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January, 22, 2010,

I was in Frank's car and we were on our way to the release party/CD signing because my album "Legacy" was released this morning. I looked out the window and then back at Frank as I a dit "these crowds of fans just keep getting bigger and bigger!" The line of fans stretched all the way around the Dunkin' donuts suivant to the musique store where the CD signing is being held. Frank got a worried on his face and I unbuckled my seatbelt.

There were some poorly built metal gates that separated the main entrance to the store and the fans. I walked alongside Frank as we made our way down the path to the front doors. I stepped a little closer to the gate so I could wave to the fans. Before I could walk away, one of the 13-year-old girls grabbed the strings on my sweat-shirt and tried to pull me closer. A teenage boy grabbed my arm and yanked me over the haut, retour au début of the gate. Frank obviously didn't notice as he continued to walk up to the doorway. I screamed "FRANK" at the haut, retour au début of my lungs. He turned around to see me lying on the ground having everything ripped away from me par the crazed fans!

Frank literally had to pick me up and balançoire, swing me over his shoulder. He carried me inside to a back room of the store where they put all the extra inventory. He put me down and looked at me as I stood there with giant rips in my sweatshirt! He asked "ARE toi OKAY?" I a dit with a shaking voice "I think so! I've never seen people like that before; they are like savage animals! I think one of them ripped off one of the ceinture loops on my pants!" He took a sigh of relief and asked "are toi sure you're okay?" I a dit as my hands shook "yeah, it just freaked me out!" He a dit "I didn't think toi were at the point that toi needed to travel with security guards; I guess I was wrong! I was going to wait until a few days before toi go on tour to chercher for a bodyguard but; I'm going to have to déplacer that up a little bit! Do toi think you're okay enough to go through with the CD signing?" I a dit "of course, I'm not going to let down all those fans out there!"

I took off my sweat-shirt revealing my plain white T-shirt and followed Frank down the hallway. As we got closer to the main room, the two of us heard the fans chanting "ALANNA, ALANNA, ALANNA!!!" I a dit "it's so weird hearing that because for years I was used to hearing people chanting dad's name!" He a dit "this is just the beginning kid! toi better get ready for your tour because that's going to be 10 times worse; I promise toi that!"

I walked into the room and thousands of fans were waiting in a LONG line. I sat down at the table, tableau in the front of the room with a backdrop of my "legacy" album cover behind me. The store security guided fans through the line just long enough for me to sign their CD. After about four hours, everyone had had their CDs autographed and it was time to clear the store of customers so we could start the release party.

After waiting around for about an heure and playing with an application on my cell phone while the staff members set up for the party; people started to arrive. The first people to come were some of my family members, Prince, Paris, Blanket, my Aunt Latoya and grandma. They walked up to me and Prince sat down in the chair nearest to me. I looked up from my phone and asked "where's my uncles?" Aunt Latoya a dit "they a dit that they were too busy to come!" I a dit "seriously, all they ever do is sit around and they couldn't come for three hours to support my new album being released?"

Then a whole crowd of célébrités walked into the room and I think that's what I realized that I was one of those celebrities. Paris was definitely taking advantage of the opportunity to hang out with some of her role mannequins like the Jonas Brothers. As I was talking to Adam Sandler I felt someone tap my shoulder and turned around to see who it was. I was shocked to see Damien's mother Kate standing there. I hugged her with a smile on my face and asked "what are toi doing here? I didn't expect to see you!" She motioned for me to follow her outside because the musique was so loud indoors.

We walked outside and the two of us sat down on the curb. She a dit "I had come down here to montrer my support! I listened to the album the whole ride down here and it's amazing; especially man in the mirror!" I a dit "thanks for the compliment; did toi see Carter yet?" She a dit "yeah, he was sitting on Prince's lap and eating some potato chips off of his plate. Oh my gosh; he's getting so big!" I a dit "I know, he's walking and talking now!" She a dit "Damien told me that he came down here around Carter's birthday; how did that go?" I was debating in my mind whether ou not to tell her how it actually went but, I a dit "it was okay; I wasn't expecting it but it was okay."

I took a deep breath as I adjusted my backwards facing hat and a dit "so… I heard he has a girlfriend!" She a dit "yeah he does and he lives with her in her parent’s basement." I couldn't help but laugh at the fact that he's living in some dusty old basement and I asked "what's her name?" She a dit "Amber I think." I looked at her confused and asked "you're not sure what her name is? Haven't toi met her?" Kate a dit "yeah I met her; she seems kind of snobby if toi ask me! I think her parents probably spoil her! Damien tried to convince me to let the two of them déplacer into my house and I told him that he needs to start growing up and being there for the baby! Did he spend time with Carter when he came to your grandmother's house?" I a dit "I tried to get him to but, he doesn't really want to interact with him!" She a dit "I hate to say this about my own son but, I don't think you're ever going to get through to him AJ; he's a Lost cause! I wouldn't waste your time on trying to fix him because I've tried and it doesn't seem to work! He's just in his own little world where he doesn't have to take responsibility for anything that he does; he's immature and that's all there is to it!"

