Niall Horan Fanfic Chapter 22: Wherever I Go
We were driving only for a few minutes. When we got to wherever it was we were going Niall put his hands over my eyes. We stepped outside and I immediately knew it was the beach. He uncovered my eyes and I took in the scenery.
“Ally loved the beach.” I a dit plus to myself then Niall.
“I know, that’s why I brought toi here. Since toi missed the wake and the funeral, I thought this would be the best way to say goodbye. Going to her grave would be to emotional, but doing something toi both loved to do together, you’ll be able to let go.” He a dit wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Thank you, for not giving up on me.” I said.
“I told you, I’m never going to leave you. Ever.” He said.
We linked hands and walked out onto the beach. We had left our shoes in the limo. I couldn’t help but feel Ally with us.
“Do toi think it’s possible that Ally’s spirit is here?” I asked Niall.
“Yeah.” He said, after considering it for a little while.
“Do toi think it’s crazy that I think her spirit is here?” I a dit again.
“No, toi could be right.” He said.
We stopped walking and just stood in the water, letting it come in and hit our feet and then recede. I loved being here with Niall. This was perfect. I finally felt at peace with Ally’s death. She was gone and there was nothing I could do but live on for her.
“Thank toi for bringing me here.” I said.
“You’re welcome.” Niall a dit smiling down at me.
“I’m not just saying this, but I think it really did help me.” I said.
“Well, that was the goal.” Niall a dit chuckling a little.
I smiled at him. He really was beautiful.
“Hazel?” he said.
“Yeah?” I answered.
“Harry took toi for ice cream, and toi guys have been hanging out a lot lately, should I be worried?” he asked.
Part of me couldn’t believe he would think Harry would make a déplacer on me, and I would let him. Another part of me couldn’t believe that he would ask me this while I was grieving the death of my best friend, but then the last part of me saw how he looked. I couldn’t be mad at him when he looked at me like that.
“No, there is nothing to worry about.” I a dit finally.
“Are toi sure?” he said, hesitant because of how long it took me to respond.
“Yeah, Harry and I are just good friends. He was trying to cheer me up.” I said.
“I saw the way he kissed toi on the cheek before and how tight he hugged toi that night on the bus. It looked a little plus than friendly.” He said.
I couldn’t believe he was accusing me of cheating on him with Harry, his best friend.
“Niall, I told toi nothing is going on. Why don’t toi trust me?” I a dit getting angry.
“It’s not that I don’t trust toi Hazel, I just, it hurts to see other guys around you. I just want toi to be my one and only.” He said.
“I am Niall, I only l’amour you. toi know that right?” I said.
“Yeah, but…” he trailed off.
“But what? I thought we were done with this?” I said.
“We are. Just forget it.” He said.
“No, tell me.” I said.
“I always feel like, like toi could do better than me. Like I’m not good enough, and that you’ll leave me for some guy who’s bigger and has big muscles and a perfect smile, and who can be around toi all the time, without ever having to leave.” He a dit letting a tear roll down his cheek.
“Niall, I very well could do that, but that’s not what I want. I want you. I l’amour your scrawny arms, and your braces. I don’t want a big tough guy, who’s plus interested in working out than being with me.” I said.
Niall just nodded. He let a few plus tears slide down his cheeks.
“No one is better than toi Niall. I l’amour you.” I said.
“I l’amour toi too Hazel.” He said.
“Can I have a hug?” I said.
Niall quickly wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We were still standing in the water. He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist and nestled my head into his neck.
“Hazel, I l’amour you, I’m sorry for accusing toi of cheating on me. I just get really jealous when I see toi with other guys.” He said.
“It’s okay babe. Just promise me something.” I said.
“Anything.” He replied.
“That you’ll never doubt my l’amour for toi again.” I said.
“I promise.” He said.
He placed me down back in the sand and grabbed my hand. We continued walking down the beach. Every few minutes we would stop and Kiss and/or hug. I was finally not thinking about Ally when my phone rang. It was Ally’s mom. I didn’t know if I could talk to her yet. Niall saw it was her and pressed the talk button. I looked at him shocked but he gave me the ‘It’s for your own good’ look.
“Hello?” Ally’s mom said.
