years of abuse and quite frail. They started throwing the ours back and forth, and Michael had no choice but to stand and watch. The riot in the cabine began to spread, and it came to a point where the ringleaders of the bullying criticized the few of us who weren't picking on him.

"This is my first boy scout trip ever!" I thought to myself. I wanted to be one of the cool kids. I asked myself, "What if I'm the suivant they start bullying?" At that ignorant age, I somehow thought my life would be over if these two weeks turned sour. My cowardice got the best of me, and I hit a turning point; the start of a series of events that would devastate me for years to follow. I went over to Michael's bunk and grabbed the ours from another scout holding it over Michael's head. With a strong pull, I ripped its head clean off and the entire cabine boomed with roars as cotton rained from the now decapitated bear.

The look on Michael's face turned from frustrated to a depressing frown. That damn look on his face is still burned into my memory. For a brief moment, I felt a wave of extreme guilt. I had been raised better, and I knew my mom would be disappointed if she knew. However, I quickly forgot about it as the entire cabine continued their outburst of laughter and praised me with comments.

I was in. Just as the scout masters returned, one of them shouted, "What on earth is going on in here!?" We all grew silent, expecting to pay the price for destroying the bear. Michael showed little emotion. He gathered the cotton he could from the floor and retreated to his bunk without saying a word. We expected him to tell on us, but all he did was pull the covers on haut, retour au début of him and lay silently. We thought we had just lucked out... God, I wish Michael had just spoken up and got us in trouble right then and there...

My 15 minutes of fame had gotten to my head, and I longed to be praised more. It was odd. I didn't dislike Michael, yet I resorted to calling him names and pushing him around just for the shallow acceptance of my peers. As I write about it now, a great deal of guilt and shame is returning. If only I had known what my actions would lead to... a jour passes. It is now the third day.

I'm unsure if this is still customary for boy scouts, but back then, we all had a few pieces of equipment to look after, particularly our mess tins, which we used for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. On the third afternoon of camp just before lunch, I had a perfect joke in mind. I talked with the other kids in my cabin, and convinced them all to leave their mess tins on their bunks so that we could force Michael run back and retrieve them. Though pretty innocent compared to the other things Michael put up with that week, my cabine mates thought it was brilliant. This is where it all began.

We all piled into the chow hall and found our seats. Michael was last to walk in, and took a siège at the end of the table, tableau with his head down, mess tin in hand. I spoke up, "Hey Michael, we all kinda forgot our mess tins in the cabin...think toi could get them for us pal?" A few of the guys chuckled. Michael didn't move. I spoke up. "Michael, it'd be a real shame if toi didn't listen to us. Now go get our mess tins!" Reluctantly, Michael got up and walked out the door. "I can't believe toi got him to do that," one kid said. "What a puss," another said. "You're the man!" the kid to my right a dit to me. We all got a pretty great hoot about it.

10 minutes pass.

"What the heck is taking him so long? I'm hungry!" I said. "He's probably fumbling all of our mess tins!" one said. "That pansy better get his cul, ass back here," another said.

30 minutes pass.

No Michael. "He probably just got lost," I thought to myself.

An heure passes.

We all figured he defied us to stay in the cabin. With empty stomachs, we were furious, and planned to deal hell when we found him. We arrived back at the cabin. No Michael, but our mess tins were missing from our beds. The scout masters had noticed Michael's absence, and had us come with them to see if he was somewhere back at the main camp. They left us in the main field while they searched. 30 plus minutes passed. It hadn't hit any of us that anything bad could have happened. "He probably had to take a shit!" one kid said.

We all laughed, mainly at the profanity. Our scout masters seemed to have been gone forever, so we started to play games in the woods. We had just finished our third game of tag, when we heard something coming down the road. Two police cruisers came into light, and drove past us toward the main building. I think we all had an idea there was something wrong, but looked for other explanations. "You... uhh... think this is about Michael?" one said. "No way, there's probably just a ours ou something!" another said. Logical enough for us at 10 years old.

