Rain

Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living par the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my amer existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.

What would toi do,
if the l’amour of your life died,
what would toi do if they died a terrible death,
would toi get revenge,
would toi hate everyone,
would toi become a murderer in return,
would toi cry your life away,
ou would toi take your life away?

What would toi do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would toi do if they died terribly,
would toi laugh because no tears will come,
would toi cry until it is all over,
would toi do the same,
would toi run away,
ou would toi just throw it all away?

What would toi do,
if toi were hit par a car,
what would toi do if toi were dying,
would toi feel sorry for yourself,
would toi cry until the end,
would toi remember everything toi have ever done,
would toi call your mom,
ou would toi hate the person until your life has gone away?

What would toi do,
when everything ends for toi ou a friend?

What would toi do?

Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.

Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...

Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...

Broken,
My cœur, coeur is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...

Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen par the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...

Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...

Darkness,
I am Lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to avaler, hirondelle me forever

There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if cœur, coeur is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with l’amour that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart

Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
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Only knew toi for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
toi always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
toi always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
toi just laughed and helped him
And always forgave

No one knew toi would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying

We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
toi and I were fine

I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
toi ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never a dit goodbye

I wish i could of a dit goodbye
For toi are here
No more
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In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss toi and toi will never be forgotten