This 15 an old girl used to maintain a common diary with her 13 an old best friend in which they wrote how they felt about each other and their friendship. When she discovered that her friend who had been a patient of clinical depression had tried to kill herself, she wrote this in the diary and it brought her best friend to tears...
The names have been changed as per author's request...
November 13
Dear Amira,
K so... without going on about any trivial stuff this time, toi should know that I've plus than you'd expect to say about stuff I usually don't go on about on phone ou in person...
When I heard about your suicide attempt from Jaya and the others, it took some time (visibly an understatement) to process. To be extremely honest, I was hurt... When I finally got everything in my head, I felt extremely hurt...
toi most probably didn't tell me because toi thought I'd cry, be pissed, be worried to death, ou toi won't be able to face me anymore, but let me tell you, not telling me was only worse...
Right now, I could go on about how it must be tough on toi ou try to provide toi with solace but I want to be completely honest with you.
Talk to me when you're feeling that way dumbo!! That's exactly what I'm there for! When toi called me up and a dit that the reason toi managed to restrain yourself from such an attempt earlier was the feeling that toi won't get to talk to me if toi died, IT MADE ME HAPPY!! It made me soo happy that I could cry toi know! I COULD LITERALLY CRY!
When all this came out the way it wasn't supposed to, I wanted to just.. slap some sense into you... I wanted to slap toi soo hard! But then, I realized that the one at fault is me... I am the one who should be slapped, for plus reasons that I'd like to count... I have failed as a best friend - completely failed... Let alone prevention, I couldn't even see through you...
Well now, for goodness' sake, don't go on blaming yourself for this way of thinking of mine! Listen to all my venting! That's the least I expect of you... Of course well, toi CAN blame yourself, if toi want me to feel worse that is.
Think about it... put yourself in my shoes... Well, ik.. easier a dit than done...i'm feeling worse than one could imagine right now..
I mean... Miss Amira Sharma! How could you!! toi stupid dumbo!! How could toi let a stupid bunch of lazy neurons take control over you!! The toi I know!!
I don't know shit about this clinical depression crap K? I'm a bloody idiotic dumbass! But seriously dude, I COULD help toi tell off those lowlife neurons that Amira Sharma isn't as weak as toi useless crappy cells think she is! only if toi want me to, that is... toi might think that you're weak... But you're not... And if toi deny, I'd totally give in to the opinion that my friendship has been useless all along...
K... toi might feel like toi should die and the world is better off without you, but for once, for goodness' sake, look around... Your mom was sitting suivant to toi crying when toi woke up, wasn't she?
toi have plenty of things to live for!! Want me to name 3? k!
1. Friends & Family
2. One Direction
3. Me...
Damn!I don't remember when was the last time I felt so pissed!
I don't always say it, but dude, you're a BLESSING in my life! I have no idea where I would've been without toi around! I wonder if I'd have ever come to know what friendship means if it weren't for you...
Every word I've ever written in this darned diary was straight from my heart!! I wouldn't waste my precious time I could've spent sleeping ou watching animé in making that 'Secret Base'* for just some trivial friend...
I don't think I'd understand one BFF post on FB from the ones that we feel are relatable as of now if I hadn't met you!
Don't we always go on about how we're proud of this bond, which is totally different from those girly duos who claim to be best Friends and flaunt their pics on social sites just to end up as strangers after a few years...
Okay... I finally feel like I'll HAVE to name a few things toi can be proud of... So, here goes...
- your nature
- your face
- your figure
- your voice
- your hair
- your... wait... almost everything ever...
(complimenting toi is STILL a drag... I'm sorry XD)
Damn! okay.. After this, I wouldn't mind if toi reached the Ayush** level of conceit, I guess...
I wouldn't try to make an effort to keep under control the height of your flight either... Just start flying.
"Being down to earth is great, but being under the earth is nothing close to being good..."
I know stuff is easier a dit than done... But still, I'll help toi start moving forward, step par step, maybe... I'll help toi start looking up at yourself dude... You're totally plus amazing than toi think toi are... You're worth plus than toi think toi are... (Not every girl gets a reverse harem toi know? XD)
A lot of people l’amour toi Amira!! And I'm one of them... God doesn't send a lot of pieces like toi down here...
Just smile already!
Didn't toi say toi won't let me be par myself even if I wanted to? I hope toi keep your word...
If toi ever feel that way again, CALL ME! And if par any, i.e. 1 in a 1000 chance, I don't pick up, read this diary... ou the Secret Base! toi can even come over. ou listen to 1D... ou WATCH ANIME!!
Now I wanna sound kinda selfish here, so.. toi must know, without toi around, I'd be plus lonely that I'd like to imagine... I don't have as many Friends as toi think I do... :P
I want to keep talking to toi about 1D and ANIME!! Forever!!
I want to see our children marrying each other!! XD
Oh come on.. You're just 13... At least consider this... It won't be fun dying off a virgin! XP At least, live a life that satisfies toi before dying Amira Sharma!!
(K.. I feel like an old sage all of a sudden...)
FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND MY FUTURE CHILDREN! DONT' DIE!!!
(I'm completely serious here...)
l’amour ya!
* Secret Base is probably a scrapbook that the auteur gave Amira as a gift.
