Before we went to Charlie's house, Criss went to his hotel room to get some of his workout clothes for gym. He wanted to work out with me, so I had to go to my room and some of my workout clothes too. I haven't been to an actual gym in a while, but I wanted to go. Not only would I have a workout, but I'll spend some time with Criss. I'm just glad to be connecting with him and not having a fight. We never usually fought when we were kids, but we did argue a little. It was just those two really bad ones that we had in the 90's and 2002. I just hope we don't have another one, especially anytime...

It's Saturday. They jour my l’amour and enemy is coming to see all of us. Maybe he'll sweep me away in his arms, kiss, and then have a Kill Bill related sword fight until the suivant dawn. It's so odd. One minute I wanna just l’amour him, and let him hold me close in his muscular arms, but the suivant minute I just wanna be just the two of us like Beatrix Kiddo and Bill fighting out after seeing each other for the first time in four years. Am I really this insane? Yes. My insanity keeps me from this great and wonderful normality that people rave about. Yet, I haven't been out much in the eight years I've...

I went back to therapy today. Dr. Wiggins still asked plus and plus questions about me. I learned three things today: 1) Dr. Wiggins is a lonely sad man with no one to talk to. 2) I'm planning on changing therapists, so I can have a better one to connect to, instead of a sad and lonely man that desperately needs to be in this chair plus than I do. And 3) If I don't call that guy soon, I'm going to end up sad and lonely with this doctor not shutting up about how smart he is and how he knows things. I've studied psychology all through high school and college and I still read about it, and what...

> Are toi ready >Belive > all our dreams can come true--if we have the courage to bourse, sac à main them.
>to give [the audeince] an experince that touches them at an emotinal level is what's impotant. That to me is true magic > when the mind,body,and spirit work together anything is possible> fear is just a state of mind>Pain is a beautiful thing > it's like saying what u are is what u eat. well I belive toi are what toi think.what toi feed your mind. your body will follow and belive.Even the most brillant medicne in the world can't cure the body if the patients mind refues to cooperate>if...

Criss was standing there, very beautiful, but yet rather vunerable. I could attack him at any second, but no. Not the right time and place. Sadie could put me back into the straight-jacket, getting dragged to the dreaded hoosegow. *sighs* It would be better being locked up with Hannibal Lecter than being alone. At least I'll have some genius to speak to and to share ideas with. We could be partners in crime together, freaking out Jodie Foster, making her job plus and plus harder than it really is, and making the clues much plus difficult than how they really are. I wonder if Criss could be...

The suivant morning, they free me from the straight-jacket. I have so many scars from trying to escape. I can't escape. It's impossible. Yet, almost everything in life is impossible. Almost like there's no hope. toi get a lottery ticket, hoping to be richer than Donald Trump ou Midus, who can touch anything that can turn into pure gold, but they lose everything and gain nothing. I have seen it all. toi think toi l’amour someone, but toi wake up and he's not there. toi think toi trust someone, yet they blackmail toi and dare to use your weaknesses against you. I'm no Superman. In fact, I'm weak and...