It was about 6 hours past lunch, and we had nothing to do but lay in the grassy clearing. Just as before, we heard a sound coming down the road, only much louder. An influx of cars began coming up the mountain... our parents? Yes, but their cars are also accompanied par police cars mixed in between them, plus than I had ever seen at one time. I recognized "Johnstown Police Department," on the sides of a few of them. Odd. They were from a small city at least 30 minutes away. One par one, we were intercepted par our parents and taken back down the beaten gravel road.

I was one of the last, but just as the others, I saw my parents come up the road. Once my father saw me, he stopped the car, and they both got out. "Come on sweetie, camp is over." my mother said. I responded, "But it's only been 3 days. Why?" She paused, almost as if she were thinking of what to say. "A little boy went missing so the police are going to help find him. They just want to look for him without the other campers getting in the way. I'm sure he just wandered into the forest" Made sense, I thought. What was most peculiar, is at that moment, I hadn't even made the connection to Michael. "Must have been some other kid," I thought. "No way I had anything to do with this." I was pretty devastated that my week at camp ended so abruptly, but I got in the car and went accueil nonetheless.

Two weeks had passed, and I finally made the connection that Michael may have been the one who went missing. Funny how a young kid can so easily ignore the most logical explanation. I noticed my parents had been jouer la comédie a bit differently. They wouldn't allow me to attend the summer boy scout meetings anymore, and I was almost positive I heard my mother say she would never let her son leave the house again over the phone. Had I done something wrong? Little par little, I began to make ends meet, and thoughts of Michael came into my head.

I grew the intense curiosity only young kids are capable of having, and approached my father several times. Any time I asked about the missing boy, he would look away and respond to my question with, "I'm not sure. I haven't been checking the newspaper much lately." I knew he was lying. Every jour before work, my father was accustomed to lounging on the canapé to catch up on sports and local news. It was clear there was something he was hiding from me.

I knew he had a habit of leaving old papers on his nightstand, so I went to investigate while he was at work. Just as I had hoped, newspapers stretching back 3 weeks lay before me. Starting from the oldest, I looked through them in hopes of finding my answer... a ha! Dated the jour after camp was canceled, I noticed the headline. "Search Begins for Jennerstown area boy scout." Michael's picture covered the front page. That must have been it... I skipped a week ahead and found another. "Search party for missing boy scout called off." Within the article, it described the mysterious disappearance of Michael who was last seen in the chow hall with his fellow scouts. I skipped several plus days... my stomach turned sour.

"Bodily remains of child found at local Boy Scout camp." The headline made me sick, but I continued reading. Below is what I remember of the article.

Once the chercher party was called off, Roaring Run was reopened, and campers returned. It was very hot and humid that week, and those who stayed in Blue Ridge complained of a foul stench in the cabine the first few days. As the seconde week came by, the stench grew unbearable, and camp maintenance went to the cabine looking to find the source. The first thing they noticed was an abnormally loose floorboard near the center of the cabin. When they uncovered the board, they made a shocking discovery. Underneath was the mangled, decomposing body of a young boy, partially buried par several mess tins... our mess tins. The crevice he was jammed in was filled with blood, and his face was bludgeoned almost beyond recognition. The only piece of evidence they found was a bloodied, decapitated teddy ours in his hands with a note inside reading, "Speicher." There were no witnesses ou suspects.

I hadn't fully realized what the course of my actions accomplished, but as I grew older, the guilt grew stronger, and I once nearly resorted to suicide. My actions killed an innocent human being... If I hadn't sent Michael back to get our damn mess tins, he would probably still be here. Fortunately, after many years, I am finally able to forgive myself of my actions so long ago.

Roaring Run was closed permanently, and the land was purchased par a logging company who used it for about 10 years. The land lay untouched until 1998, when it was purchased par a Marine Corps. general who turned it into a youth mentor camp.

Every once in a while when I visit my parents, I take a trip to the local library, and view the same archived headlines I discovered all those years ago. It's weird... what once caused me such pain and guilt for the greater part of my life has left me... desensitized. Though sometimes I can still see his desperate face that night I ruined his bear... if only I had known what was in store for the summer of 1978.