I saw someone walking towards the building and a dit "oh my gosh, I think that's Jesse McCartney!" I started blushing and Kate clutched her side in laughter as she squeezed out the words "I don't think I've ever seen toi blush before! toi really think he's that cute?" As he got closer I whispered "not cute but damn sexy!" She started laughing hysterically as he was just a few feet away from us. Jesse walked up to me and hugged me as he a dit "longtime no see! I haven't seen toi since toi went to my tour in 2005!" I a dit while trying to play it cool "yeah, I l’amour your new album! It's in my truck right now!" He a dit "I can't stay too long but I just wanted to stop par and congratulate toi on your first album!" I a dit "that means a lot coming from you; thanks!" He a dit "no problem" and turned to go back the way he came. As he walked away, Kate a dit something but I wasn't paying attention. She snapped me out of it and asked "will toi stop checking out his butt?" I a dit as I blushed "sorry, I can't help it! He's just so perfect looking!"

January 31, 2010,

Frank had gone to go pick up my new tour bus while I spent an heure with my family before we left to go make our way to the first concert on my "Legacy" tour; which is in Maine. I was helping Blanket with a videogame while Carter sat on my lap. I asked as I quickly glanced over at Prince "you haven't a dit much today; that's not like you! What's on your mind?" He stood up and a dit arrogantly "like toi care anyway!" He stormed out of the house slamming the door behind him and I looked at grandma confused. I took Carter off my lap and passed the PlayStation controller to Blanket. Grandma a dit "I wonder what's got into Prince!" I grabbed my truck keys off the counter in the cuisine and a dit "I don't know but, I'm going to find out!" She asked "do toi need help finding him?" I a dit as I opened the front door "no, I have a pretty good idea of where he is!"

After driving around for 15 minutes yelling his name out the window, I spotted Prince sitting down in front of the Lake. I pulled the truck in and a dit as he turned around to look at me "I figured toi might be here!" I shut the truck off and hopped out. I walked up to him and sat down in the grass. I asked "what's going on with you? What was that whole thing back at the house about?" He a dit something that I definitely wasn't expecting to hear "I don't want toi to leave!" I a dit "I thought toi would be excited that I'm going to be gone pretty much nonstop for eight months! toi and I are always arguing about something so, I figured toi would be excited to have a break from me!" He a dit "I was… Until today because it's finally hitting me that you're going to be gone for a while!" I a dit "you know that if toi ever need to talk all toi have to do is call my cell phone! The only time that I won't pick up is if I'm on stage but, I'll always return your calls afterwards. He a dit "it's not that, it's just that when you're here in makes me remember what it's like to have dad around again! I just keep picturing him lying on the ground and me knowing that he was already gone!"

I a dit as I put my arm around him "I know how toi feel because the same thing happens to me all the time! toi just have to remember the good times we had with dad when he was here!" Prince a dit "I just don't want to forget those memories because that's all we really have left of him now!" I asked as I started laughing "remember that time at Neverland when toi and I decided to have a submarine adventure in the bathtub when I was six and toi were three?" Prince a dit with a smile on his face "oh yeah, dad went to go get our towels and the two of us flooded the whole bathroom in a matter of minutes!" I laughed as I asked "remember, dad came back in with the towels and was slipping all over the place because of all the water and soap we got on the floor?" He a dit as he started to laugh "yeah, daddy was so frustrated with us because he had to spend hours mopping up the water that was 3 inches high!" I a dit "I don't think he ever left us alone to go get something ever again after that!"

Prince a dit "then there was that time when toi and I were fighting all jour and he tied the two of us together so we would have to get along? I a dit "yeah; I remember how much I hated toi that jour because toi didn't want to do anything that I wanted to! What about the sleepover's you, dad, and I used to have together right after Paris was born!" Prince a dit "I remember that! We would watch cable ou films and drink chocolat milk!" Prince squinted his eyes and started laughing with an evil tone. He looked at me with a mischievous look on his face and I asked "what?" He a dit "now I remember! One time when you, dad, and I had fallen asleep watching a movie, toi had had four glasses of chocolat lait and when we had gotten up the suivant morning toi had wet dad's bed!!!" I got defensive and a dit "I did not; you're imagining things!" He laughed and a dit "no, no I'm not! I remember cause toi a dit 'I'm sorry daddy! I didn't mean to!' Then I remembered dad saying 'it's no big deal! It happens sometimes! I'm not mad at you!' The suivant time he didn't let toi drink anything!" The memories came flooding back to me and I a dit trying to change the subject "alright, let's go accueil and see my tour bus!”

Prince teased "okay, whatever toi say tomboy tinkler!!!" I playfully threatened as we climbed into the front siège of my truck "you better not tell anyone about that chocolat lait incident! What do toi expect? I was only five years old when that happened!" He didn't give me an answer as he stared down at my truck keys. He asked "how come toi have three keys? What are the other two for?" I a dit "I've been trying to figure that out since I got the truck! Nobody else knows what they're for either! I've tried them in every lock I own but neither of them works! At this point, I really don't think they belong to anything! I just think they are fake and just pretend!"

I pulled into the driveway at Havenhurst and caught my first glimpse of my tour bus. I opened my truck door and ran towards the bus. Blanket, Paris, Carter, and grandma stood outside and I a dit "wow the outside of the tour bus looks awesome!" I stared at the giant decal of what appeared to be dad's hand passing my hand his signature sequin glove; with the words "Alanna Jackson Legacy tour" written underneath it in or lettering. Grandma started crying and a dit "the image is so symbolic! In a way when your dad signed toi to his record label he pretty much did pass that gant onto you!" I a dit "I never thought about it like that before. Please don't start crying; at least not yet because I don't have to leave for another 15 minutes!"

