Natalie Portman

In turning over in my mind the contents of
your last letters, I have put myself into great
agony, not knowing how to interpret them, whether to my disadvantage, as toi montrer in some places, ou to my advantage, as I understand them in some others, beseeching toi earnestly to let me know expressly your whole mind as to the l’amour between us two.
It is absolutely necessary for me to obtain this answer, having been for above a whole an stricken with the dart of love, and not yet sure whether I shall fail of finding a place in your
heart and afFeftion, which last point has prevented me for some time...