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Riku114 a dit …
Bird wound stress :v posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
And done. 3 hours off to being a good mama bird XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Also, even though we lied and a dit the $100 we spent to get her helped was $30, my dad stil lsays it was a waste of money even though she would have likely died in the near future if we didnt il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Pretty much such lack of care for animaux is kinda what got my parakeet killed so *shrug* Not surprising il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
All's well that ends well for now !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Btw, meditation, stretches, and breathing gym / exercises (the ones we did when I was training with an open class DCI group) are good for loosening up body tension posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ #LefterisVerified !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
salut toi people that cheat on icone Contests and/or have multiple accounts, can yall like just use your other accounts to fan this club so I can reach a number which theyll let me add a background XD Thatd be cool fam

Jk jk. Id be plus annoyed that the fan count would be a poor representation of the people who are / were interested in this club posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I also dont even know when that number level is XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Honestly, the ability to make Multiple Accounts could be of good use. Putting cheating, trolling / spamming and deceiving others aside, certain aspects of this Website can benefit from such support !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Im messing up my schedule and cant write cos Im in too pissy of a mood

I already missed an animal volunteer jour since I was busy yesterday

And Im already behind on exercising :v posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Fuuuck il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I need to get out of this pointlessly disgusted disappointed mood il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Some chance of pace would do toi good. Hope toi managed to relax !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
If toi are going to be a parent, please go through extensive planning before hand so toi can be responsible with it. Even if its an accident child, please plan while pregnant.

And please

Never

Use

Pregnancy

As

A

Trap

If someone wants to go, dont force them in with a child. toi are screwing over both your partner's life, and the kid that is being used.

If toi are a parent, take responsibility posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
"THERE IS A SATISFACTORY AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN IN MY BRAIN RIGHT NOW CAN toi BELIEVE" ~Gyldenyovth posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
See Riku made a mistake asking me to watch l’amour Stage with her cuz now we get weird statements like "So Rape is ok so long as toi put them through hell?" posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Personally, part of the reason the reason I am working mostly on my trauma and PTSD and recovering from it over all the other stuff I have is because Im like 90% sure pretty much every other issue of mine has strong roots in a dit trauma.

If I try to knock those out, theyll just come back sooner ou later if the thing they are rooted in isnt fixed first. Do such a thing is like trying to remove weeds par clipping them in half. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Akashi - KNB
Byakuya - Bleach
canon, cannon - Umineko no Koro Ni
Daiki Aomine - KNB
Eggsy - Kingsman
Ferid Bathory - Owari no Seraph
Guren Ichinose - Owari no Seraph
Hibari Kyoya - KHR
Izumi Sena - l’amour Stage
James - Pokemon
Kano Shuuya - Kagerou Days
Lussuria - KHR
Misogi Kumagawa - Medaka Box / Muramasa - Bleach
Nagito Komaeda - Danganronpa
Ogami - Danganronpa
Peko Pekoyama - Danganronpa
Quill Peter - Marvel
Raikou - Nabari No Ou posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Saix - Kingdom Hearts Tsurara - Nurarihyon Ukyo - Amnesia Viral - Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagaan Wallace - Pokemon Xanxus - KHR Yuri - DDLC Zack Foster - anges of Death il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I'm going through my Youtube "Watch Later" which is pretty much a liste of vidéos I saved cos I likeed them and felt Id like to see them again in the future, so if I post a lot of vidéos on this club, thats why posté il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
Ya I do that a bit too much with other sites tbh. il y a plus d’un an
cool
GDragon612 a dit …
eyo guys I am back nowe tehehehe
so whats up in da house =D posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
salut sup XD Nothing much il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Welcome back, Kitkat. Nothing much for me either. Just trying to enjoy some of Summer's freedom. How about you? il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
omo thank ya riku and leftie I am doing F***ing great hehe,kat is relaxed now and getting brown skin like a chocolat *eats myself* =p il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Okay so rant time. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Part of the reason DCI is amazing - at least with the world class corps - are that they BLAST your face off while sounding great. Its one of the things that come with the name of Drum Corps and its loved. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
LAST year, a huge trend was a shit ton of amplification with microphones everywhere and shit and personally, it was quite annoying since it didnt sound nearly the same ou as good. Yeah, amplification for the soloist and shit is good and normal, but they went around pretty much amplifying the entire band and it was bleh. It actually became a source of débats among people who like DCI il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Havent looked at any of the non-west coast shows yet tho. Saving that for Finals il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
There is no pair of games plus addicting than Sonic Forces and Huniepop posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I am stubborn as hell, both for and against my own good XD posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
It's super annoyi-I mean charming XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
jk il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
mooooostly XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
d e p e r s o n a L i z a t i o n