All of us walked onto the bus and I was starstruck! Prince a dit "wow, this is crazy!" I looked around and there was a leather canapé with a huge flatscreen TV and an Xbox 360 mounted on the table. I walked towards the back of the bus and there was a pretty good-sized room with a full-size bed. Then there were four bunkbeds that could be folded up to reveal plus living space. I went back into the room with the full-sized lit and noticed the medium-sized bathroom. Frank a dit "I don't mean to glorify myself but, I think I did a pretty good job picking out this tour bus as your accueil away from home!" I a dit "that's an understatement!"

Frank looked at his watch and a dit "I hate to tear toi away from your family AJ but, we have to get going because we have to pick up your new bodyguard in 10 minutes!" I sighed and a dit "this is so bittersweet because on one hand I'm getting to live out my childhood dream and on the other hand I don't want to leave toi guys behind; especially Carter!" Prince hugged me and a dit "I'm going to miss you! toi better come back and visit as often as toi can!" I a dit "of course I will!" Paris a dit "you better prepare yourself because now that I have a cell phone I'm going to text toi a lot!" I hugged her and a dit "I'm looking vers l'avant, vers l’avant to it!" I looked down and Blanket and he started crying. I picked him up so his legs were wrapped around my waist and asked "what's wrong?" He a dit as he cried into my shoulder "I don't want toi to go! Eight months is too long!" I a dit "I'll see toi as much as I can during those eight months!" He a dit "I know but, it's not the same as having toi here every day!" I a dit "I'll be back before toi know it! My Los Angeles montrer is in two months and I'm going to stay here the night after the show! I kissed the haut, retour au début of his head and put him down. I looked over at grandma who was visibly upset and I a dit "I'll be back; I l’amour you!" She a dit as she hugged me "I l’amour toi too! Please be sûr, sans danger AJ!" I a dit "I will; I promise!" I looked at Carter with a halfhearted smile on my face and a dit "here comes the hardest part! I took Carter out of grandma's arms and a dit "I l’amour toi Carter! I'm going to miss you!" I don't think he knew how long I was going to be gone for because he's only 14 months old! I a dit as I kissed him "be good okay?" I passed him back to grandma and Frank a dit "okay, we'll see toi guys in April!" All of them walked off the bus and I stared out the window as the bus driver drove away.

February 1, 2010,

I woke up in my room inside the tour bus and looked over at the alarm clock to see that it was 7 AM. I didn't technically have to be up for another two hours because we wouldn't reach Maine until then. I sat up on the edge of my lit and rubbed my eyes. I stood up and looked in the mirror at my blonde hair that was sticking up in every direction.

After I took a shower, I walked out into the living room area and sat down on the leather couch. I looked over at Frank to see him lying on one of the twin size bunkbeds with his mouth wide open and snoring. I looked across from me and a tall athletic looking man was sitting down in a chair. I a dit "you must be my new bodyguard, my name is AJ and I'm sorry I was asleep par the time they picked toi up; ou else I would've introduced myself yesterday." He a dit "that's no big deal; my name is Jeff." I laughed at Frank's obnoxiously loud snoring and a dit "it doesn't sound like he's getting up anytime soon! toi must not have slept really good last night because toi were in the suivant lit over from him." Jeff a dit "it's not that bad as long as toi put a oreiller over your head!"

While the bus driver drove us to the arena, I worked on my homeschooling. If dad didn't make it mandatory for me to finish high school I would've already dropped out par now. Being famous means plus to me right now than being forced to do all this awful history paper work! History has always been my least favori subject in school but, ironically it's probably the one that I understand the most! I'm obviously capable of getting all A's on my rapporter card but, I've fallen so far behind since giving birth to Carter that I'm down to a D-. Looking back at it now, I definitely could've been plus motivated and applied myself!

2 1/2 hours later, we pulled up in front of the Portland Civic Center and I looked out the window at the thousands upon thousands of fans that crowded the streets. The montrer doesn't start until seven but some of those fans have been waiting a while because they had tents and sleeping bags laid out on the sidewalk. Jeff looked out the window while Frank made a business call in my bedroom. Jeff a dit "those fans must be freezing out there!" I a dit "we should buy some of them some hot chocolate!" He a dit "okay" and we walked to the nearby Dunkin' Donuts.

A few minutes later, we walked out carrying a giant container of hot chocolat and hundreds of Styrofoam cups. Jeff and I went back to the sidewalk where all the fans were lined up. I passed out a few cups of hot chocolat and then the chaos started. Once they realized that it was really me passing out the cups, they started freaking out! Some of them actually started crying and then I felt something touching my feet. I looked down and backed up as a boy attempted to steal my shoelace. I asked "do toi mind? That is my shoe toi know! I'm trying to do something nice for toi guys and toi just want to rip me to shreds!" Jeff a dit "hey, what do toi think you're doing boy? Get away from her shoes!" Jeff gently forced him backwards and I sighed with relief because I knew with Jeff here there wouldn't be a repeat of the CD signing!

