Nothing par the Script
“Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I’m better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I’m smiling but I’m dying trying not to drag my feet”
“I didn’t need (Y/N) anymore,” I keep telling myself over and over again, but I can’t help but feel lonely without her.
“They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I’ll never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I’m crazy but to me it’s perfect sense”
Every bière I have makes me think of her more. All the old feelings, and the new just amount to the feelings I have for her.
“And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around,”
(Y/N). (Y/N). That’s all that was on my mind. I needed her to take me back.
“And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in l’amour but all I heard
Was nothing.”
I called her. No answer.
“So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if we’re face to face then she’ll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I’m hurting, she’ll take me back for sure”
I needed to see her again. I had to. She would see how much I needed her.
“And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around”
She stills loves me. I know it.
“And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in l’amour but all I heard
Was nothing”
I called her again. No answer. Maybe she was ignoring me.
“She a dit nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing”
The dial tone rang in my ear.
“Ohh, sometimes love’s intoxicating
Ohh, you’re coming down, your hands are shaking
When toi realize there’s no one waiting”
I was alone. She didn’t want me.
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I’m better off now
Than I ever was with her
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around
I fucking Lost it. I needed her so bad. I was no one without her.
“And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in l’amour but all I heard
Was nothing”
The world was going to know I loved her still.
“She a dit nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing.”
“I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing.”
“Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I’m better off now
Than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I’m smiling but I’m dying trying not to drag my feet”
“I didn’t need (Y/N) anymore,” I keep telling myself over and over again, but I can’t help but feel lonely without her.
“They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I’ll never
Only they can’t see where this is gonna end
They all think I’m crazy but to me it’s perfect sense”
Every bière I have makes me think of her more. All the old feelings, and the new just amount to the feelings I have for her.
“And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around,”
(Y/N). (Y/N). That’s all that was on my mind. I needed her to take me back.
“And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in l’amour but all I heard
Was nothing.”
I called her. No answer.
“So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if we’re face to face then she’ll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I’m hurting, she’ll take me back for sure”
I needed to see her again. I had to. She would see how much I needed her.
“And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around”
She stills loves me. I know it.
“And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in l’amour but all I heard
Was nothing”
I called her again. No answer. Maybe she was ignoring me.
“She a dit nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing”
The dial tone rang in my ear.
“Ohh, sometimes love’s intoxicating
Ohh, you’re coming down, your hands are shaking
When toi realize there’s no one waiting”
I was alone. She didn’t want me.
Am I better off dead?
Am I better off a quitter?
They say I’m better off now
Than I ever was with her
And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
‘Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change her mind, turn it all around
I fucking Lost it. I needed her so bad. I was no one without her.
“And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred
So I, dialed her number and confessed to her
I’m still in l’amour but all I heard
Was nothing”
The world was going to know I loved her still.
“She a dit nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing
I got nothing
Oh, I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh, I got nothing.”
“I got nothing
I got nothing
I got nothing.”
toi aren’t exactly sure what you’re humming to… But it’s something.
“Hey, (Y/N), have toi seen my-” “THUD!” toi rip open the douche curtain to see your boyfriend had tripped over the doorway.
“Oh my god, Two-Bit, are toi ok?!?” toi gasp.
He looks up at you. “Oh my god you’re in the shower!” He yells.
toi yank the curtain back, covering yourself up.
“Two-Bit, are toi ok honey?”you ask.
“After seeing that I’m not.” He says. “Damn, your beautiful.” He says, blushing.
“What a pig.” toi laugh.
toi knew your boyfriend was there, and all his friends.
toi hated it when they fought.
Those stupid fights.
toi went over to lot, to make sure things weren’t getting out of hand. If they were, you’d definately call the police.
It would risk them getting arrested, but toi didn’t want any of them hurt; ou dead.
toi saw bodies going at each other, caked in mud and blood.
toi start to walk towards the fight (like an idiot) and are met with a coup de poing to the face.
toi fall into the mud, shocked par the blow.
“Hey! That’s my girlfriend!” Soda yells as he pushes the Soc over, and starts beating him repeatedly.
toi feel a hand on your shoulder as toi get up. toi grab the hand and flip him over.
“Hey,” toi thought. “This is fun.”
toi understood why they liked these so much.
“(Y/N), please stay out of this.” Darry says, eyes still locked on his younger brother.