i s

w e i r d

a s

f u c k posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Actually I only had it for like.... two minutes but being slowly pushed out of your body and not being able to connect your face with your identity in the mirror for like.... that small period is weird as fuccccck il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I leave toi alone for three hours...Riku Riku Riku. Imma have to keep a closer eye on toi XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Shut up :vvv il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
UPDATE. I still kinda fear and anxiety around women that look feminine and social. posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I have a really nice lit posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
toi are in Florida il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
So is my bed. Thus...I have a really nice lit that I get to lay on il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Why? What toi think I meant? il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I want to lay down on a reaaalllly nice lit posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ #Relatable !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Riku now officially thinks I know nothing about how rape works posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Naaah XD I was just playing with your game il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Rape isn't a game, Riku. Seriously montrer some restraint.... il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
They certainly wont XDDDD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
:v il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Seriously though. Its been a while since I spent 50% of the time Im awake being mildly depressed ou down / low mood for no reason and if toi remove the time Im distracted, its probably a good 80% of the time.

Sometimes it goes from mildly to kinda badly at night if Im not on my A game at countering it but... eh.

Also my scale of "mild to severe" depression might be skewed cos Im referencing it off past experiences and mannnn was a bad before.

It just really sucks cul, ass posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I'll be fine because its something I've had for a long while and compared to other things Ive lived through, this is literally like going back to the first dungeon in a RPG game after toi completed the game il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Its not really concerning, but it just sucks ass. I should try to find some time to talk to some other people from my school and maybe hang out but thats a huuuuge step for me. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Yeee. I dunno if it is REALLY a good thing, but at the very least in the like... week ou so that Ive been on summer break, Ive probably a massed plus hours of genuine good mood / happiness than I did all of last years summer :v yeesh last an summer was bad :v But Ill take that as a positive note XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Oh my goooood. That was such a friggin long jour at work.... posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
THIS icone HELPS MY MOOD SOME HOW posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Seriously l’amour Stage has been great for keeping my mood up at night. Might watch it myself again after I finish it and might just keep rewatching it at night until summer is over. Either that ou swithc over to Romeo X juliet il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
l’amour Stage is both WAY plus gay than I remember and wayyyy cuter than I remember posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly my dad going back to actually laying a hand on my mom is really all it takes. Im like... pretty sure I might just call social services on my dad so I can perhaps go to UC Davis feeling like Im not leaving my mom alone to be beat posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Because apparently hes perfectly fine hitting my mom when my back is turned and not watching him with the constant unspoken threat that Ill kick his cul, ass when he tries to il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
And I have been disowned par him for saying he deserves the deepest layer of hell, which honestly to that I say "Good riddance" il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
^ il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Had to beat my dad for hitting my mom. Would have put him in a chokehold until he fainted if my mom let me. posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Lefteris knows how much I want cannibalism in Danganronpa so if I don't get any from V3, I'm blaming him posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Gotta let it go, my Man XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ a dit …
Let’s watch Riku sleeping

https://imgur.com/a/DY4lSo8 posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
That kinda Creepy though... il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
Be quiet xD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I l’amour watching Riku sleep il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I'm so fucking angry....