As I sat backstage waiting for the opening acts to finish, Frank put his hand on my shoulder and a dit "get ready for this kid! This is just the beginning and don't forget… Every jour creates your history!" Those words stuck to me like glue as I bent down in the stage grille-pain that's going to shoot me onto the stage for the opening song. The musique to "another part of me" paused in suspense as I shot onto the stage. toi could hear my feet slam on the ground as I landed and stood there in silence. I didn't move, didn't flinch, nothing, as I stood there in a or suite like the one my dad wore in his "history" tour. If there's one thing that I was able to pick up from watching my dad perform when I was three years old, it was the power and importance of using suspense to captivate the audience.

I stood there still in silence and waited for a full minute before making a rapide, swift movement to the rim of my sunglasses. I slowly ran my fingers across the lenses as the crowd exploded into an uproar of screams. I yanked my sunglasses off and the musique started playing again.

After a few songs, it was time for a costume change and I rushed backstage dripping with sweat. As the crewmembers helped me quickly and efficiently put on my suivant outfit, Frank a dit "you're killing it out there kid! They l’amour you!!! I smiled as I drank from a water bottle that was donné to me. I a dit "I'm happy to be out of that suit because it's really hot!"

Before leaving the stage after I had performed the last song of the show, I started talking to the audience "I want to say thank toi to all of toi for coming out to see me perform today! I appreciate all of toi that slept on the sidewalk days in advance!" I looked up at the ceiling and a dit "I hope I made toi proud tonight dad!" I looked back at the audience and a dit "thank toi all for coming from the bottom of my heart!" I left the stage and confetti fell from the ceiling onto the thousands of fans.

I walked backstage and sat exhausted on the couch. Before I even have the chance to catch my breath, Frank, Jeff, and the rest of the crew came running over to me. Frank a dit "that was awesome AJ! Your dad would be so proud of you!" They all showered me with compliments and then I heard my phone ringing. I put it up to my ear and a dit "hello." Grandma asked excitedly "how did it go?" I a dit "it was awesome! Now I know what dad was talking about when he a dit stuff about having an adrenaline rush when toi go out there!" Prince interrupted "we miss toi AJ!" I a dit "I miss toi guys too! How is my little munchkin doing?" Grandma a dit "he's doing well; I think he's a bit confused about why you're not here with us." I asked "can I talk to him?" She a dit sympathetically "I would go get him but, Paris is getting him to fall asleep and if he hears your voice right now he'll be up all night!" I a dit with disappointment in my voice "okay, I understand. I'll talk to toi guys tomorrow I guess." I hung up the phone and tossed it down suivant to me on the couch. I didn't like the idea of not being able to talk to Carter. I wasn't mad at my grandmother; I was mad at myself in a way for not being able to call him before his bedtime! This is the longest amount of time that I've spent away from him since he's been born and it's going to take some getting used to!

February, 8, 2010,

Today was my jour off and we were in Virginia. We rented a hotel room and I wanted to go get something to snack on. Jeff and I walked into a family-run grocery store and I immediately went for the camelote, indésirable nourriture aisles. I picked out everything from gummy bears to cheddar cheese potato chips and followed Jeff safely to the checkout line. There were quite a few people ahead of us so; I decided to look at a magazine that was on the rack suivant to me.

I searched for one and saw something that caught my eye. I picked up the latest issue of "people magazine" and looked at the cover. I couldn't believe it; there right in the center was a huge picture of Prince carrying Carter into Walmart. That part didn't bother me but, then I read the title. It a dit "which Jackson family member has a secret child? Turn to page 70 to find out!" I frantically flipped through the pages and there was a whole article about Carter! I looked at the pictures and they were personal pictures that I had taken of him. I read as I bit my lip angrily:

“I bet you're all wondering who this cute little guy is; well we finally found out! According to Jermaine Jackson, he is surprisingly Michael Jackson's firstborn daughter Alanna Jackson's son Carter Shawn Jackson. I know; that's surprising! Apparently, AJ had Carter in November 2008 when she was only 14 years old. I would've expected better of Michael's extremely sheltered children than to become a teenage mother. Jermaine says that the extended Jackson family has never met the baby's father and he is unsure if AJ still keeps in contact with him. We'll keep toi posté about any new information on the baby. In the meantime, toi can see Alanna Jackson on her 'Legacy’ tour. I wonder who's watching her son while she's traveling?"

I quickly threw the money for the magazine on the counter and dashed to the tour bus that was waiting outside for us. Frank looked at me as I stormed onto the bus and sat down at the table. I dialed uncle Jermaine's phone number and put it up to my ear. He a dit "hello AJ; it's nice to have toi call me!" I snapped back "don't bullshit me!" He asked "what's wrong?" I a dit "what's wrong? What's wrong is that toi sold a story about Carter to the press! I know toi did because toi were the only one that had the mot de passe to my computer where they got those pictures I took of him! I can't believe that toi would sell my sons opportunity to have a normal life! That's so low of toi and I hate toi for that! I'll never forgive you! toi may be able to manipulate grandma into getting what toi want but, toi sure as hell aren't going to do it to me! Are toi that desperate for attention? Go to hell; toi jerk!"

