December 31, 2009, Today is my last jour at accueil because I have to do the rest of my tour. As we were sitting in the living room I could tell par the look on Princes face that he was not happy about me leaving. I got up and said” come on Prince I want to take toi somewhere”. He grabbed his manteau and followed me out to my truck. He got in and said” where are we going”? I said” you’ll see when we get there”. About 20 minutes later we pulled up in front of a lake and he said” what are we doing here”? I left the trucks doors open so we could listen to the radio and I sat down on the grass. Prince sat down suivant to me and i said” every time I used Grandmas car I came here…to think”. Then the new Miley Cyrus song When I Look At toi started to play on the radio. I softly sang the chorus” Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
Prince used his chemise to wipe the tears off his face and said” please don’t sing that song anymore Alanna”. I a dit “I l’amour this song; it reminds me what toi and I have been through”. He looked up at me and said” I haven’t cried like this since daddy died”. I said” it hurts to keep it in doesn’t it”? He saw me start to cry and he was shocked because he has hardly ever seen me cry before. I was embarrassed and then I felt something that I haven’t felt in a long time…emotionally safe!!!!!!!! We both sat there with arms around each other crying. I said” remember when all of us used to eat whatever we wanted to Saturdays”? He said” yea when dad overcooked the fried chicken and it was all black and dried up”. I laughed and said” when he forgot the bathtub was filling up at Neverland and flooded the whole upstairs”. I said” see that’s the type of stuff toi need to think about when you’re thinking of dad, not the fact that he isn’t here anymore”. He got up and said” I guess your right”. I stood up and we walked to the truck. When we were on our way accueil Prince saw that I was wearing my ceinture and a dit “you’re wearing the belt”. My eyes widened and I said” no I’m not”!!! He a dit as he tugged on the ceinture and said” then what is this thing right here”. I pulled my chemise down and said” nothing that concerns you’’ while trying not to laugh. He said” toi like it don’t you”? I pulled into the driveway and we got out of the car. Walking inside Blanket hit me with a dart and Kenya was jumping all over the place. I ran into my room because I had an idea and after 3 hours I came out. I hooked my laptop up to the TV and told everyone to come into the living room. They all sat down as I pressed the plat button. photos of each of us with my dad played as I sang; Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's so long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.
Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
toi l’amour me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.
Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't toi know you're beautiful!
Yeah
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
par the end everyone crying[including me]!!!!!!!!
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
Prince used his chemise to wipe the tears off his face and said” please don’t sing that song anymore Alanna”. I a dit “I l’amour this song; it reminds me what toi and I have been through”. He looked up at me and said” I haven’t cried like this since daddy died”. I said” it hurts to keep it in doesn’t it”? He saw me start to cry and he was shocked because he has hardly ever seen me cry before. I was embarrassed and then I felt something that I haven’t felt in a long time…emotionally safe!!!!!!!! We both sat there with arms around each other crying. I said” remember when all of us used to eat whatever we wanted to Saturdays”? He said” yea when dad overcooked the fried chicken and it was all black and dried up”. I laughed and said” when he forgot the bathtub was filling up at Neverland and flooded the whole upstairs”. I said” see that’s the type of stuff toi need to think about when you’re thinking of dad, not the fact that he isn’t here anymore”. He got up and said” I guess your right”. I stood up and we walked to the truck. When we were on our way accueil Prince saw that I was wearing my ceinture and a dit “you’re wearing the belt”. My eyes widened and I said” no I’m not”!!! He a dit as he tugged on the ceinture and said” then what is this thing right here”. I pulled my chemise down and said” nothing that concerns you’’ while trying not to laugh. He said” toi like it don’t you”? I pulled into the driveway and we got out of the car. Walking inside Blanket hit me with a dart and Kenya was jumping all over the place. I ran into my room because I had an idea and after 3 hours I came out. I hooked my laptop up to the TV and told everyone to come into the living room. They all sat down as I pressed the plat button. photos of each of us with my dad played as I sang; Everybody needs inspiration,
Everbody needs a song.
A beautiful melody,
When the night's so long.
Cause there is no guarantee,
That this life is easy.
Yeah when my world is falling apart.
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore.
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When I look at you,
I see forgiveness,
I see the truth.
toi l’amour me for who I am,
Like the stars hold the moon,
Right there where they belong.
and I know im not alone.
Yeah when my world is falling apart,
When there's no light to break up the dark,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
Just like kaleidoscope colors,
That cover me,
All I need,
Every breath that I breathe,
Don't toi know you're beautiful!
Yeah
When the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way accueil anymore,
That's when I, I, I look at you.
I look at you, Yeah, Woah.