The one time Riku actually wants to stay up and hang out and I fell asleep in my chair.

ugh....I'm just so pissed off right now.

and she's asleep so all I can do is vent in aléatoire places. UGH posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
fuck my life il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
fuck my job for making me tired il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
Drink soda ou coffee xD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I'm honestly not used to the feeling of people liking me and wanting me just for being myself and doing nothing. Its not something my mind can emballage, wrap itself around properly. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Gotta get used to it because we wouldn't have it any differently XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Seriously tho, pretending your intrusive thoughts are some really annoying blabby outspoken person make it a lot easier XD posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Suggestions: 12-year old X-Box kid, annoying backseat driver, super uptight religious lady, Know it all Greg, Casper the Wanna-Be Horror Ghost il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Personally, I dont really like seeing little kids too often since it usually puts into perspective the shit I was going through.

I l’amour kids and all, but I always have that "Oh shit." moment when I realize how young I really was. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Hot diggity, I had to get new headphones cos my old ones were pretty shitty and I had to like... mess with it to hear musique right

And shit the ones I got my boyfriend a while back for a gift were AMAZING.

I got him better headphones than I currently had :v I mean I only buy heaphones once a an and usually go for whats cheap / on sale rather than anything else

But dang. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I'm honestly quite concerned my mom wont maintain the attention and training Ive done with Lucy and Avery over the an Ill be gone at UC Davis without an ability to have a pet :/ posté il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
Don't toi know anyone who can temporarily adopt your birds who is expert with training? il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Nah I wouldnt trust that honestly. And no not particularly cos Im the bird person in the like... entire school XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Best person I know is my older sister who is in Utah but getting them there is.... eh. il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Man I know I have to write her bio but T-T

Poor Koko....I feel bad for her having such a fucked up premise posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
:v I dont thinks shes half as bad as like 30% if not plus of mine XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I kinda wanna play the School Days Visual Novel XD posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Same. I might not be a big fan of the Series in general but it is certainly intriguing !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Fanfic: Anal bead posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
*Colorful anal bead il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
*Colorful singular anal bead il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Welp. Riku accidentally added $50 onto her Steam when she meant to wait for my response.

So I guess I don't have to be indecisive on the big commitment Danganronpa games with Riku is XD

Cuz I am now $48.58 cheaper. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
toi are welcome for me accidentally clicking "Purchase" while I was setting it up as a possibility. Now we both have Danganronpa V3 and didnt have any indecisiveness XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Welp. I literally accidentally added $50 onto my Steam when I meant to just consider, check my account, then buy it

So I guess I dont have to be indecisive about buying Danganronpa V3

Cos if I have $54 on my Steam, I might as well. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Hopefully my PC can handle it il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
If not itll be put off till I proabbly get a new computer part way through ou before college XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
ACCIDENTS CAN BE SO WONDERFUL AT TIMES !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Apparently spending 3 hours cleaning bird shit makes toi smell really bad posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
ou it makes the birds smell nice il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Me: Im having stomach issues

Psychiatrist: Its probably the medicine - eat yogurt daily

Me: Kay *does it for a week and then stops*

*four months later*

Me: Yeah I kinda got used to stomach issues. They dont really stop so *shrug*

Mom: Its probably the medicine

Me: Yeah I was told to eat yogurt

Boyfriend: Then eat yogurt

Me: Ugh but thats so much work. Fineeeee

*literally hasnt had stomach issues since I started eating yogurt again* posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Yes, I am the type that would be too lazy to ask for and eat yogurt daily even if it means Ill be having daily stomach and digestional issues everyday il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Im honestly the type that takes a huge push to ask for what I need tho. Like I should probably ask for some kind of orthopedics cos my feet are getting flat af and it has been hurting plus and plus XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Yogurt can be really nice XD It has certainly done wonders for me !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
It helps par lining the stomach XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Part of the reason and manner I managed to repair my mental health and stay mostly in a good mood is cause I got really good at deciphering which thoughts were necessary and which werent and avoided letting the unnecessary negative ones linger

But honestly when they last a whole day, morning to night, it gets kinda hard to keep the energy to constantly decipher which it is and sort it and mentally focus on not letting it get to you.

Yesterday was rough posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I could use some genuine affection though.

