CHAPTER 18
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 minutes and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the seconde most powerful vampires in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving ou breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are toi thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I a dit again with plus convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known toi for almost for 8 years. Don’t toi dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are toi sure toi want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. toi asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed toi and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous vampires in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. toi guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful vampires one par one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a minute rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in lit and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t toi dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t toi dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I a dit was right.” I screamed. “Don’t toi DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just par the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know toi don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, toi have not failed. toi have won. toi have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, toi belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed toi have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make toi a crazy monster. It makes toi the wife that I l’amour and makes toi the amazing mother toi are. It makes toi the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if toi had to take down Aro and toi won. Though let us help toi when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, toi are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that toi are not alone. That toi have a whole big family downstairs and toi have Neisse and I. I will always be par your side. If toi let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble toi are in. toi got to help. Even though what toi did out there was killer. It was amazing. toi got to teach me how to do some of that crap toi did.” I laughed and a dit maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from toi missy. I understand toi are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn toi were when toi pushed us all away. Though just because toi as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy ours that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the l’amour had for my favori brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about toi come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I l’amour toi baby girl” I a dit and hugged her again. Edward sat down suivant to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 minutes later
Everyone filled into the room taking any siège available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is l’amour and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
It has been 2 days, 3 hours, and 25 minutes and 3 seconds. Since I have been sitting here, thinking. Thinking of everything that has happened the last few days. I have killed both the seconde most powerful vampires in our world. I killed Jane and Alec. I still feel as though I failed. I failed my family. I failed my daughter. Though these days that I have been thinking I have been sitting in my room as still as a statute, not moving ou breathing. Scared that realty will come down fast and harder then I would like it to.
“Bella, honey, what are toi thinking?” My beloved asked. It has been the first time anyone has talked scene we came in this room. I don’t mind the silence. I miss it even.
“Nothing” I stated. I know I am lying but I don’t want to worry him and everyone down stairs. Who with no doubt are listening to every word for answers? I feel as though I should tell him but I can’t bring myself to do it. “Nothing at all” I a dit again with plus convened then last time.
“Bella, don’t lie to me. I have known toi for almost for 8 years. Don’t toi dare lie to me. All it’s going to do it destroy us. So please Bella, just talk to me.” He said. He had a string of worry in his voice. Though Edward was always hiding it and covered it with a light hint of a teasing tone.
“Edward, are toi sure toi want to know?” I asked hoping he would say no but he shakes his head yes. So I go into explain everything. Well kind of everything. “Fine. toi asked for it.” I Sighed. Then begin. “I feel as though I failed toi and my daughter, my own daughter. Who I wasn’t there for, instead I was battling the most ridiculous vampires in this lifetime. I failed this family. I feel as though I don’t deserve to be in this family. I don’t belong in this family. toi guys are saints compared to me. God, I killed the most powerful vampires one par one. I also still have Aro and I have this weird feeling as though I may have to fight them just to follow through with the deal. I also have to make sure I find someone that will do a good job of being leader instead of having to be taken down later down the road.” I took a deep breath. This really wasn’t needed. “Edward, I am a monster. There is no taking back that I am. I am the one who killed two people not in even a few days ago. I am the one who is willing to kill Aro and everyone else who gets in the way of my family even if it kills me in the progress. Worst of all I am the worst mother, wife, also the worst person and also worst person to be in a family with.” I stated all of this in less than a minute rant. I was upset with myself. I was mad at myself. I just wanted to crawl in lit and sob and cry the tears I will never be able to shed. He was going to convene me I didn’t do anything and say I am wrong but I don’t believe him. “Edward Mason Cullen, don’t toi dare.” I yelled. “Just don’t toi dare tell me I am wrong and that nothing I a dit was right.” I screamed. “Don’t toi DARE!!!” I seethed. I could tell just par the look in his eyes that he was planning on doing just that. “Please Edward. Just don’t.” I stated. I fell into his arms and sobbed for everything and anything.
