Do toi feel the same way??

im starting to hate/love anime! Heres why:
The Hate is not really hate its plus like envy and jealously, cuz in animé shows the guy always protects the girl and is such a hero to her and makes me really jealous!! ( Example Misa and Usui from Maid Sama ) and i know that nobody wiil ever be like that to me and i get mad at animé for being so unrealistic and making me mad so ya, so i quit for a while then i go like: NO I l’amour ANIME!!!!!! animé ROCKS I CANT GO WITHOUT IT!!!!!!!! IT IS MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! so ya, but the good news is that l’amour is winning over hate! and ill never hate animé im just annoyed! so my question is: do toi guys feel the same way??