I will let that statement stay on the mur since its true. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Never hesitate to seek it out. There are those who are genuinely willing to give it to toi !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I honeslty do not handle the social isolation (or rather demand for me to actually go and put effort into talking to people), lack of a set schedule and goal, weather, and amount of time at accueil I get in summer

It just really makes summer really bad for my mental health and shit. Especially with college being added among all that for my brain to try to make me anxious ou depressive over.

It was starting yesterday and it put SO much effort to it today posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Man I just l’amour the game Sonic Forces so much. It gives me such a feeling of bliss. I even loved it so much, I wanted to invite Riku to watch.

She a dit no. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Look at her. I'm deeply saddened and she smiles. il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
A cruel mistress she is il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Also I dunno if I sound like it, but I dont hate YandereDev ou anything. Its just a bit of a shattered image I had before. I still do appreciate his work towards things and his ability to chase his dream and all, plus I understand where he is coming from. I just disagree with his personality and his actions.

Personally, Im still going to follow its development, but yeah. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Ugh. Its literally been two days into being out of school - a literal weekend worth

And my brain is already excited to start Summer Mental Hell-th posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Dissociation feels like that really disorientating feel when toi were REALLY deeply asleep ou engrossed into your dream and wake up completely confused as to where toi are, who everyone is, and whats going on for a good few seconds

Cept it isnt a few secondes and toi werent asleep posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
And Im saying this not cos of dissociation but cos I was napping in the car and kept going back to sleep when I woke up and I was and still am extremely disorientated to the point my balance is kinda off, my words are slurred and sentences make noooo sense. XD Super extremely disorientated and the length of this post-sleep disorientation is almost getting concerning il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
"Why didnt toi just leave? Why didnt toi tell someone?"

I was kinda watching a Doki Doki Natsuki fan game episode randomly and those questions came up and honestly, when it comes to child abuse - ou abuse overall, there is a lot that goes into it. Especially if it has been long term. At that point, toi dont say anything and dont leave because its the normal and everyone toi live around seems to feed into that 'normal'. Sometimes they let toi know doing so would make things worse. etc. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Personally, even now I bite my tongue on it because personally, telling anyone who can actually do anything about it and maybe getting a bit of help to fix my family situation, is really not worth the side effects and probable disowning of everyone in my family except my oldest sister. Id rather keep those bridge open than loose financial support from my parents while Im at college for years and possibly loose my middle sister as family il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
There is A LOT that goes into it, and personally, my experience with people who do hear about the situation, they really have a hard time grasping how hard / bad of an idea actually telling people who can fix it ou leaving is, can be, ou can seem to the person being abused il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
"If someone were REALLY that bad, at that point toi would just leave?!" Honestly... no, not if that was the every day. There are a lot of people that are that bad ou worse than how Natsuki's dad was portrayed and they are never actually told about. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Im trumpet sexual posté il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
link il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, I dont even know what my brain was ou where I was in the past years.

Like... Seriously, especially in 9th grade, I was literally like... crazy. I really should have had a therapist then. But to be fair, 9th and 11th grade werent that far apart in how badly I should have had a therapist. XD Just I had one in 11th grade. Who knows how bad 11th grade could have been without one posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
My face is so badly burnt posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Gotta be careful in such a Climate. Do not stand in the Sun for long. Especially if there's isn't any sort of protection to be applied !!!! il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
Aw feel better 💐 il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
^ il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
XD The graduation cooked our faces il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
God what the fuck is wrong with me....I don't want to worry anyone, but I had a completely 100% legit urge to mail my income tax money suivant an to Riku so she can buy a computer....

My grasp on how important it is to not waste money combined with my desire to give things to people is really scary sometimes. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
^ il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I am officially graduated and officially on summer vacation!

BUT EVEN BETTER

STEAM SUMMER SALE WOO

PEOPLE GET AMNESIA WHILE ITS $3

rejoindre MY CULT posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
ONCE AGAIN, CONGRATULATIONS, RIKU !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly though, I dont really like eating with my whole family ou doing family events without my boyfriend simply because I just feel out of place, awkward, and like a sore thumb. It usually just feels like Im intruding ou just dont simply mesh with the people there and the conversations they talk about so I honestly kinda avoid eating with them.