I hung up the phone as Frank sat there shaking his head in disbelief. I ripped the magazine and half and stomped on it. Jeff a dit "I can't believe your uncle would do that to Carter! Now for the rest of Carter's life the press will be all over him!" I a dit "I was planning to raise Carter as normal as possible but I guess that's not going to happen now! What a lot of people don't know is that half of my family is money hungry, egocentric, asses and the other half are loving, selfless, genuine people! The messed up thing is that he doesn't even care if he destroys Carter's chances of having a normal life! The only thing he cares about is the 20 grand that he got for selling the story to the press! All my uncles were always hitting dad up for cash and I'm not about to let that happen with me! Frank, I don't trust any of my extended family with the money that I've been sending to buy nourriture and diapers for Carter! From now on, I'm going to physically buy that stuff myself and mail it to them because I have a feeling the money is not going where I intend it to go! Grandma is too easily manipulated par my uncles for money and I think she's giving them the money I've been sending to put towards Carter! My family is so dysfunctional it's ridiculous!"

February 9, 2010,

I was sitting backstage after performing and thinking. Frank a dit "okay kid; we can go back to the hotel room I rented for the night.” My bodyguard Jeff got up from the chair he was sitting in and followed me to the back door of the concert arena. He opened the door and I definitely wasn't prepared for what was on the other side. 30 paparazzi people immediately crowded me and started asking questions. "AJ, do toi miss your son? Are toi still in a relationship with Carter's father? When will toi be going back to the Havenhurst compound to see the baby?" I was blinded par all the flashing from their cameras as Jeff gently pushed me onto the tour bus.

Once we arrived at the hotel, Jeff, Frank, and I each went to our own hotel rooms. I sat down on the lit and took out my cell phone. I dialed Paris's number and waited for her to pick up. She a dit "hi AJ how was your concert tonight?" I a dit "it went okay; is Carter still awake?" She a dit "yeah, he eating SpaghettiOs but; I'll put the phone on speaker so toi can talk to him." Paris a dit "mommy's on the phone Carter!" I smiled as I heard Carter a dit "hi mommy!" I a dit "I miss toi buddy!" Paris coached "say I miss toi too!" I laughed at his attempt to copy her because it sounded nothing like what she said. Paris a dit "he's so cute; he's always asking 'mommy come accueil today? Mommy went bye-bye?'" I a dit "oh, that's adorable! I miss him so much! Okay, I'm going to go to lit now before I get too sad! I l’amour toi guys and I'll call toi tomorrow!"

March 3, 2010,

Frank, Jeff, and I walked into Tiger beat magazine headquarters and were greeted par a photographer. There were racks of clothes and baseball trophée on a nearby table. The photographer asked "are toi excited to be in the magazine again?" I a dit "yeah; I can't believe that kids actually want to hang posters of me up in their rooms!"

par now, I was so used to photo shoots because pretty much every teen magazine has me right in the center of their cover; usually right suivant to Justin Bieber. The good thing about being a female artist is that I don't really see him as a threat because males have a whole different game plan and appeal. Whereas with me, I opened up the idea in today's culture that being a tomboy is just as good as being feminine!

After posing for hundreds of different possible posters, I signed some of the images so they could be photocopied and blown up into poster sized. The magazine also had me autograph a few copies of my CD so they could use them as part of some of their monthly contests.





April 29, 2010,

I'm in Los Angeles and I just finished my concert. I jumped into the back siège of the car that was waiting for Jeff, Frank, and I. We drove to Havenhurst and Frank a dit "I'm not going to go in! I hope toi have fun with your family during your break! We'll be back to pick toi up in a week!" I waved goodbye and ran down the driveway as fast as I possibly could.

I swung open the front door and casually walked into the living room waiting for my family to notice me. After five minutes, Prince looked up from the TV and shouted "AJ; your back!" Blanket ran up to me and wrapped his arms around my waist as I kissed the haut, retour au début of his head. He squeezed me and a dit "I missed toi so much!" I a dit "I missed toi too!" Grandma asked as she hugged me "how long are toi back for?" I a dit "only for a week but; I'm going to make the best of it! Where are Carter and Paris?" Prince a dit as he hugged me "Paris was giving him a bath last time I checked."

I ran upstairs and looked in the bathroom but nobody was there. I walked into my room to find Paris carrying Carter who was wrapped in a blue towel. Paris hugged me and a dit "I'm so glad you're back! I was just about to get him ready for bed." I playfully shoved her out of the room and a dit "don't worry about it; I'm back now! That's my job!"

I walked over to the lit where Carter sat still wrapped up in the towel and shivering. He smiled and a dit "mommy come home!" I smiled and a dit as I started to get him dressed "I missed my munchkin so much!" I sat down on the lit suivant to him as he flopped down on a pillow. I playfully put my hand up in the air and imitated a claw as I a dit "oh no; do toi know what this means?" He smiled and I noticed that all his baby teeth had finally come through. I a dit "the tickle monster is going get you!"

As I tickled his stomach, he laughed innocently as he looked up at me. I stopped so he could catch his breath and he climbed onto the oreiller suivant to me. He a dit "I need ba-ba!" I got off the lit and passed him the baby bottle that was on the nightstand. I shut off the light and put the TV on SpongeBob SquarePants. He rested his head on my shoulder and I kissed his forehead. There was a moment of silence as he looked up at me and a dit something that warmed my heart. He looked up at me with those big brown eyes and asked "mommy?" I asked "huh?" He brushed my cheek with his tiny hand and a dit "mommy, I l’amour you!"