... Still, what does "Speicher" mean?
posted by Canada24
So now we're at season two.. I watched the first four episodes

If I'm being 100% serious, this isn't really the greatest montrer ever.. It's good and all. great cast.

But it's so friggin depressing.. And not really mixed in with any real laughs.
The vibe this montrer is giving me is that life sucks, there's no joy in life, and nothing has any true meaning in life.

So.. Yeah..

But hey.. I would be lying if there were NO jokes.

Like the facts the Carlene STILL believes the little kid is a real person, and not a obvious disguise.

And Todd going back too his lack of confidence after ONE tiny insult.

So yeah.....
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#1: SERGEANT SPRINKLES - CUPCAKES:
Let me put this out of the way.
I reread cupcakes.. And truth is.. It actually SUCKS.
I realize now, the story itself isn't what inspired me.
It's the WAY it's told that inspired me.
I mean.. That writer is so amazing..Too bad the actual plot is so god awful.
And for all those that say it ruined how they saw Pinkie.
Seems too me like toi wouldn't of had much hope for her in the first place, if a stupid creepy pâtes, pâtes alimentaires ruins her so instantly..


#2: WHOEVER WROTE, JEFF THE KILLER:
There's actually some really well made story writing.
Too bad it's about JEFF..


#3: ALEXTHEHERETIC...
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I think I seen episode 9 before.
Well, at least the scene where Todd discovers the truth of his rock opera.

It's funnier now that I know what he's actually talking about.
Aaron paul's voice is so funny when having a character like Todd trying to actually "think".

And the fact it WASN'T revenge, is too funny.

I l’amour toi Todd..


Anyway.. The montrer is certainly a lot deeper now.
Sometimes it's a good thing.. But sometimes it's a depressing thing.. Mixes between those things.


We're almost done season 1 anyway, suivant week rejoindre me for the conclusion of season 1..
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While SAW 1 is actually one of the greatest films I know.

Saw 2 is plus what people THINK of when toi talk about the Saw films.

Though, out of the many sequels this is probably the most interesting one.
There are EXTREMELY stupid victims in this one, and I'm here to honour their death, par laughing at the stupidity of their decisions.

The films open up with VERY disturbing scene.
A man wakes up with spike-filled mask locked to his neck.

Jigsaw uses both a video tape and his puppet BILLY to inform the that in order to unlock the device, he must cut into his eye to obtain the key, which has been...
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Well episode 2 was kinda pointless at the last half.. Guess I'll try improving this series a little.

4 YEARS AGO:

Trixie: (getting ready to leave)..

Saten: (flies over) Trixie, wait!.. Don't leave without saying good bye.

Trixie: Sorry.. I thought toi were still mad at me.. I mean, I tried to kick Twilight out of town and then tried to do the same to you..

Saten: Yeah. About that.. Why me? Why were toi so mad at me!?

Trixie: Ohh, I don't know.. Maybe it's the fact that toi were the only one in high school that EVER cared for me.. That toi meant the world to me.. That I LOVED you!.. But toi never...
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I decided, if I'm gonna be a reviewer, I should give REAL reviews..

Like I a dit before.

The humour seems a bit..

"ayeeayh.. Mwa"

Same reaction to the humour in FRIENDSHIP IS MAGIC.

Guess it always was, even "I" don't really get how I ended up watching every episode..

Plus, I'm so busy trying to review MONSTERS, guess I'm somewhat distracted.

But I guess I'll continue, if I don't like it par the end of season 1, least I can say "I tried".

Anyway,

I do POSITIVES to say as well.

I can understand the point BoJack was trying to make, with the veterans. But the "way" he said, made him seem like a asshole,...
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Sally found Dash alone at her house, being one of the few times she actually uses a joint of Marijuana. And considering all that happened, who wouldn't.

"Hey sis.. I heard your kinda upset" Sally said.

"I don't wanna talk about it.. Please leave me alone" Dash said, trying to get the lighter off child block.

"Well, clearly there must be better ways to deal with it" Sally said, stealing away the lighter.

"... Packie's dead.. Okay" Dash said, tearfully.

Sally hugged her.

"I know, Jimmy told me" Sally a dit softly.

