Mother was a handful as usual and as usual she was able to find fault with everything I did.
I am the "Dean of Medicine", graduated medical school in the haut, retour au début of my class, and I run a hospital and it is still not enough to earn her respect.
She called me a slut. How could she actually call me....?
Then there is House. toi were going to stand up for me. toi felt defensive of me. I should tell toi that I loved the way that felt. toi whom I have loved forever and wanted to pay some attention to me. toi felt like a hero to me in that moment. I know toi needed time alone. I have done nothing but order toi around and keep toi jumping through hoops.
I don't know why everything toi do makes me plus afraid that this is not what toi want. I wish I could tell toi that I am scared. I have never wanted many things in my life. My life has been based on gaining approval. But, "I want you." I have always wanted you.
"I am screwing this up." I am screwing us up.
I wish I could tell toi that when toi walk into the room I just want to touch you. I think about what it feels like when your lips brush across mine. I can feel toi inside me and how amziing toi feel to me. I can feel toi in my core. The moment that toi took me in your arms and toi picked up and I laid underneath you. I never imagined that toi would feel so good to me. I felt like I was.........................Home.
I knew from the beginning that jour in the bookstore I would never meet another man that I wanted the way I wanted you. But I know it doesn't seem that way. Lately I can't hold a smile. Lately...... Lately I am so afraid toi will find out I am not what toi want. toi will realize I am not good enough.
She put her head in her hands and tears began streaming down her face. I need toi House. I need toi so much. Please ........
At that moment she felt a hand touch her. She didn't jump because she knew the touch.
Cuddy come here. House pulled her up gently and he sat down and she sat in his lap and she buried her head in his shoulder. He held her and he rocked as she cried.
Cuddy talk to me. Tell me what's wrong.
She just hung on to him tighter and cried harder.
Why are toi so upset now? Is it because I drugged your mother ou I tried to get out of being here? I am sorry. Cuddy do toi want out of this?
She raised up and she put her hand on his face. Maybe that would be the best. Maybe this is just plus than toi can handle.
With that he stood up. "What?!" plus than I can handle? I am not the one who looks miserable all the time ou barks out orders like they are a drill instructor. toi wait on me to screw up ou to let toi down.
House maybe that is why toi lied to me ou tried to get out of my birthday dinner. toi are just sabtoging this.
Again with the lying. Cuddy I did that to save my patient. I didn't tell toi afterwards because toi made a production out of me respecting your wishes. I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt us. I didn't want to lose you.
I drugged your mother because I didn't want to spend the evening with her and her ranting. I didn't want to listen to Wilson whining.
For someone who didn't want me to change toi have done nothing but try to change me. I feel like I am on a tightrope.
Well toi can leave. toi don't have to be here. toi are free to leave anytime toi want. I have always survived. I cried myself to sleep many nights because of you. One plus is not really a big deal.
He approached her and she tried to pull away but he held on. I don't want to leave Cuddy. I.....
We have everything but the truth Cuddy.
"Cuddy what is the truth?" He put his finger under her jaw and raised her face upward until their eyes met.
"I can't..................."
"Cuddy", the truth?
Her eyes were so full of fear and then she just a dit it.
I'm afraid!!! ok I am afraid.
toi are not the only one who is broken and screwed up. I am so in l’amour with you. toi were my fantaisie House. toi were in my head and now toi are in my............ And again the tears streamed down her face.
You're in my cœur, coeur now and I don't know how to deal with it. I know what it feels like to be touched par toi and how toi feel when toi make l’amour to me and I can't imagine how that would feel if I...... if I lost........
He wrapped his arms around her little frame and sighed and as he began to speak a tear escaped his eyes.
Cuddy I was drowning in my self pity and my pills and toi put your faith in me and toi found a way to breathe life back into me. That chasm that we talked about a few years ago; toi turned a deaf ear to it and toi just dealt with me from your heart.
I am a different man now. I am here because I want to be here and I am trying to reach you. Cuddy come here to me.
Cuddy, "I l’amour you. He led her to the piano and he began to play.
"Wilson had it sent over from his condo to Cuddy's." It was therapuetic for House and Wilson had bought for him.
As he played the tension in her body eased and she watched his hands déplacer across the keys.
"That is beautiful House. What is it?
"Cuddy's Serenade." I composed it the night of Rachel's Simchat.
"What?"
I wrote it that night.
House I wanted to invite you. "I wanted toi there." I didn't know how to say it ou how to ask you.
There was a moment that I realized toi had always been there to save me Cuddy and toi took the hit and my wrath. I realized how much toi have donné up and sacrificed for me. toi put yourself out there for this hospital, patients, and for me.
I was so mad at toi about the surgery toi did but toi did it to save my life. toi knew I would be furious.
House did toi forgive me?
Cuddy toi have been there every step and took everything I had to dish out. The question is now,
"can toi forgive me?"
"I l’amour toi Cuddy." "The way toi draw your bottom lip in when toi want something and toi don't know how to ask for it. The way toi raise your eyebrow and square your shoulders when toi are trying to put your foot down. The way toi flirt with me and even the way toi look at me at the dîner table, tableau when I am getting ready to put your mother in her place."
"House", I thought toi wanted the night alone.
"That's the thing Cuddy." I am never alone. I don't feel alone and I like the way that feels. The only thing I could think of anyway was toi naked. So here I am.
"She laughed" and then she laughed harder. He watched her but then as he was watching her he just leaned into her. Cuddy I want you.
House toi always want sex.
No. I want you. I want toi to hear toi laugh. I want toi to stop preparing for defeat and open up to me. I want toi to wear low cut blouses to get my attention. I want toi to put me in my place when I am being a jerk. I want toi to let me in.
"House." And she drew her bottom lip in as she stood up. She raised up on her tip toes and she kissed him. She took his hand and led him to the bedroom and began to undress him and with all abandon she made l’amour to him.
She left him breathless all night.
They were slowly forming a bond and they were beginnning to montrer they had the ability to bend and not break.
As the light came in from the morning sun they looked at each other and they realized this was a new jour and a chance to make history.
"Their history."