I looked at him in the eyes and a dit "I l’amour toi plus Carter!" The way he a dit that being only almost 18 months old made me want to cry! I could tell that he missed me just as much as I missed him! It's going to be so much harder to leave him at the end of this week!

April 30, 2010,

I walked through the door with Carter in my arms after taking him to the store to run a few errands. I noticed that there was someone sitting on the canapé suivant to grandma as I looked at the back of their heads. I put Carter down and he ran into the play room. Grandma turned around and a dit "it's good that you're back because I want to sort of introduce toi to someone!"

I sat down on the canapé and a dit as I looked at the blonde haired woman sitting suivant to grandma "Debbie; is that you?" She shook her head in agreement and I asked curious "what are toi doing here?" Grandma asked "you know how Prince and Paris have already met your mother?" I a dit "yeah but; what does that have to do with Debbie?" Debbie smiled and a dit "it's nice to officially meet my daughter for the first time!" I asked "what do toi mean your daughter?" She smiled and a dit "I'm your mother AJ!

I sat there stunned for about three minutes then I said" wait… You're…" Before my mind could process what I just heard, I stormed out of the house slamming the door behind me. Debbie followed me and a dit "Alanna; just let me talk to you!" I tried to get away from her unsuccessfully as I tripped on my shoe and fell to the ground. She put out her hand so she could help me up but I just looked at her and pushed myself off the ground. She grabbed my sleeve stopping me from running away and forced me to sit down on a bench.

Debbie a dit "I want to know what you're thinking?" I asked irritated "you really want to know what I'm thinking? Okay; I'll tell you! I'm thinking that I hate you! I'm a mother now and I don't understand how toi could just leave all three of us and never see us again! I haven't seen toi since early 1999! I know that I could never leave Carter for that long!" She a dit "it wasn't meant to be the typical mom and dad relationship! Your father and I never wanted it to be like that!" I a dit "I don't understand why toi didn't want visitation with us!" She a dit "I wanted your father to get the chance to be a dad! toi guys were my gift to him! It wasn't my job to raise you!" I a dit angrily "it would've been nice to have known toi were my mother this entire time! Do toi know how difficult it was for me growing up without a mom around?" She asked "in what way?" I a dit "it was extremely awkward for me when I had to say 'ummm dad; I think I'm having my first period!' Then have him run to the store to get tampons!" She looked down feeling guilty and a dit "I wasn't thinking about that kind of stuff when I decided not to play a role in your life." I snapped back "yeah well; toi should of! Dad wasn't much help when it came to woman things! He was completely freaked out and wanted nothing to do with it! I had to learn everything on my own!" She a dit "I'm sorry about that; I really am! I hope you'll forgive me!" I a dit "it's going to take a lot plus than just saying you're sorry! Just give me my l’espace and I'll come to toi eventually when I get used to the idea of having a mom! Just don't force it on me because I'm not ready yet!" Debbie a dit "I completely understand and I don't want toi to feel obligated to spend time with me! Just know that I'm here for toi if toi ever need me for anything!"

The mood between us calmed down and I looked at Debbie and she burst out laughing. She a dit "I'm sorry but, I just have to know; how did your dad ever figure out what tampons to buy?" I chuckled as I remembered and a dit "he bought 10 different brands and basically threw them at me!" She a dit "I can totally picture your dad being like that!" I a dit "you should have seen the look on his face when I told him the first time that I started my period! His eyes were as big as saucers and he just stared at me for 15 minutes straight only blinking a few times!" Debbie held her side as she continued to laugh and her eyes began to water. I a dit as I started to laugh just as hard "it took me an heure just to get dad to go to the store and get them! He just kept pacing back and forth in the cuisine saying 'oh my gosh, oh my God! Are toi sure you're not just seeing things AJ? Please tell me it's not that!!!' Then I a dit 'it's definitely my period dad!' He was in denial about it! Looking back at it now, it was actually pretty funny!"
posted by droberson1104
 MJ- the beautiful human being
MJ- the beautiful human being
I wrote this article with ALL the l’amour and good intentions as possible. I wanted to make this very clear.

I see MJ as MANY things. Lovely man, best father, brilliant genius, magical entertainer, humble humanitarian, perfect artist, hot husband, caring son, and loving brother. Why is it impossible for others to see that MJ was much more??? The media limited our view of MJ par what it did ou did NOT portray him as. Just because some see his SEXINESS, is it impossible to see his GREATNESS?!!! ABSOLUTELY NOT.

If toi haven't seen the movie, "Black Swan", I suggest toi do. Spoiler sorry... this girl...
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 <3 :)
<3 :)
Our story begins with two different stories of two very different people. A handsome young man who's just reached the haut, retour au début of the charts in musique and films and is now on haut, retour au début of the world. A young girl who aspires to become an actress,and only dreams of what it would be like to be on haut, retour au début of the world. But in the city of Detriot dreams like hers are nearly impossiable to accoplish....until one jour that changed forever....


