I am very sorry that we didn’t have a chance to meet, my dear Michael. toi were definitely my man. I can see myself in you. toi are my reflection. I wonder how much we look alike in many things we do ou we think. My darling, it just hurts me to conceive that it’s too late even to hope for our meeting. Why have I found toi so late? How could I leave my dream to meet toi one jour that I had when I was a child, forget about toi and missed all your life until that horrible June in 2009? And now my mind is full of thoughts of you: every minute, every second. Strange, I have never felt somebody closer to me than you, in spite of we are tremendously far from each other now and we were before in fact. Please, whatever happens, don’t go off my hand. I need toi and l’amour toi very much so, my dear Michael, my baby. And I know toi are always for me. toi are inside me, deep in my heart, in my soul and that place is only yours. Nobody can replace you. toi are my absolutely special secret life I am living along with my other life but both of them I live in different levels. toi are my greatest inspiration, my thrilling discovery and my strongest pain.