Thus why I kinda DONT want a graduation dinner. Its just... eh. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
If I could have one with just one of my sisters, then one with the other, cool. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
But just everyone together its just... eh. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Tomorrow I graduate for real. Wooooo.

Finally done with high school XD posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly tho kinda feels weird to be joining the fanpop College Kids Club cos Ive always been the like... little maknae of the people XD il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
link il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Also, I welcome toi to the Club XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
So i have my sims on Free Will and try not to intervene much out of guiding them to fufill wishes and I ended up on a rendez-vous amoureux, date with one of my RP characters since he asked me out

>character is known for being mentally unstable and psychotic / psychopathic
>arrives to a completely empty lot
>empty lot is par traverser, croix roads
>tries to watch a movie but instead goes to tour the theatre
>dumpster dives with date
>gets nauseous and vomits
>chases deer
>apparently the rendez-vous amoureux, date ended at some point posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Meanwhile Wanta's rendez-vous amoureux, date with an RP character consisted of her complaining, them lookign at a painting, then splitting up il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Riku: "Dammit Wanta! I was expecting toi to say something serious!"

Wanta: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WCFbdOOmOY posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Once you've gotten to the point of hating yourself and wanting to die and trying stuff recommended for BFRB, perroquet feather pulling, self mutilation, and drug addiction to stop plucking, toi gain a large resistance to the disheartening feels of a relapse since its hard to hold yourself accountable ou to have your hopes dropped when toi kinda never had them high in the first place posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
It really wont go away until things are fully handled, and thats in the best situation. I am just kind of still trying a bit out of formality and stubbornness il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
But really, try to not do something most people dont do for like.... 9-10 years straight with little success despite massive effort, research, attempts, trials, methods, etc. At a certain point, it just becomes the usual annoying friend toi got paired up with il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Literally looked into a long scientific lab rapporter on perroquet feather plucking and trichotillomania in hopes itd bring up some interesting information. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly my parents are so disgustingly judgmental and in denial over it.

Like pretty much assuming my sister is aspirationless, goalless, and doesnt want to do anything / CANT do anything because she cant / wont answer their questions right away.

I tried explaining my older sister's reasoning, backing, and shit cos they were trash talking her in front of me and my oldest sister is the one Ill defend to the death

And just right over their head and ignored posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Talking to them about anything that doesnt fit their initial view of hwo things are is like arguing with a three an old plugging their ears going "LALALALALALA I CANT HEAR YOU" cos they dont listen at all il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Rikus favori character from G-Senjou no Maou would likely be Tokita Yuki ou just Maou. Blind's would prolly be Shiratori Mizuha. Lefteris I would say....eh....Haru ou Ei-chan.

Clearly for me Haru is the best. My favori par a wide margin.

God I loved that game. I might play another 50 hours of it just cuz I l’amour the characters so much...or I might hold out for Riku to get the game and I might watch her read it XD posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Additional thought: Miwa Tsubaki's excessively positive attitude might also make her a favori of Lefteris' il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ It seems that my affection for the Cheerful Types has been made apparent huh? XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Putting that aside, they look pretty interesting. I'm especially intrigued par Haru from I have seen so far. I can say the same though for the Girls toi mentioned for the others XD I'll have to play the Game and see !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Also, toi dont realize how much tension plucking removes until toi start doing it ou a substitute for it (shaving) and feel the odd, subtle, but strong euphoria and whole body relaxation

Its honestly like a drug. Kind of why I have yet to be able to ever stop completely over the past nine ou so years.