You, appear just like a dream to me.
par the end everyone crying[including me]!!!!!!!!
"Ella?"mom asked turning to me..
I squinted my eyes..
"What happened?" I asked..
I don't know if mom answered my question, It felt weird...none of what mom said, I understood.
I heard a siren-paramedics.
***
I woke up in the hospital, it was a pretty spacious room...my grandma was there, so was my grandpa and the Jacksons.
"Thank god you're alive!"Paris said.
'Get Well Soon' balloons were hung around the room.
I squinted my eyes in confusion.
"How're toi feeling?"Prince asked..
"Where am I?"I asked,"what happened?"
"A carcrash"grandma told me,"your sister and your brother are doing fine, although your father is temporarily paralized."
"What?"I said.
"You're the only one who is doing well."Blanket smiled.
"I can't remember certain things"I gasped.
"What?"Prince asked.
The doctor came in the room.
"What happened to her?"grandpa asked the doctor.
"Well, good news is..she is not seriously injured..just a few scars.."she replied,"bad news is..she has acute amnesia."
To be continued...
I squinted my eyes..
"What happened?" I asked..
I don't know if mom answered my question, It felt weird...none of what mom said, I understood.
I heard a siren-paramedics.
***
I woke up in the hospital, it was a pretty spacious room...my grandma was there, so was my grandpa and the Jacksons.
"Thank god you're alive!"Paris said.
'Get Well Soon' balloons were hung around the room.
I squinted my eyes in confusion.
"How're toi feeling?"Prince asked..
"Where am I?"I asked,"what happened?"
"A carcrash"grandma told me,"your sister and your brother are doing fine, although your father is temporarily paralized."
"What?"I said.
"You're the only one who is doing well."Blanket smiled.
"I can't remember certain things"I gasped.
"What?"Prince asked.
The doctor came in the room.
"What happened to her?"grandpa asked the doctor.
"Well, good news is..she is not seriously injured..just a few scars.."she replied,"bad news is..she has acute amnesia."
To be continued...
musique playing in the background..people dancing around the dancefloor without a care in the world...as if the world just stopped for a moment and it was just us on the dancefloor smiling at each other like we've been hypnotized ou something.
Me and Prince were there..dancing without a single care in the world..it was a night to remember..a night I wouldn't forget.
But I would forget everything after the accident after the ball..
"THE BRAKE DOES NOT WORK!"my dad screamed in sheer terror as we were about to crash into a car.
"DAD!"
*wait for the story*
MAOI VALLIDO:)
Me and Prince were there..dancing without a single care in the world..it was a night to remember..a night I wouldn't forget.
But I would forget everything after the accident after the ball..
"THE BRAKE DOES NOT WORK!"my dad screamed in sheer terror as we were about to crash into a car.
"DAD!"
*wait for the story*
MAOI VALLIDO:)
Kayla
Justin came over today and Bun did not seem happy about it. I think he’s jealous of him so I try to prove to him there’s nothing to be jealous about. I lean on him and Kiss him and he seems to be improving at not being that angry. He pushes away a strand of my hair that’s hanging above my eye and then smiles. Justin asks me how basketballs going and I reply “ Good I’m definetly improving.” “ Good” he says.
Jean-Michel
Gosh I hate that Justin dude I’d like to knock his teeth out. Tommorow she’s bringing her friend Alana from camp so at least its not a guy this time.
Riss
Prince has enough guts to sit right suivant to me oh how I’d like to kick him in the gut. Kayla probably senses my discomfort and she gets up switches seats with bun. Then Mi takes Jaafar’s siège and Jaafar takes my siège and then I’m sitting in between Kayla and Mi.
Mi
Jaafar’s getting on my nerves with his sad little I don’t get to do anything look.
Justin came over today and Bun did not seem happy about it. I think he’s jealous of him so I try to prove to him there’s nothing to be jealous about. I lean on him and Kiss him and he seems to be improving at not being that angry. He pushes away a strand of my hair that’s hanging above my eye and then smiles. Justin asks me how basketballs going and I reply “ Good I’m definetly improving.” “ Good” he says.
Jean-Michel
Gosh I hate that Justin dude I’d like to knock his teeth out. Tommorow she’s bringing her friend Alana from camp so at least its not a guy this time.
Riss
Prince has enough guts to sit right suivant to me oh how I’d like to kick him in the gut. Kayla probably senses my discomfort and she gets up switches seats with bun. Then Mi takes Jaafar’s siège and Jaafar takes my siège and then I’m sitting in between Kayla and Mi.
Mi
Jaafar’s getting on my nerves with his sad little I don’t get to do anything look.