As I was siting in the corner of a night club,watching my Friends while they were dancing,again I was thinkig of how lucky they are.Their hearts are healthy,they can dance all night long if they want to.But not me.Not my heart.
Two years ago,one jour I woke up not feeling good.My cœur, coeur was racing,it was beating up to 140 times in a minute.I called my mom and she took me to the emergency.I've done all medicine research that doctors gave me,but they still,now two years later,don't know what's wrong with my heart.I am 20 years old,and will probably have to take pills for the rest of my life. I was jealous of my friends,I wish I could've dance with them but I couldn't cause my cœur, coeur would start to race and I will have problem with breathing. I a dit Goodnight to my Friends and left the bar.As I was walking my way home,I was thinking about how Eclipse movie premiere is only mois away and how much would I like to be on it,but I can't,cause I don't have the money to go to USA,and health to leave.
I wanted Taylor Lautner's autograph so much,and I've tried to write on 6 different addresses,but without success. It was frustrating,it's like nobody cares about us fans in Europe.
I got accueil and went to the official site of Taylor and I saw that they updated his fan mail address,so I thought Hey,another chance for me.I didn't care about spending last money I have on sending that letter to America again,I just felt like this could be my great shot.
suivant jour I went to post office to send a letter,but they didn't have IRC coupon so I've traveled all the way to another city to buy it.They didn't have it either. Well that didn't stop me.In the bank I bought 2$ and send in in the envelope with explanation in the letter. And I finally sent it.
As i was heading accueil I got this strange feeling,that something would happen,wasn't quite sure what it was.Two days passed me par so quickley I din't even realize. One jour I woke up and gone through all that misery like two years ago.I thought my cœur, coeur will explode,I had a feeling like I'll have a heartatack. Mom brought me pills to drink and it was fine again. suivant week I was feeling okay.I was drinking two pills now per a day,but at least I felt better. Then the saturday came and Friends picked me up to go out.I was dressed really nice,make up and hair,everything was great,because it was my best Friends birthday.Everything was okay,we took some cocktails,danced,at least I danced for about 5 minutes,then I went outside to get some fresh air.
When I got out on the street,I felt like someone stabbed me in my heart. It was beating probably plus then 150 times / minute. I couldn't breathe,my body started to shake,and I simply fall down. That's the last thing I remember.
I woke up hours later in the hospital with my family and Friends around my bed.They were so scared,but I'm sure not as much as I am. I started to cry,I hated my life,I couldn't dance,I couldn run,do anything! I ruined my friend's birthday,and i felt like I'm alone in this world.
That's when the nurse came into the room and told everybody to go outside,that i have to rest.They went and i was so tired of crying and everything that i was falling asleep soon.In the middle of dream and reality,i thought i heard this beautiful voice,talking something in english. I opened my eyes and I saw him.Even plus perfect than on tv. I closed my eyes cause i was sure it's my imagination,but someone holded my hand.I opened my eyes again and he a dit Hi Barbara.Are toi awake?
I didn't know what to ask,how is this happening.I freaked out,i asked him 'Am I dead and gone to heaven??' and he starts to laugh.It was Taylor.
He told me that he recieved my letter and that he was so touuched with my letter that he had to come visit me. He was smiling to me all the time and had his hand on mine,the one hand that had needle in it where I was getting fluids. He told me 'Sleep now,you can barely keep your eyes open.I'll be here when toi wake up,you'll have a chance to talk to me again when toi get some sleep.' he a dit and smiled at me like an angel.
I squeezed his hand tight and my eyes closed. The last thought i had was that if this was really heaven,it was worth dying for.
Two years ago,one jour I woke up not feeling good.My cœur, coeur was racing,it was beating up to 140 times in a minute.I called my mom and she took me to the emergency.I've done all medicine research that doctors gave me,but they still,now two years later,don't know what's wrong with my heart.I am 20 years old,and will probably have to take pills for the rest of my life. I was jealous of my friends,I wish I could've dance with them but I couldn't cause my cœur, coeur would start to race and I will have problem with breathing. I a dit Goodnight to my Friends and left the bar.As I was walking my way home,I was thinking about how Eclipse movie premiere is only mois away and how much would I like to be on it,but I can't,cause I don't have the money to go to USA,and health to leave.
I wanted Taylor Lautner's autograph so much,and I've tried to write on 6 different addresses,but without success. It was frustrating,it's like nobody cares about us fans in Europe.
I got accueil and went to the official site of Taylor and I saw that they updated his fan mail address,so I thought Hey,another chance for me.I didn't care about spending last money I have on sending that letter to America again,I just felt like this could be my great shot.
suivant jour I went to post office to send a letter,but they didn't have IRC coupon so I've traveled all the way to another city to buy it.They didn't have it either. Well that didn't stop me.In the bank I bought 2$ and send in in the envelope with explanation in the letter. And I finally sent it.
As i was heading accueil I got this strange feeling,that something would happen,wasn't quite sure what it was.Two days passed me par so quickley I din't even realize. One jour I woke up and gone through all that misery like two years ago.I thought my cœur, coeur will explode,I had a feeling like I'll have a heartatack. Mom brought me pills to drink and it was fine again. suivant week I was feeling okay.I was drinking two pills now per a day,but at least I felt better. Then the saturday came and Friends picked me up to go out.I was dressed really nice,make up and hair,everything was great,because it was my best Friends birthday.Everything was okay,we took some cocktails,danced,at least I danced for about 5 minutes,then I went outside to get some fresh air.
When I got out on the street,I felt like someone stabbed me in my heart. It was beating probably plus then 150 times / minute. I couldn't breathe,my body started to shake,and I simply fall down. That's the last thing I remember.
I woke up hours later in the hospital with my family and Friends around my bed.They were so scared,but I'm sure not as much as I am. I started to cry,I hated my life,I couldn't dance,I couldn run,do anything! I ruined my friend's birthday,and i felt like I'm alone in this world.
That's when the nurse came into the room and told everybody to go outside,that i have to rest.They went and i was so tired of crying and everything that i was falling asleep soon.In the middle of dream and reality,i thought i heard this beautiful voice,talking something in english. I opened my eyes and I saw him.Even plus perfect than on tv. I closed my eyes cause i was sure it's my imagination,but someone holded my hand.I opened my eyes again and he a dit Hi Barbara.Are toi awake?
I didn't know what to ask,how is this happening.I freaked out,i asked him 'Am I dead and gone to heaven??' and he starts to laugh.It was Taylor.
He told me that he recieved my letter and that he was so touuched with my letter that he had to come visit me. He was smiling to me all the time and had his hand on mine,the one hand that had needle in it where I was getting fluids. He told me 'Sleep now,you can barely keep your eyes open.I'll be here when toi wake up,you'll have a chance to talk to me again when toi get some sleep.' he a dit and smiled at me like an angel.
I squeezed his hand tight and my eyes closed. The last thought i had was that if this was really heaven,it was worth dying for.