Quite literally I've looked up ways to stop Trich and other BFRBs, self harm and cutting, and drug addiction and little of it has actually helped posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Oh and no worries XD Im not annoyed ou frustrated ou anything like that. I just was making a joke below and felt like rambling a bit less jokingly about it. Personally my approach to it is to keep a subtle attempt but until I get my main stressors fixed, I doubt Ill actually be able to lessen the plucking to the degree I want. Its too deeply entangled in PTSD, GAD, OCD, dissociation, and all to be able ot be removed first. If anything, its probably the last thing Ill be able to handle. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Just because any one of the others can easily bring it back in five secondes ou less il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
No but the post below XD

I was going to take a shit before lit and I was like "Geesh my legs are hairy. toi know I could let off some tension par shaking small really hairy patches on my leg instead of pluckign which is 99.99% healthier"

Then look shaved a little too much

So then I just a dit fuck it and shaved a chunk to make it even

Then a dit fuck it and shaved the whole left veau to make it look right

Then realized I had to do the same to my right veau posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Quite honestly tho, this is the only reason my legs get shaved 75% of the time. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Help. I accidentally shaved my left leg posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I think Riku fits into a new category I'm dubbing "Utsudere" posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
whats that XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Utsu means strike ou hit XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
O-oh... god...

I was bored and now Im finding major shit on YandereDev's character and personality..

...

I mean I still like his goals and his personality he can montrer on the channel but...

uh.... why do all the youtubers I have turn out to have majorly assholish genuine characters..?

I wonder how Markiplier is doing. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Thats sad. I used to like him but hes a bit.... of a... er... il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Ugh. XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Still gonna follow the progress but Imma just kinda ignore his whining il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Shh. Riku doesnt know I gave up on forcing myself to eat during my lunch breaks. If she finds out, she’ll hassle me posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
*Tells Riku* !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
:v il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I am REALLY good with anxious animaux apparently.

Theres this dog I was helping watch for a few hours for reason I cant elaborate for and apparently hes super scared of and barks / tries to bite 98% of strangers excluding my older sister and apparently me.

In fact, he kissed my face within like... 15 secondes of knowing me cos I gave him like.... 5 secondes to sniff my hand, 5 secondes of head scratch, then like went right up to his face XD posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Im really good with most animaux tbh. Cos I have never encountered a situation where someones like "Oh he usually doesnt like strangers" and NOT had the animal l’amour me ou at least like me immediately il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
animaux have their way of sensing Kindness and Love. It is only natural !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I referred to it as “they could sense she was genuine” il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Was randomly humming when I realized I just somehow seamlessly transitioned from Bleach to Taylor rapide, swift and then into Pokemon bike musique posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I am taking applications for people to be my dad for Fathers Day. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
jk jk dark humor XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly Fathers jour is pretty meaningless to me. Never really meant anythign since my dad is much plus likely to throw a tantrum, get upset, and start doing annoying shit if we were to mention it than anything else. Since he has this thing about celebrating holidays that pisses him off. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ Uhhh... Sure... *Brings the whip* When do toi want to get started, Wantaboy? il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
toi see, I know Im an extrovert - a highly selective one at that - because my definition of "me time" isnt lire a book, watching TV, ou doing something on my own

It usually refers to time being par the computer ou doing casual calm stuff like walks ou watching TV with people I find relaxing, simple, and can be comfortable around and just lounge doing nothing

RARELY do I ever think of actually spending "me time" alone posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
If only there was a way toi could combine watching TV AND being par the computer.... il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Google : How to get social things done at the same time as sleeping? posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Oh shit thats high level dissociation il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I dont think I could let myself do that :v il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Me: Im so tired

Me: I should probably sleep

"Then toi should. toi sound tired"

Me: Nah. I havent been awake long enough. ... I mean had free time enough

"Is there anything toi are craving to do rn then?"

Me: Sleep.

Me: ... but I wont posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
#Relatable !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
*curls up in a ball of tired*

tomorrow is possibly / probably plus tiring and annoying posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
#Same !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Also, after the band banquet, I am glad to leave behind a legacy in the band and school. I raised so many children and so many of them are major band leaders, people taking part in activities, and major people in the school.

