2x18-a Kiss before lying

Ain't it sad
How I'm pushing people away
Refuse to let them in
All because of you
Ain't it sad
How I'm trying to déplacer on
But you're controlling my heart
Ever since I fell in l’amour with you

And even though I can only think about nothing but you
I still need to wake up and face the truth

'Cause toi are
Everything I'll never have
I wish I could go back
To where I Lost my head
So I could erase that moment
I'm everything you'll never know
If this is how the story's supposed to go
Then I'd take a piece of paper and my favourite pen
And I'd write it all over again

I won't cry
This pain's too deep
to be lightened with...

Daddy thinks I’m afraid
I’m afraid of never finding a l’amour that fits me
Well, he’s right in a way
Because everyday I fear plus that we will never be

I’m zoning out on toi and I can’t breathe
You’re haunting my thoughts so I can’t sleep
And even though I know we could never be
I don’t wanna lose this fantasy

Can I just close my eyes
And imagine toi are suivant to me
Can I just pretend my life
to be so much plus than it seems
Can I just ignore the pain
Can I please traverser, croix your way
It’s so hard to keep it inside
I just wanna l’amour you, can I

Mommy mocks the fact I once
I once loved toi but doesn’t...

Boy, I hate you
Why toi have to be the way that toi are
If only toi were different
It would make it much easier for me to déplacer on

I thought toi finally belonged to the past
But who am I kidding, you’re a l’amour that seems to last

My cœur, coeur breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true
It’s getting plus obvious everyday
I’m in l’amour with you, again

It’s getting harder
To déplacer on without toi every day
But toi don’t even know me
I should just get a life and go my own way

My cœur, coeur breaks whenever I think of you
And my soul dies ‘cause I know it will never be true...

Here I stand
My cœur, coeur beating out of my chest
Here I stand
Trying to leave it all to rest

I'm taking small steps forward
Big steps backwards
'Cause this is the last where I wanna be
I'm swallowing my fear
And I'm gathering my courage
'Cause you're the last person I wanna see

But if I wanna get over this I need to get through this
There can't be no healing without pain
And I can't conceal it
And I won't believe it
That all of it would've been in vain

You promised I'd never be
Anything I saw in me
You didn't I'd make it to the big leagues
You never thought I'd stand a chance
But yet here I am
At some place toi will...