“Hi Mrs. Varen how are you.” I said.
“As well as I can be. How are toi holding up honey?” she said.
“I’ve been better.” I said.
“Well I heard toi were back home. I wanted to have toi over for dinner.” She said.
“Can I bring my boyfriend?” I asked.
“Sure.” She a dit hesitantly.
“Thank you.” I answered.
“Well that’s all for now. I’ll see toi tomorrow night then.” She a dit hanging up.
“What did she want?” Niall asked grabbing my hand.
“She wanted me over for dinner. I asked if toi could go and she a dit yes. Will toi come?” I said.
“Yeah of course.” He said.
“It’s tomorrow night, she probably talked to my mom so I’ll find out plus from her later.” I said.
“Are toi okay?” he asked me.
“Yeah. Yeah I am okay.” I answered. Honestly, I was okay.
After that we continued walking down the beach. When we got to the end we made our way back and got in the limo to go home. The whole way accueil I had my head rested on Niall as he hummed various songs in my ear. When we got back to my house he walked me to my door.
“See toi tomorrow?” he said.
“See toi then.” I said.
He gave me and small Kiss and then went back into the limo. I watched it pull away before I went inside. Today was one of the best days ever. It was late at night when I got accueil so I went straight to my room and collapsed onto my bed. My phone rang.
“Hello?” I a dit sleepily.
“Hey babe.” Niall said.
“What’s going on?” I asked him.
“Nothing just getting into my hotel room.” He said.
“Cool.” I answered.
“Yeah, toi sound tired. Did I wake you?” he said.
“Nope I was just about to put my pajamas on.” I said.
“Cool, well goodnight princess.” He a dit making a kissy noise into the phone.
“Goodnight.” I giggled.
“I l’amour you, sweet dreams.” He said.
“I l’amour toi too.” I said.
When we hung up I put on my pajamas and slid into bed. Tomorrow was going to be rough. I didn’t know if I was ready to talk about Ally. I didn’t want to break down. That’s the last thing her parents need is me freaking out. I’m glad Niall was coming. He always knew what to say and do to make me feel better.
We were driving only for a few minutes. When we got to wherever it was we were going Niall put his hands over my eyes. We stepped outside and I immediately knew it was the beach. He uncovered my eyes and I took in the scenery.
“Ally loved the beach.” I a dit plus to myself then Niall.
“I know, that’s why I brought toi here. Since toi missed the wake and the funeral, I thought this would be the best way to say goodbye. Going to her grave would be to emotional, but doing something toi both loved to do together, you’ll be able to let go.” He a dit wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Thank you, for not giving up on me.” I said.
“I told you, I’m never going to leave you. Ever.” He said.
We linked hands and walked out onto the beach. We had left our shoes in the limo. I couldn’t help but feel Ally with us.
“Do toi think it’s possible that Ally’s spirit is here?” I asked Niall.
“Yeah.” He said, after considering it for a little while.
“Do toi think it’s crazy that I think her spirit is here?” I a dit again.
“No, toi could be right.” He said.
We stopped walking and just stood in the water, letting it come in and hit our feet and then recede. I loved being here with Niall. This was perfect. I finally felt at peace with Ally’s death. She was gone and there was nothing I could do but live on for her.
“Thank toi for bringing me here.” I said.
“You’re welcome.” Niall a dit smiling down at me.
“I’m not just saying this, but I think it really did help me.” I said.
“Well, that was the goal.” Niall a dit chuckling a little.
I smiled at him. He really was beautiful.
“Hazel?” he said.
“Yeah?” I answered.
“Harry took toi for ice cream, and toi guys have been hanging out a lot lately, should I be worried?” he asked.
Part of me couldn’t believe he would think Harry would make a déplacer on me, and I would let him. Another part of me couldn’t believe that he would ask me this while I was grieving the death of my best friend, but then the last part of me saw how he looked. I couldn’t be mad at him when he looked at me like that.
“No, there is nothing to worry about.” I a dit finally.
“Are toi sure?” he said, hesitant because of how long it took me to respond.
“Yeah, Harry and I are just good friends. He was trying to cheer me up.” I said.