It makes me glad. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly, no one wants me to leave :v il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I know the feeling. toi going to Davis sucks cul, ass cuz toi won't be online NEARLY as much. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
It is only understandable after this long. A person like toi would certainly be missed !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly I just kind of want to talk about something. A lot of my band knows me as the Rookie Collector / Dad / Satan and all that stuff, and its very fitting and everything. I put A LOT of work into gaining those titles

But really, there was one person - Jacob Gordon - who literally probably put my character on the path to the nice place it is now plus than most others. He was the person that took ME in as a rookie and honestly was the person that made me want to stay in band posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I used to be really angsty, really depressed, and really didn't want to involve myself with people and for the most part, felt like a bit worthless and excluded in the band and all. I pretty much kinda expected that to continue and really just kinda went passively through my trumpet playing and my socializing and he kinda just busted himself in my life because he noticed me and my friend at the time playing Pokemon, that to the point that, despite my poor playing ability, he a dit hed want me and my friend to be his left and right hand when he becomes section leader. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly, it took a while for it to fully set in, but it really changed my whole view of band and probably people as a whole. I actually felt welcome and like there was someone there who I could kinda look to for how to act in the band and everything. I was really excited to be his right hand even tho I didnt feel it was anywhere in view, but he ended up suddenly saying he wouldnt be attending the school suivant year. Never told me why. Just a dit he was switching to the neighbor school il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Well said. He certainly sounds like a great person !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Riku is a very oddly fellow. posté il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
Riku is a very oddly tired fellow. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
^ il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^^ !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Like if toi too have an irrational fear of spiders posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
YEP !!!! il y a plus d’un an
SilentForce commenté…
I don't il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
My fear is entirely rational il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
jour 834: Riku still doesnt understand the concept of being just straight ou just gay. posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
34? il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Rule 34? il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I see your game il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I just beat Riku at math posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Come and get me UC Davis il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
What is your life indeed. I know it can hurt to always be seconde best, but toi have to understand that some of us just have a natural talent for the precise sciences. il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
If toi work hard at it, toi could even be 3/8 the math wiz I am. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I've been asked this before, but my memory loss / memory failures pretty much stretch back... two ou three tops. Its after that point that my memory gets really foggy if really existent at all.

I have a really strong procedural and declarative memory which makes it so I can excel in school, but episodic / autobiographical memory is literal shit.

The furthest back I can clearly remember can be as short as like... a few days to a week. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
The furthest back I can decently remember is probably a couple weeks. And the furthest back I can honestly expect myself to reliably remember is a couple months ou so if toi arent asking for specifics il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Like IRL Friends like teasing me over back tracking aléatoire yet notable details of the days and seeing me buffer XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Most of my memories kinda become a blur really quickly tho. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
"You gotta have that amnesiac goldfish memory looked at" ~Wanta @ Riku 2018

:v :v :v posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Seriously, toi dont realize how bad my memory is until toi talk to me a lot for like... a an straight il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Cos then toi get me being like "nope. No memory of that" to something huge XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
It is certainly quite the agreeable Quote XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I dunno, some how at some point, I came to really like Yuri's psychoness at least as an aesthetic and ended up solidifying her as a favorite?

I think this is the power of me actually giving titles to characters.

Once I give them a special title, its like adding a multiplier to how much I l’amour them for no other reason than the fact I decided to make it official and rank them special XD posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Its quite interesting though. Psychoness tend to make me like them plus global, ensemble ou as a relatable character, but oddly it adds to her waifuness. Which I know isnt odd overall, but for me I tend to not find much in insane girls as waifus. For the most part I like the firm and self confident ou the really cute and soft ones il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
This is why I don't write side stories. Like...friggin living up to the bar Riku set is so stressful... posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
If I could get personal l’espace that would be niceee.. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
ou silence / noise quiet enough I can block it out wtih musique il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I am definitely going to buy toi some noise cancelling earmuffs ou something. il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
*makes an image éditer of a character Riku used to be obsessed with*

Riku: "who dat?"

