“I’ve loved toi from the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared of the way I felt. toi know, loving a girl. I learned how to become a sarcastic chienne to make it feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work.
When we got together, it scared the shit out of me, because toi were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed toi away. I made toi think things were your fault. But. Really I was just terrified of the pain.
I screwed that girl Sophia, to kind of spite toi for having that hold on me. And I’m a total fucking coward because… (takes tickets out of bag) I got these. These tickets to go for us three months ago.
But I, I couldn’t stand…I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can toi understand?
toi were trying to punish me back and it’s hard. It’s so horrible. Because. Really. I’d die for you. I l’amour you. I l’amour toi so much it’s killing me”