Dear Michael, our dearest Michael, I'm sorry for the way I am. I'm sorry for being so negative. I don't try to be this was, to be frank. I'm doing this because I mean it. I really mean it. I hope you're not disappointed ou displeased of me. Believe me, I really don't try to be mean. It's either because of my Asperger syndrome I have (which I consider an illness even though it's not) ou that the devil is trying to take over my me. But deep in my soul and cœur, coeur I'm NOT evil ou cold hearted and I don't want anybody especially toi thinking that I am cause that's not right. It's just that the fact that you're gone is making so tense ever sense. I'm just in pain right now. Depression and loneliness and emptiness and nothingness inside me and I got nobody to help me out. Michael, I know you're not going to like what I'm about to say and that goes to whomever is lire this too. I am much much plus than sorry about the jour I tried to cu... Well,you know what. I did it for two reasons: 1. I felt like I needed it. I needed something to express how I feel. 2. I wanted to take the pain for whomever is suffering in this world. But no worries. Even though I'm still so lonely and so sad, I'm not an emo anymore. What I did to myself is what emos do to themselves and it's completely wrong ( and painful. Literally).You taught us a lot, Michael. What l’amour and kindness is all about, how to smile even though I'm sad, I can go on 24/7. I feel like I took all what toi taught for granted. I even feel like I sinned. If I did I really didn't mean to. I wish there was some way I can make it up to you. But what? I'm thinking about joining the ASPCA thing but I don't know how like toi do. toi see, I l’amour planet earth too. Just like toi do. I want to help but I need help myself but who would be willing to help me? I feel useless. toi are the most popular, successful, and nicest and wonderful man that ever set foot on the planet and me...I'm just a sketch artist, a pianist and a beginners contortionist. Michael, even though this world is a mess, toi still didn't give up on it. toi had whatever it took to make the world a better place. And toi nkow what, I say toi did make it a better place but without toi now, what do we do? See what I mean? The fact that you're not here anymore is beating me and beating me so hard and I can't fight back....like I a dit before: even though this world is a mess, toi still had the courage to change that and make us happy and I have faith in toi for that along with Christ. Thank you, Michael. And once again, I'm so so very sorry. Please forgive me!!!!! :'(