** Ayush is someone, probably, the author's brother, who the duo has entitled as completely conceited.
That was it... Please share your thoughts in the comments...
The names have been changed as per author's request...
November 13
Dear Amira,
K so... without going on about any trivial stuff this time, toi should know that I've plus than you'd expect to say about stuff I usually don't go on about on phone ou in person...
When I heard about your suicide attempt from Jaya and the others, it took some time (visibly an understatement) to process. To be extremely honest, I was hurt... When I finally got everything in my head, I felt extremely hurt...
toi most probably didn't tell me because toi thought I'd cry, be pissed, be worried to death, ou toi won't be able to face me anymore, but let me tell you, not telling me was only worse...
Right now, I could go on about how it must be tough on toi ou try to provide toi with solace but I want to be completely honest with you.
Talk to me when you're feeling that way dumbo!! That's exactly what I'm there for! When toi called me up and a dit that the reason toi managed to restrain yourself from such an attempt earlier was the feeling that toi won't get to talk to me if toi died, IT MADE ME HAPPY!! It made me soo happy that I could cry toi know! I COULD LITERALLY CRY!
When all this came out the way it wasn't supposed to, I wanted to just.. slap some sense into you... I wanted to slap toi soo hard! But then, I realized that the one at fault is me... I am the one who should be slapped, for plus reasons that I'd like to count... I have failed as a best friend - completely failed... Let alone prevention, I couldn't even see through you...
Well now, for goodness' sake, don't go on blaming yourself for this way of thinking of mine! Listen to all my venting! That's the least I expect of you... Of course well, toi CAN blame yourself, if toi want me to feel worse that is.
Think about it... put yourself in my shoes... Well, ik.. easier a dit than done...i'm feeling worse than one could imagine right now..
I mean... Miss Amira Sharma! How could you!! toi stupid dumbo!! How could toi let a stupid bunch of lazy neurons take control over you!! The toi I know!!
I don't know shit about this clinical depression crap K? I'm a bloody idiotic dumbass! But seriously dude, I COULD help toi tell off those lowlife neurons that Amira Sharma isn't as weak as toi useless crappy cells think she is! only if toi want me to, that is... toi might think that you're weak... But you're not... And if toi deny, I'd totally give in to the opinion that my friendship has been useless all along...
K... toi might feel like toi should die and the world is better off without you, but for once, for goodness' sake, look around... Your mom was sitting suivant to toi crying when toi woke up, wasn't she?
toi have plenty of things to live for!! Want me to name 3? k!
1. Friends & Family
2. One Direction
3. Me...
Damn!I don't remember when was the last time I felt so pissed!
I don't always say it, but dude, you're a BLESSING in my life! I have no idea where I would've been without toi around! I wonder if I'd have ever come to know what friendship means if it weren't for you...
Every word I've ever written in this darned diary was straight from my heart!! I wouldn't waste my precious time I could've spent sleeping ou watching animé in making that 'Secret Base'* for just some trivial friend...
I don't think I'd understand one BFF post on FB from the ones that we feel are relatable as of now if I hadn't met you!
Don't we always go on about how we're proud of this bond, which is totally different from those girly duos who claim to be best Friends and flaunt their pics on social sites just to end up as strangers after a few years...
Okay... I finally feel like I'll HAVE to name a few things toi can be proud of... So, here goes...
- your nature
- your face
- your figure
- your voice
- your hair
- your... wait... almost everything ever...
(complimenting toi is STILL a drag... I'm sorry XD)
Damn! okay.. After this, I wouldn't mind if toi reached the Ayush** level of conceit, I guess...
I wouldn't try to make an effort to keep under control the height of your flight either... Just start flying.
"Being down to earth is great, but being under the earth is nothing close to being good..."
I know stuff is easier a dit than done... But still, I'll help toi start moving forward, step par step, maybe... I'll help toi start looking up at yourself dude... You're totally plus amazing than toi think toi are... You're worth plus than toi think toi are... (Not every girl gets a reverse harem toi know? XD)
A lot of people l’amour toi Amira!! And I'm one of them... God doesn't send a lot of pieces like toi down here...
Just smile already!
Didn't toi say toi won't let me be par myself even if I wanted to? I hope toi keep your word...
If toi ever feel that way again, CALL ME! And if par any, i.e. 1 in a 1000 chance, I don't pick up, read this diary... ou the Secret Base! toi can even come over. ou listen to 1D... ou WATCH ANIME!!
Now I wanna sound kinda selfish here, so.. toi must know, without toi around, I'd be plus lonely that I'd like to imagine... I don't have as many Friends as toi think I do... :P
I want to keep talking to toi about 1D and ANIME!! Forever!!
I want to see our children marrying each other!! XD
Oh come on.. You're just 13... At least consider this... It won't be fun dying off a virgin! XP At least, live a life that satisfies toi before dying Amira Sharma!!
(K.. I feel like an old sage all of a sudden...)
FOR THE SAKE OF ME AND MY FUTURE CHILDREN! DONT' DIE!!!
(I'm completely serious here...)
l’amour ya!
* Secret Base is probably a scrapbook that the auteur gave Amira as a gift.
** Ayush is someone, probably, the author's brother, who the duo has entitled as completely conceited.
That was it... Please share your thoughts in the comments...
