heya well sorry about the spellin and stuff MDR but i thought i would give it a try MDR so tell me what toi think??


it was a quite night everything was silent except the swooshing of the wind againest the window.
tomorrow i would have to face school i couldnt deal with that right now i couldnt deal with it sure it has been a mois since the acsedent but i missed them i missed my mums hugs my dad telling me everything would be ok. i just missed them.
i knew tommorw i would be crouded with are toi ok and how are you, i will smile and work my way threw it all. "i am fine" this is what i will say to them. i could do this. i would do this.
i just stared out of my window for what seamed like forever. ontil i felt sleepy. i stubbled my way to lit and just crached there.


a bright light woke my in the morrning. i didnt wont to déplacer knowing what i was about to face but i knew that i had to do it some day. for the past mois i had been wearing the same black but today i would wear some of my old stuff. it felt weird but right. i felt near them again.
the house was the same as any other morning anut jenerth was running around trying to get everyone ready she was our new garduein.
"breakfast?" she asked still rushing
"ill just have a coffee" she was doing a great job but when she tried to offer me something it was to much.
"have toi got everything lunch money pencil calculator?"
"your doing a great job just go allready we`ll be fine" and with that it was time for us to leave.


i must of been jour dreaming because i was inturupted par bonnie
"...... are toi sure your alright?" she sounded conserned.
"im fine i carnt spend all my life not in a car can i "
we were about to pass the graveyard when we almost hit it the car went wild srurving and speeding losing control.
"what was that?" i asked as soon as i got my breath back. we were safly stopped and just made it to school well atleast i can get out now
"i dont know it looked thike a crow"
for a moment i just stared at the school.
"are toi sure toi alright to do this?" still conerned.
i just nodded not being able to trust my voise. time to get the hell over with. i took a deep breath a walked in.
i could hear the whispers as they all stared at me i just looked down and carried on walking.
"i wish people would stop staring " i muttered i could feel there eyes on my back.
"your elana gilbert everyone stares at you" bonie mocked then added "matts staring at you"
i turned and it was true he never did take our breakuo well. i desided to be nice and tell him we could still be friends. so i waved.
he turned around and just ignored me this was going to be awkrard.
"he hates me" i turned back to bonnie.
"you did the right thing par dumping him your..." she trialed of.
just then.
"how are you?" it was coraline she had just ran and hugged me.
"im fine" as much as i loved coraline she was one to fuss. this will be a while to convinse her that I AM FINE.


she turned to bonnie for a seconde oppinion.
"how is she really?"
before bonnie could answer i spoke
"erm hello i am right here and i told toi i am fine"
"ok come on time for history" we made our way ontil we saw him.


he was tall with brown tossled hair i only saw the back but the back looked good.
oh no "be right back guys" jeramy had got into a habbit of getting drugged up all the time and now i was sick of it so i followed him into the boys bathroom just in time to see him putting eyedropes in."stoned on your first jour jermamy"
"im not stoned" toi could tell from his voise that this was a lie.
"we have been giving toi a free passs sine since the acsident and now were sick of it jer toi wont to destroy your life then fine" i turned and stormed out.


"im sorry" i a dit as i looked up after bumbing into someone. he was goergus his eyes a deep green. wow.
"is this the mens bathroom?" he asked his smile was amazing.
"yes but it dont i mean its a long story" i smiled back.
we had one of those awkarad moments were we both went the same way to dogged the other person.
"im sorry" he a dit and he leaned himself against the wall.
"bye" he called i tured
" cya"


again i am still really sorry about spelling but it really aint my fault MDR x