The jour began like any other jour in her life, 23 an old Leanna Mitchell sat in front of her vanity fixing her hair. But today was going just a little bit different. Today Leanna...
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posted by jazzyjaz31
"Michael, I l’amour toi with all my cœur, coeur and soul. Nobody can make me feel soo good like you. toi the only person that i really l’amour and admire the most. I got to let toi know that living without toi is not easy at all. I miss toi everyday of my life. My cœur, coeur loves toi very much. Hold on to my cœur, coeur and never drop it. toi make my world feel soo great and lovely. I cant take away my l’amour i have for you.My l’amour is for toi to keep forever. toi my life,my butterflies, my angel,my sunshne, my heart, my food, my drink, my teddy bear. We will always be together forever and ever.R.I.P my love."
posted by yoyojackson
 What Jo wore to prom
What Jo wore to prom
When Michael stepped out the house. He paused and thought. 'What the heck did I do?' He ran to his house. And went to his bedroom. He started getting mad at himself and throwed stuff around. Janet came in. He almost throwed his oreiller at Janet. "Hey, first toi take my pomme jus, jus de and now toi try to kill me." Janet joked. "Please
leave." Michael said. "Why are toi mad?' Janet ignored him and said. "Jo and me had a fight. I a dit things that I would never say." Michael said. "Well, why did you?" Janet asked. "She was bossing me." Michael said. "That's because she think's she can. It's a good thing...
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 The roses that michael threw on the floor... </3
The roses that michael threw on the floor... </3
The suivant morning Diane awoke to the usual sound of her alarm. As always Diane got up, got into the shower, got dressed , put on her makeup and headed out the door to go to work. Once she arrived she unlocked her office and went straight to her bureau and began working.

Diane didnt know how long she had been working when there was a sudden knock at the door. "Come in" Diane said. When the door was opened diane was outraged to see Mark standing in the doorway. "What do toi want mark?" Diane growled. "Oh i just want a little something that toi never gave me when we were together." Mark a dit as he...
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posted by mrsmjj20
 Michael, the jilted groom
Michael, the jilted groom
Michael Jackson was very excited. Tomorrow was going to be the happiest jour of his life because he was going to be marrying the l’amour of his life, Jade Lewis. He closed his eyes and tried to go to sleep, but it was useless. He sat up on his lit and sighed. Michael knew that the fans would be disappointed because he was getting married, but he hoped that they would be happy for him. He thought about the bachelor's party that his brothers had thrown for him about 2 hours ago.

Because he was a respectable guy, they knew better than to hire a stripper for the party. Of course Jackie and Jermaine...
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 Michael is pissed because Alicia will not stop singing....
Michael is pissed because Alicia will not stop singing....
"So did toi two have a fun talk?" Alicia asked as her and michael walked out of the production building. "Well yea but it would have been better if toi hadnt have told me to tell her she had a nice ass." Michael replied. "Oh um about that....i saw a hot guy and i was kinda checking him out." Alicia said. "Alicia Ann how could toi do that? toi have a boyfriend." Michael replied. "I know michael and i would apperciated if toi didnt say my middle name.", "You didnt ask for his number did you?", "No i didnt i stayed faithful mj so just drop it." Alicia said. "Well actually toi werent," Michael...
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posted by yoyojackson
 Jo (Ariana Grande)
Jo (Ariana Grande)
When Michael was 18, he went down to Gary, Indiana. Of course there was screaming fans, but he went there to relax, and make friends. Michael went to his house. When he got there, he saw his dad Joesph. "There toi are. I missed you." Joesph said. "Really?" Michael asked. "No, toi know I'll never miss you." Joesph a dit and cracked himself up.
"Why are toi here?" Joesph asked.
"I just wanna break." Michael explained. Kathrine came in. "Michael! I missed toi so much." Kathrine a dit and hugged Michael. "At least someone missed me." Michael muttered. "Huh?" Joesph said. "Nothing." Michael a dit and...
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 Michael sees Diane watching his every déplacer :)
Michael sees Diane watching his every move :)
"Ok everyone places, we begin in 5...4...3...2..1 ok smooth criminal dance scene take 1 and action!" Michael and Alicia began to dance to the song "Smooth Criminal". As michael danced he glaced over to see Diane watching his every move, she wouldnt take her eyes off of him. Alicia also noticed this, but kept on dancing. Finally after about 5 takes, it was time for their 1 heure break. "Ok everyone 1 heure break, be back on this set at 12:30pm sharp!" The director called as he made his way off set back to his trailer. Michael walked offset to the cast breakroom which was off the main set. Just...
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posted by msmj2012
The suivant jour Michael called Breanna and she was very cold to him. This surprised him because she was usually very friendly and playful on the phone.

"Why are toi being mean to me? What's wrong with toi today?", he asked.

"Nothing. What's wrong with you?", she shot back.

"Umm...I'm fine and we are talking about you."

"I just don't feel like talking today. I have to go.", she a dit icily and hung up on him.

"No, wait please don't hang up!", he protested, but it was too late because she was gone. That was weird, he thought. I wonder what her problem is.

In the morning, he woke up and walked into the...
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whoahh… seems like along il y a since i write in here for the last time. Well i miss this site as much as i remember many memories in here :)

I remember the first time i made the account, it says, TataJackson, age 19. Well how fast it is, this an i'll turn to 22. 2 years and even more, this site has been so much into my life. i've spent many of my times posting pictures,videos, commenting on someone's comment,s ou making an article just like this :D This fanpop thingy, making my days looks like busy for a while. There was no time that i could pass my jour without open this site.