“Bella, I know toi don’t want to say anything but I feel as though it’s my job to say something. I also know it’s my job to care and help. Bella, toi have not failed. toi have won. toi have won back our freedom and our time to spend endless time together with OUR daughter and OUR family because of you. Bella, toi belong with our crazy, messed up family. Yes indeed toi have killed Jane and Alec but that doesn’t make toi a crazy monster. It makes toi the wife that I l’amour and makes toi the amazing mother toi are. It makes toi the daughter and sister –in –law that they love. Yes, I wouldn’t be surprised if toi had to take down Aro and toi won. Though let us help toi when it comes to that part. Please? “He took a breath and looked at me and held me tighter. “ Bella Cullen, toi are no monster because your number one reason for fighting was for your family. I would have done the same if I knew what was going on” He said. He stared down at and started laughing. “We would all do that if need be. Don’t ever forget that. Don’t allow yourself to forget that toi are not alone. That toi have a whole big family downstairs and toi have Neisse and I. I will always be par your side. If toi let me.” He stated and he kissed me. We were soon interrupted Emmett.
Yeah Bells were all here for you. No matter what kind of trouble toi are in. toi got to help. Even though what toi did out there was killer. It was amazing. toi got to teach me how to do some of that crap toi did.” I laughed and a dit maybe. “Oh, no maybes. I get a defiantly from toi missy. I understand toi are stubborn as hell. God, did we just realize how stubborn toi were when toi pushed us all away. Though just because toi as stubborn as hell that doesn’t mean I won’t beat your ass.” He was standing in front of me with his arms out for a hug and I ran into them. He was my big teddy ours that was my big brother that I knew had until now.
“Thanks Emmett. That was good to hear from you.” I said. With the l’amour had for my favori brother –in-law coming out thickly.
“Your welcome, Bells. Now how about toi come down stairs and explain what the hell happened.” Emmett said. I looked at Edward in a silent look asking if it would be okay and if he would come with me. He just nodded and picked me up and ran down the stairs into the living room bring me down also.
“GUYS!” I yelled. “We need to talk everyone meet up in the living room.” I yelled. I walked over to the coach where my daughter was sitting and I grabbed onto her not letting go just letting her cry and sob into my shirt.
“I am so sorry honey” I said. “I l’amour toi baby girl” I a dit and hugged her again. Edward sat down suivant to us and wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks.
10 minutes later
Everyone filled into the room taking any siège available. I took a deep breath before I looked at everyone and saw confusion and a million other expressions but the one that stand out the most is l’amour and concern and relief and worry. Once everyone realized I was ready all hell broke loose.
I'm sooo sooo sooo sorry i haven't posté in like forever but I have a MAJOR writer's block. I will try to post plus of my Unspoken story when i do not have writer's block
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
sincerely,
kayla
srry for all the extra space
Hello, My Name Is: Death
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I a dit to houx who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
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Later that day, Jerek was visiting with Verona, and I was bored off my ass. I was wanting to talk to Tabra, but every time I approached him, he was suddenly busy. We had people on watch guard, and Shropee didn't need me to do anything, so I was bored. Very. Bored.
"I'm bored." I a dit to houx who was walking past me.
"Like I care!" She snapped, and continued on her way.
"Well." I got to my feet, and started off to see how Verona's doing.
When I got to the bottom of the steps, Jerek ran out of the room. "I'll be back. I'm getting Shropee."
"Wait. What? Why?" I asked. "Is she okay?"
"She's awake." Jerek called over his shoulder, and I gasped.
Verona's awake? Verona's awake. Verona's awake.
Hear out my tortured soul
For I have nowhere else to go
toi captured my dead, La Reine des Neiges heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
toi took my breath away
And in my cœur, coeur you’ll always stay
toi are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My Rebelle and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When toi called out my name
My life had never been the same
toi kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your chocolat brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How toi irrevocably l’amour me
For I have nowhere else to go
toi captured my dead, La Reine des Neiges heart
Now yours and mine’ll never be apart
toi took my breath away
And in my cœur, coeur you’ll always stay
toi are my life now
Believe me, for this I vow
My Rebelle and trusting love
From the heavens above
I’ll do everything for you
And I’ll always be true
When toi called out my name
My life had never been the same
toi kept my feet on the ground
‘Cause my purpose had been found
Your chocolat brown eyes
Are honest and wise
Through them I could see
How toi irrevocably l’amour me