“She has a point.” Ponyboy snorts.
“Don’t use that tone with me, young man.” Darry says, voice raised.
“Who went and made toi dad?” Ponyboy asked, shrugging his shoulders.
“You take that back.” Darry says, lunging for Ponyboy.
They start beating up on each other, nothing serious. Brothers will be brothers.
“Hey! Knock it off!” toi say, trying to separate them on the ground.
Smack!
toi fall back, the hit getting toi hard.
The boys freeze, realizing they’ve hit you.
“Ow!” toi say. “That was my boob!”
They burst out laughing.
“Oh my god, Steve. Your eye.” toi say as toi remove the ice pack.
“It’s just bump.” He grins.
“A bump? Honey, it’s a huge black eye. It’s plus like an egg.” toi say.
“Old Man can still pack a punch, huh?”
“Steve, toi need to get out of there.” toi say matter-of-factly.
“I got nowhere to go.”
“You can stay with the Curtises. ou me. I just don’t like seeing toi hurt.” toi whisper.
“I’d rather it be me than you.” He says.
“What?” He asks, glancing over at you.
“You’re gonna get pulled over,” toi say, rolling your eyes.
“Do toi think I’d care?” He laughed.
“Dallas Winston, I am shocked and appalled toi just a dit that to me and ran that red light.” toi laugh. “I’m horrified at your driving skills. Remind me not to get into a car with toi again.”
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Light cracked the sky open. The crash that followed jolted toi awake. toi sit up in your bed, wide eyed with fear.
toi had been afraid of thunderstorms since toi were little… something about it just frightened toi to no end.
The sound of your boyfriend breathing calmed toi down. The rhythmic deep breathing soothed you, only for a second.
Another crack lit up the sky, with a giant boom that followed.
“Dally.” toi shake your boyfriend awake.
“Babe… what’s the ma-” He stops as he sees your eyes, wide with fear. He sits up straight and wraps his arms around toi pulling toi close. “You’re fine… You’re fine.” He whispers, rocking toi back and forth. “I got you. I promise. I got you.” Hands running through your hair.
“I just don’t like them.” toi mumble into his bare chest.
“I know. I know.” He say. “But I still got you. I promise.”
But toi were already asleep again.
toi had been afraid of thunderstorms since toi were little… something about it just frightened toi to no end.
The sound of your boyfriend breathing calmed toi down. The rhythmic deep breathing soothed you, only for a second.
Another crack lit up the sky, with a giant boom that followed.
“Dally.” toi shake your boyfriend awake.
“Babe… what’s the ma-” He stops as he sees your eyes, wide with fear. He sits up straight and wraps his arms around toi pulling toi close. “You’re fine… You’re fine.” He whispers, rocking toi back and forth. “I got you. I promise. I got you.” Hands running through your hair.
“I just don’t like them.” toi mumble into his bare chest.
“I know. I know.” He say. “But I still got you. I promise.”
But toi were already asleep again.
heres yet another poem that i wrote. enjoy!
i cried when i looked at the sky
it reminded me of toi
my tears were hot with l’amour
and affection for toi
i want toi so bad, honey
youre all ive ever wanted
but i guess thats too much to ask
God wont give me you, im haunted
so i stay up at night with toi par my side
but thats only a dream
its never anything real
baby, i wish toi knew me
if only toi were real in my reality
youre real in my imaginatin
but rêverie isnt enough
i want your affection
i really do wish toi knew who i am
but your l’amour i will never get
your affection i will never feel
but, before, we HAVE met
i read about your story
and i truly am sorry
toi suffered a great loss and your pain i feel
and i wanted to say to you: Ponyboy, toi are the auteur of your own life story
i cried when i looked at the sky
it reminded me of toi
my tears were hot with l’amour
and affection for toi
i want toi so bad, honey
youre all ive ever wanted
but i guess thats too much to ask
God wont give me you, im haunted
so i stay up at night with toi par my side
but thats only a dream
its never anything real
baby, i wish toi knew me
if only toi were real in my reality
youre real in my imaginatin
but rêverie isnt enough
i want your affection
i really do wish toi knew who i am
but your l’amour i will never get
your affection i will never feel
but, before, we HAVE met
i read about your story
and i truly am sorry
toi suffered a great loss and your pain i feel
and i wanted to say to you: Ponyboy, toi are the auteur of your own life story