One mois il y a the girl I loved left to étoile, star in a big movie. I am Lost without her and feel like I have nothing left, I am happy for her because she wanted this role so bad; but without my fleur I am not alive. All of my Friends have tried to cheer me up; but I tell them until she comes back nothing will make me happy, and in reply they say toi know she won’t be back for 11 plus months. I know this but a an without her right par my side will be extremely hard to deal with; but maybe I should go back to before her audition so toi can feel what I went through. I mean after I get her back from her disappearance she has to leave again; so reliving my pain should be a fun ride.