Me: *walks to corner of depression* posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
salut I WAS PRETTY SURE BUT MAKING SURE il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
PLUS IM TIRED AS SHIT WITH A HEADACHE SO STFU XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
toi all saw il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
If Yuri is Libitina, shell probably be plus of a favori of mine XD posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
I can see why XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I have a bad headache and am sore... posté il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ commenté…
link il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
A Q U A

G O T

N O R T E D posté il y a plus d’un an
JetBlack_ a dit …
I’m just going to hide here 😅because my last post on aléatoire supposed to be funny but now I’m just scared xD posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
link il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
So me and Wanta started playing Sims, him watching me and we are working on making the RP characters on there.

So far the two interactions between the three we made (two being as pets XD) is very accurate to how theyd probably be in the RP posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Sims could provide a good ground for the RP indeed XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I could make a reality montrer off the drama I had to deal with today posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Its so interesting change of events that Aqua is now dark and shit dude. She got Norted posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Seriously.... That was a hugeee bomb drop and the creators are like "lol toi guys reacted just as much to this as La Reine des Neiges for real???" il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Cos Aqua is so.... so much of the face of #TeamLight il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
No one really thought shed go dark il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
"Imbeciles... toi would knowingly shackle your cœur, coeur to a chain of memories born of lies? toi would be one who has a heart, yet cast aside your heart's freedom?! toi turn from the truth because your cœur, coeur is weak.... toi will never defeat me!"

Literally have been listening to those 34 secondes on repeat as my "music" for the past three days. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, there was a point when Organization XIII from Kingdom Hearts felt like a really large extended metaphor for the extreme emptiness and apathy I had so there was actually a point when I mentally had the entire concept of Organization XIII on my relatable liste XD posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
That being said, I was told par they who shall not be named that toi couldnt identify with an entire game XD Which I wasnt cos I never really got to that point, but it was really close to me back then and did help make sense of my mind at the time il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I have a much higher preference and care for characters seen in KH 358/2 days tbh. Mostly because it was my first game that made me fall in l’amour with Kingdom Hearts. So where as the Organization XIII might be something that popped in after KH2 and a bit in it, but to me SORA popped into the story after il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Organization XIII are the OGs for me and the characters I personally care the most about. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Dude so hyped for the suivant icone round. Just made probably the most complex icone that took the most time for me to make in a long while if over all. 11 layers on pixlr to make it and I personally think I captured what I meant to display pretty well. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Also Wanta will always be better at text than me il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Isn't today just lovely tho? il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Also, you're welcome XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly though. My older-middle sister seems to have gone from spoiled to "princess" "Im entitled to ____".

Like Im not kidding, she claimed to have a right to have a reserved restaurant graduation celebration in Beverly Hills with all her Friends being paid for my my parents with none of the money coming from her own pocket ou her Friends pocket

Plus she was SUPER upset me and my oldest sister were pointing out how expensive that is posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Then proceeded to trash talk me and twist my words and lie to make me evil in the eyes of my mom who wasnt here and when I couldnt argue cause she can cry faster and louder il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Shes all like "Dad says its fine" but like... my dad will say anything is fine when it comes to money since he refuses to let us know anything on our financial situation and would never admit hes failing ou is limited at the only thing hes worth for in this family il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly I just needed to get that out of my system when I wasn't in a bad mental state il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
anges of Death the animé starts July 6, 2018 apparently so #Hype for that too posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
But Riku doesnt watch animé anymore il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I also should really cut back in how much I jokingly say "Imma stab someone" posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
#Yangire !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Well apparently I tested on my Math Placement test with 7 points higher than the minimum for the hardest class I could take and 3 higher than the minimum Trig sub score XD

I mean Imma go for the seconde hardest since Math 21M says "Should only be considered if toi got a 5 on the AP Calculus BC exam" and I got a 3 on that one XD So Imma be sûr, sans danger and not kill myself the first an posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
That's certainly good to know XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Messenger on fanpop is the only website that lags for me. #MySacrifice posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I meant Facebook il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
But now that I think of it, Fanpop's messenger thing is also super shitty and always lags my stuff out when I'm on it il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
So it still works il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
But mostly its Facebooks messenger that fucks up my computer. il y a plus d’un an