What kind of person am I?

When I'm upset I'm apathetic when I'm happy I'm silly. I'm upset most of the time. I'm smart in school and can be smart with problems and psychological stuff. I don't care if I have Friends ou not. I'm aléatoire and l’amour livres and anime. I sometimes give up on reality and get depressed. I try ro do the right thing and like to hear opinions. I can't stand uselessness and can be very cold. I am caring and pious sometimes too.