"Do toi know how it happened?" Sally asked.

"Dose it matter?" Dash tearfully said, still...
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#1: FALLEN ANGEL:
At the end. When toi reach the abandoned movie set..


#2: BANK:
In one of the aléatoire encounters. toi stop bank robbers "the old fashioned way".
Plus.. There's another bank robbery battle when your a patrol officer in the beginning..


#3: THE POLITE INVITATION:
My personal favorite.
The ending mansion battle..


#4: QUARTER MOON MURDERS:
Gerald Mason is one of the greatest villains in a video game.
It's only fitting that he goes out that way.
You chase him though tunnels, shooting at him.
He's tricky, but toi don't really care.
Besides. There's lots and lots of cover..


#5: BLACK CEASER:
The...
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#1: KORN:
When toi think about, it, a name like Korn dosen't really make toi think of fleurs and sunshine xD.
And the songs prove this.
I l’amour them (obviously). But these songs are chant about murder, possible necrophilia, sex addictions, rape, lying, just about EVERY bad thing there is..


#2: DISTURBED:
The name probably says it all xD.


#3: EMINEM:
If these songs really ARE of his life, it certainly makes us realize, OUR problems (chores, going to work in the morning), aren't SHIT!


#4: rose FLOYD:
These songs are a lot darker then people might think..


#5: SLIPKNOT:
With a album called "all hope is lost" how much happiness would one be expecting!?
Roman: (meets Niko at the bateau stop).

Niko: (stressed) What took toi so long!

Roman: Sorry.. I was at a party.. But anyway.. (singing) Welcome, home, Cousin. toi know that, I missed ye-

Niko: [Off-Screen] NO! [On-Screen] NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR toi SING!

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Roman: Do toi think Mallorie's mad at me?

Niko: Because you're in the right lane behind a bus and toi won't go around it? (sarcastically) No, I'm sure she finds it charming.

Roman: No, because I didn't invite her to come toi with me.

Niko: I'm starting to think she dodged a bullet.. The slowest...
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So I think toi are a fool.
Hanging on my every word.
I'm getting ugly!
So I'm ugly!

TEAR ME FROM YOUR HEEEEEART!!

TEARING ME APPPPART!!

So I thought you'd disappear.
Being alone is what toi fear.
Are toi lonely!?
Yes, lonely!

TEAR ME FROM YOUR HEEEEEART!!

TEARING ME APPPPART!!

(fast)
Rolling and throwing consoling.
everything that goes this far.
Joking and hoping, revolting
All that shit that's who toi are
Holding, and scolding, revolving
Peel it back, reveal the scar.
Loathing, exploding, controlling
This is what toi really are!

The time is coming
Gone Insane
Your really happy
You've won the game

The time is coming...
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#1: FREDDY KRUEGER SAVES MR MACKEY:
Freddy rescues Mackey from molestation, while having the excuse to use one of his cheesy one liners. The irony of this is that is that the REAL Freddy Krueger murdered child with pleasure, and was a pedophile in the remake..


#2: KORN:
Korn becomes, well... Corn.


#3: KEEPING KENNY ALIVE:
The one time they chose to do so, is when he is better OFF dead. He's brain dead, and needed in heaven to stop an over the haut, retour au début war against Satan..


#4: CARTMAN:
In the Family Guy episode Cartman tells Kyle
"That's a cartoon! Millions of people watch it! How would toi feel, Kyle, if there was a cartoon on télévision that made fun of Jews all the time?! Huh?!"
It's nice that people don't judge brony's very much anymore (unless your the type that dresses up in costomes and buys little kid toys)..

Anyone that knows this about me simply just refuses to even CARE that I watch it.. Especially sense I am the type that literary NEVER brings up the characters.

MLP is just like any other show. Sometimes I like it. Sometimes I don't.
If it ever stops montrer MLP.
Big deal. I barely watch it anymore anyway.