Michael jackson...
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Like a comet
Blazing 'cross the evening sky
Gone too soon

Like a arc en ciel
Fading in the twinkling of an eye
Gone too soon

Shiny and sparkly
And splendidly bright
Here one jour
Gone one night

Like the loss of sunlight
On a cloudy afternoon
Gone too soon

Like a château
Built upon a sandy plage
Gone too soon

Like a perfect fleur
That is just beyond your reach
Gone too soon

Born to amuse
To inspire to delight
Here one jour
Gone one night

Like a sunset
Dying with the rising of the moon
Gone too soon
Gone too soon
"My cœur, coeur … my mind are broken. I loved Michael with all my soul and I can't imagine life without him. We had so much in common and we had such loving fun together. I was packing up my clothes to go to Londres for his opening when I heard the news. I still can't believe it. I don't want to believe it. It can't be so. I don't think anyone knew how much we loved each other. The purest, most giving l’amour I've ever known. Oh God! I'm going to miss him. I can't yet imagine life with out him. I guess with God’s help ... I'll learn."-Liz Taylor

"May God cover you, Michael. We all lift your name up...
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Groundbreaking “Crowdsourced” Video to Debut TODAY, June 14th on Facebook.com/MichaelJackson
New York, NY – This spring, the Estate of Michael Jackson and Sony musique gave everyone around the world the opportunity to be a part of Michael Jackson’s video legacy with The Behind the Mask Project. This groundbreaking, global online casting call prompted people in all corners of the planet who l’amour Michael Jackson’s musique to shoot, mettre en ligne and soumettre their own unique performances for inclusion in the video; the project elicited an unprecedented response from 103 countries in the world. And...
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posted by vkg123
Essie read the note over and over again. She couldn't believe it. An unknown fan was coming to her concert. That day, she had nothing in mind but the note. Nightfall came. As she lay in bed, she still couldn't stop thinking about the note. Even as she closed her eyes, it was all that she could think of. That night, she kept twisting and turning. She kept thinking who was the anonymous fan. She kept thinking of a person who has a name that starts with a letter M. Suddenly, she stopped at the thought of her childhood idol Michael Jackson. "Could it be? Nah..." she thought to herself. "I'll just...
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posted by NikkiLovesMJ
"Smile" is a song based on an instrumental theme used in the soundtrack for the 1936 Charlie Chaplin movie Modern Times. Chaplin composed the music, while John Turner and Geoffrey Parsons added the lyrics and titre in 1954. In the lyrics, the singer is telling the listener to cheer up and that there is always a bright tomorrow, just as long as they smile. "Smile" has become a populaire standard since its original use in Chaplin's film.

Michael Jackson recorded the song for his 1995 double album HIStory: Past, Present and Future, Book I. It was planned to be released as the eighth and final single...
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posted by fayegaringan123
Michael really couldn't sleep, he went to get a douche and he changed his clothes. par 5:00 a.m. he was walking to the park. He knew Ashley wasn't going to be there cause he took her accueil last night and she was fast asleep. He then thought about his brother Jermaine. "How dare Jermaine fall for my girl like that" Michael a dit to himself. He had been Lost in his thoughts for over an heure until he decided to go back home.

Meanwhile, Ashley had just awaken at 7:00 a.m. in the morning. She knew it was going to be a sad jour because today was her father's funeral. Before heading downstairs, she turned...
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posted by NikkiLovesMJ
Michael Jackson: Moonwalker, is an American anthology film released in 1988 par Michael Jackson.

Rather than featuring one continuous narrative, the film is a collection of short films about Jackson, several of which are long-form musique vidéos from Jackson's Bad album. The film is named after the dance technique known as the moonwalk, which was one of his trademark moves. The name of the dance déplacer was dubbed par the media, not par Jackson himself; however, he did choose the titre of the film himself.

The release of Moonwalker was originally scheduled to coincide with Jackson's 1987 album, Bad....
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;MICHAEL:ok jasmin then lets talk..michael was getting nervous :jasmine:tatiana called me a few minutes before toi came over :michael:she waht?? :jasmine:she calld me ..teling me not mess with you..aprently your her man :michael:she is lieing..i never fell in l’amour with her.we just work together thats it...we kissed once on stagecasue it was part of it..she must have thought it was real ;jasmine:yaa?well how do i know it wasnt real :michael:because this a real one..he leaned over a kissed her :jasmine:haha okay that was real :michael:i told toi :jasmine:ya toi did.but can toi please straighten...
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posted by luvauntrosienmj
 yea bad right
yea bad right
The suivant jour Michael a dit " Emma come here" Emma a dit " yes Mr. Jackson" Michael a dit " can u stop calling me MR. Jackson and call me Michael" Emma a dit " yes Michael" Michael a dit " Emma call Bobby and tell him to come here" Emma a dit " yes Michael" Michael a dit " can toi do what i ask plz" Emma a dit " yes Michael" so then Michael went to hes closet he pick out what he was going to wear a blue t chemise nd black pants nd hes loafters and then Bobby walk in and Michael a dit " salut Bobby we going to see Hannah again" Bobby a dit " yes Michael we are "
Michael a dit " yea Hannah told me she want come...
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