Dear Fang
I am sorry to say that I wont remember toi that way. I can't seem to remember toi in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember toi like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember toi flying, free. I hope toi stay free. And if I remember toi flying I can imagine that toi are flying back to me.
I spent nearly a an being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one jour I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.
I chose you.
I got you.
And then…
I Lost you.
I remember the feeling when I decided to let toi in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I Lost you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got toi back and then… I Lost toi again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the cœur, coeur wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.
I can understand why toi left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I l’amour knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its toi in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that toi will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.
I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement
Then I was angry
God, I am still angry
But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason toi left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.
I could promise toi that I will be a leader
That I can be Max and a leader
But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.
Because I l’amour you
I cant help but be focused on toi when were together
And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.
They say that if toi l’amour something, then toi have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years toi aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.
But that's the thing. We don't know. toi don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether toi will come back. But I will get toi back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.
One jour we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.
I can't promise toi that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.
I l’amour toi enough to let toi go. And I trust toi enough that toi will come back.
So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, toi leaving has donné me even plus motive to do so. I'll meet toi at the haut, retour au début of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. toi know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. toi can bet on it.
We will have fought for our happiness and won.
I don't believe in saying good-bye so…
Until I see toi next.
I l’amour you.
Max
I am sorry to say that I wont remember toi that way. I can't seem to remember toi in a tux. Such a un-Fang like moment. I don't want to remember toi like that. Pretending to be something that your not. I want to remember toi flying, free. I hope toi stay free. And if I remember toi flying I can imagine that toi are flying back to me.
I spent nearly a an being sensible, doing the right thing. Not for me, But for the flock. Actually that is what I have done my whole life. Put my self behind the flock. Then one jour I decided that I could give my self this one thing, the thing I wanted most in the world. You. It ended up being the best and the worst thing I ever did.
I chose you.
I got you.
And then…
I Lost you.
I remember the feeling when I decided to let toi in. I remember the feeling when I realized I loved you. I remember the feeling when I Lost you… It's indescribable. I remember when I got toi back and then… I Lost toi again. But I wouldn't take any of it back. Not the pain, the sorrow the cœur, coeur wrenching feeling whenever I think about you, the happy times, the laughs and the smiles we have shared. And even if the smiles, the happy times and putting my self first led to all of the pain I wouldn't swap it for the world.
I can understand why toi left. And I know that if it were me then I would have done the same thing. I couldn't stand to be with someone I l’amour knowing that it was putting them in danger. But the thing is that it isn't me, not this time. This times its toi in Danger. And it isn't me who has to make the decision. But it is me who has to live with it. Every day. And I still hope that toi will come back to me, no matter the consequences. Every day.
I was sad after I read your letter. That's an understatement
Then I was angry
God, I am still angry
But I have simmered down, I am still angry but I can see past that. See the reason toi left. I can understand it. Doesn't mean I like it.
I could promise toi that I will be a leader
That I can be Max and a leader
But in the end I know it wouldn't be enough.
Because I l’amour you
I cant help but be focused on toi when were together
And one time I might slip up. Not be the leader I need to be, and I can't face those consequences.
They say that if toi l’amour something, then toi have to let it go and then if it is truly yours it will come back to you. I Swear Fang if in twenty years toi aren't back and cant honestly say that it was all worth it, then erasers and Itex wont be the least of your trouble. Which is why I am going to try my hardest to fix things, to 'save the world'. Because when all of this is over it wont matter that 20 years isn't up, I will be at your doorstep.
But that's the thing. We don't know. toi don't know and I don't know. I don't know whether toi will come back. But I will get toi back. Because I am Maximum Ride and I don't give up a fight. That's what my life is one big fight. I fight for my life and I fight for the ones I love. We all do.
One jour we can be happy Fang but for now we are fighting for it.
I can't promise toi that we will meet again in 20 years. Because I am fighting for it now and I don't honestly think that I can wait that long. Wait that long to be happy.
I l’amour toi enough to let toi go. And I trust toi enough that toi will come back.
So here's my promise to you. When the world is saved. And it will be, toi leaving has donné me even plus motive to do so. I'll meet toi at the haut, retour au début of that cliff where we first met the hawks and learned how to fly with them. toi know the one. Once the world is saved. If were Alive. I'll be there waiting for you. toi can bet on it.
We will have fought for our happiness and won.
I don't believe in saying good-bye so…
Until I see toi next.
I l’amour you.
Max