“I saw the way he kissed toi on the cheek before and how tight he hugged toi that night on the bus. It looked a little plus than friendly.” He said.
I couldn’t believe he was accusing me of cheating on him with Harry, his best friend.
“Niall, I told toi nothing is going on. Why don’t toi trust me?” I a dit getting angry.
“It’s not that I don’t trust toi Hazel, I just, it hurts to see other guys around you. I just want toi to be my one and only.” He said.
“I am Niall, I only l’amour you. toi know that right?” I said.
“Yeah, but…” he trailed off.
“But what? I thought we were done with this?” I said.
“We are. Just forget it.” He said.
“No, tell me.” I said.
“I always feel like, like toi could do better than me. Like I’m not good enough, and that you’ll leave me for some guy who’s bigger and has big muscles and a perfect smile, and who can be around toi all the time, without ever having to leave.” He a dit letting a tear roll down his cheek.
“Niall, I very well could do that, but that’s not what I want. I want you. I l’amour your scrawny arms, and your braces. I don’t want a big tough guy, who’s plus interested in working out than being with me.” I said.
Niall just nodded. He let a few plus tears slide down his cheeks.
“No one is better than toi Niall. I l’amour you.” I said.
“I l’amour toi too Hazel.” He said.
“Can I have a hug?” I said.
Niall quickly wrapped his arms around my waist and I wrapped my arms around his neck. We were still standing in the water. He lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist and nestled my head into his neck.
“Hazel, I l’amour you, I’m sorry for accusing toi of cheating on me. I just get really jealous when I see toi with other guys.” He said.
“It’s okay babe. Just promise me something.” I said.
“Anything.” He replied.
“That you’ll never doubt my l’amour for toi again.” I said.
“I promise.” He said.
He placed me down back in the sand and grabbed my hand. We continued walking down the beach. Every few minutes we would stop and Kiss and/or hug. I was finally not thinking about Ally when my phone rang. It was Ally’s mom. I didn’t know if I could talk to her yet. Niall saw it was her and pressed the talk button. I looked at him shocked but he gave me the ‘It’s for your own good’ look.
“Hello?” Ally’s mom said.
“Hi Mrs. Varen how are you.” I said.
“As well as I can be. How are toi holding up honey?” she said.
“I’ve been better.” I said.
“Well I heard toi were back home. I wanted to have toi over for dinner.” She said.
“Can I bring my boyfriend?” I asked.
“Sure.” She a dit hesitantly.
“Thank you.” I answered.
“Well that’s all for now. I’ll see toi tomorrow night then.” She a dit hanging up.
“What did she want?” Niall asked grabbing my hand.
“She wanted me over for dinner. I asked if toi could go and she a dit yes. Will toi come?” I said.
“Yeah of course.” He said.
“It’s tomorrow night, she probably talked to my mom so I’ll find out plus from her later.” I said.
“Are toi okay?” he asked me.
“Yeah. Yeah I am okay.” I answered. Honestly, I was okay.
After that we continued walking down the beach. When we got to the end we made our way back and got in the limo to go home. The whole way accueil I had my head rested on Niall as he hummed various songs in my ear. When we got back to my house he walked me to my door.
“See toi tomorrow?” he said.
“See toi then.” I said.
He gave me and small Kiss and then went back into the limo. I watched it pull away before I went inside. Today was one of the best days ever. It was late at night when I got accueil so I went straight to my room and collapsed onto my bed. My phone rang.
“Hello?” I a dit sleepily.
“Hey babe.” Niall said.
“What’s going on?” I asked him.
“Nothing just getting into my hotel room.” He said.
“Cool.” I answered.
“Yeah, toi sound tired. Did I wake you?” he said.
“Nope I was just about to put my pajamas on.” I said.
“Cool, well goodnight princess.” He a dit making a kissy noise into the phone.
“Goodnight.” I giggled.
“I l’amour you, sweet dreams.” He said.
“I l’amour toi too.” I said.
When we hung up I put on my pajamas and slid into bed. Tomorrow was going to be rough. I didn’t know if I was ready to talk about Ally. I didn’t want to break down. That’s the last thing her parents need is me freaking out. I’m glad Niall was coming. He always knew what to say and do to make me feel better.