The REAL reason I'm a brony is because of sites like this one.
All the online Friends I make along the way.
And the level of enjoyment in making in using...
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#1: LOIS GRIFFIN:
Nnon-caring personality and will often montrer absolutely no emotion ou interest in some very emotional situations, and in other cases draw pleasure from others misery. Some examples being when Meg was upset about not being invited to a party hosted par Chris in "Stew-Roids", she just gives up, gives her daughter some pills and a Sylvia Plath novel, walks out stating "whatever happens, happens". Meg even stated she loved her in "Peter's Daughter", only for Lois to not even respond. When Brian was leaving in "Quagmire's Dad", she doesn't even look away from the télévision to state...
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#1: PETER GRIFFIN:
We l’amour him. But that's not really an excuse.
Unlike Homer Simpson who actually loves and cares for his children even when they drive him nuts Peter treats his kids like dirt in one episode where Stewie suffers a concussion and Meg and Chris try to hide it but Peter knew the whole time but a dit nothing and his solution for the problem was throwing Stewie under the Car and passing the blame on Lois, he even admitted he hated spending time with his own kids..

#2: JACK TORRANCE:
No matter how drunk (or ghost-drunk) our father got, he never blamed us for how his novel wasn't coming...
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#1: PARAPAZZI:
Everyone makes mistakes.
Everyone has things they want to forget.
But they CAN'T forget. The whole fuckin world is judging toi over things that isn't even their business to begin with. I can’t imagine wanting to go shopping, ou grab a coffee and having to worry about people running after me to take pictures of me..
"No I don't want to sign your fuckin paper! I'm just looking for some fuckin milk!"


#2: NO PRVATE LIFE:
Your business is not only yours anymore. It’s everybody’s, apparently. Look at what’s going on with Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes. Funny because I’m not one...
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SEASON 1:
SPIKE: I kinda like this guy..
TWILIGHT: She's so adorable
RARITY: Kinda annoying
APPLEJACK: Kinda annoying
PINKIE: Really REALLY annoying.
FLUTTERSHY: Don't really care for her
DASH: (watching Ticket master) Oh, it IS a girl.. Why was I thinking a boy?... Weird.

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SEASON 2:
SPIKE: Still like him..
TWILIGHT: Still like her.
RARITY: Still annoying
APPLEJACK: Getting a bit better.
PINKIE: Starting to grow on her.
FLUTTERSHY: ....................
DASH: Starting to like her.

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SEASON...
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#1: JERRY TRAINOR:
If toi ever see that montrer Icarly, Jerry Trainor is the immature older brother, and frankly the ONLY watchable actor.
He's always in kid shows, guess this would be okay, except, he's always BAD kid shows.
His talent is wasted..


#2: JASON LEE:
Alvin in the chipmunks.
Really Lee?
Your better than that.
Stick to MY NAME IS EARL, your awesome in that show..


#3: IKE BARINHOLTZ:
Love this guy.
But he's in all these STUPID movies.
Even THE NEIGHBOURS isn't all that good.
It COULD of been hilarious.
But Zac Effron isn't really good for that kind of role.
I actually like the guy, but it...
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posted by Canada24
AFTER ONE LONG AS BATTLE:

ON THE ROAD:

Packie: Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit. Michael!... DAMMIT!... I coulda been nice to him for once in my fucking life!.. Kid only wanted to help!

Derrick: He loved you, Packie. He was happy toi spoke to him. Didn't matter what toi was saying.

Packie: Yeah, well, now I gotta explain to his folks that their son is, like, lying dead on the floor of a bank in Algonquin.

Derrick: We'll give them his cut. When your kid is living the life, toi gotta expect someone to come through the door and break this sorta news.

Niko: That does not make it any easier to hear. And we...
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posted by Canada24
A FEW DAYS LATER:

ON THE ROAD:

Packie: Gerald was very clear about the way things is going down, boys. Me and Michael are on the civilians, Derrick and Niko are on employee's... (to Derrick) did toi sort out the charge for the voûte door?

Derrick: What's that mean? Of course I sorted out the charge. What toi think I been doing all day?

Packie: I dunno. Nodding off with a needle sticking outta your arm?

Derrick: Patrick, toi was such a sweet little boy when I left this city.

Packie toi been gone a long time Derrick.

Niko: (sarcastically) This is an emotional moment, I can feel the brotherly l’amour in...
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