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Riku114 a dit …
Shit man. Im starting to fall down the rabbit hole of Marvel. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Yall I dont want to gain another HUGE series to keep track of :v étoile, star Wars added to it and :v il y a plus d’un an
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Like Im feeling urged to go back and actually fully watch the Iron Man films rather than half assing them too :v il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
That's good though. Embrace Marvel, Riku. toi know toi want to !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Fun story time. I dont really remember the details too well, but like... three ou four years ago, I was having some kind of a high anxiety day. I dunno if it was a panic attack that I didnt know of, an anxiety attack, ou some traumatic shit ou anything, but I was experiencing high anxiety and was excessively zoned out as to cope with it, and some guy came to like... touch me, hug me, ou pat me ou something posté il y a plus d’un an
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So like... I had a seconde ou two of panic where I shoved him up against the railing of the upper floor and was like... a seconde ou two away from instinctually pushing him over the railing of the seconde floor before I snapped out of it and somehow managed to play it off as a joke il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Like I dont know HOW I played it off without any questions asked cos I pushed him like a good 5-10 feet to get him to the railing and I wouldnt be shocked if I had a crazed look XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Nah I didnt look sad. I have a resting chienne face no matter what emotion Im feeling il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
RIP all my classes from today vers l'avant, vers l’avant tho XD My brain officially went from like 90% checked out, to like 100% checked out for the rest of the school an when I finished my AP Government test (even tho I still have an AP Econ test on Wednesday XD) posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Awesome. Be lazy time? il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Lazy is life il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, the sheer degree of which I like Stephen Strange is.... STRANGE.

Like I watched the movie, enjoyed it a lot, but he wasnt all too high on my list, but out of no where suddenly Im just as hyped to see him on screen as the long term Marvel favori of mine - Loki?

And I just get that natural "Hes a favorite" feel, but I dont know exactly why..?

I mean Imma make Wanta watch it and I wanna watch it to analyze and see why I might like him XD But still. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
My memory is iffy but maybe I kinda relate to him? Who knows. I know I do have some similarities il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I really dont have the ability to be comfortable saying I like a character just cos I like them. I need to be able to know what in specific I like :v il y a plus d’un an
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toi know, if toi think about it, being a hero, a famous hero, just honestly isnt fair. Its borderline toxic. At the point that someone becomes a famous hero, the pressure to constantly be the hero and be responsible of helping others and saving the jour just would consume the life of the 'hero'

Sure they are saving people and being great people, but it comes at the cost of their limited existence.

When toi think about it like that, toi have to pity superheroes posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
oh they undeniably have it pretty bad. il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
As an idealist, I can assure toi gets rough having the pressure to always remain upbeat XD il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
IKR if I was a ‘hero’ I’d probably like idk il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I think I adequately fucked with Riku's mind right before she went to sleep. I'm satisfied with that posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Why does Faba not have a Flygon? posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I AM BEING SHAMED FOR HAVING AN ESTIMATE OF 300-450 ENGLISH SONGS PICKED OUT ON THAT LIST.

FIRSTLY, THATS ONLY LIKE THE haut, retour au début OF THEM EACH

SECONDLY, I ADMIT IM A musique JUNKIE, BUT COMPARED TO SOME PEOPLE I KNOW AND ZANHAR, IM A CUTE BABY posté il y a plus d’un an
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THIRDLY, I HAVE AN INSTUMENTAL PLAYLIST PROBABLY 9X LONGER, A JAPANESE PLAYLIST ABOUT THE SAME LENGTH (guessing), AND A KOREAN PLAYLIST THAT IS PROBABLY A BIT SMALLER il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
THIS IS NOTHING houe il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
*cough* My irl Friends have no place judging me :v il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
My USB currently has 225 songs in the English folder. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, people in my school make fun of me for only listening to 'weeb' music, but truth is I probably like plus English songs than most of the people saying that. Im a musique junkie. Its just I have so much I like that downloading all of it is overwhelming :v posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ #Relatable !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
musique is just really nice. il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Without this musique I don’t know how I would’ve fought this - Lane Boy |-/ il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Ha. My English teacher had us 'read' like six livres in preparation for the AP Exam essay, then I did my mock on Romeo and Juliet (one that wasnt one of the six) and I a dit Id probably do it on the AP Exam cos I know that one better than I should

She a dit I shouldnt because its been a while since I read it and since it doesnt cover all the topics that well and should study the other livres (not that I even studied R&J) posté il y a plus d’un an
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But fuck that XD Totally wrote my essay on Romeo and Juliet XD I know that piece too well solely cause its famous, cos I read Tybalt two years il y a and really liked his character plus than I should have, watched an animé version of the play (which btw, had the plot changed a lot, I recommend the anime), and cos its jsut a good piece to analyze off of since a lot of stories can take a lot of inspiration and similarities off of it il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Even one of my side stories has a lot of parallels I didn't really intentionally do il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSS !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Despite never really watching the movie ou anything, Ive always been attached to the idea and things themed / inspired from Alice in Wonderland posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Same honestly. Have always found its whole concept fascinating !!!! il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Me too! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Im sorry Im like.... on a tired high.

I only got 3 hours of sleep for a really busy jour XD

If I say weird stuff, enjoy XD posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
TIRED RIKU! DON'T APOLOGIZE! COME OUT FURTHER! DO MORE! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
If I talk too much I might start casually talk about murder ou shit. Im in a demented tired :v il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
A tired high? Oh so that’s what toi call it. That happens to me as well. So excuse any crazy stuff I say... I’m out of it a lot il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Seriously Riku needs to stop being all ansty about it and accept my offer to let her stab me with one of her knives. I mean sheesh. It's a flesh wound. MAYBE liver injury at worst. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Keep talking weird shit like that and itll be in the head il y a plus d’un an
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jk jk il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, I am not going to lie. I am 'crazy' and 'insane'. I used to be even plus so, but honestly even now I still can be. I've gone to the point of naming myself something else. I've talked way too excessively with people in my head, one of which tried to convince me I was a god before I realized I was getting way too off the rocker.

I've thought of excessively sadistic things with no guilt ou shame to back it up. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Personally, I strongly accept that part of me. The closer toi get to me, the plus creepy and unsettling things toi might find my mind causing. But its honestly something I accept of myself. I am definately working out of it since it isn't a GOOD thing to be like this, but its not something Im going to let harm my esteem ou hold against myself il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I dont disclose too much of specifics of how... off... I can get at times since theres no need for that to spill out onto here, because I always sound like a psycho edgelord and I find that cringey, and because personally I dont like to attribute it to my global, ensemble character. il y a plus d’un an
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But yeah thats just kinda a ramble il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I want sleep posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
toi NEED sleep !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Sleep? il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
ya deserve sleep so much il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
"If that's the case, then toi owe it to yourself to pick apart the games toi LOVE, not just the ones toi hate."

l’amour that. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Person: Im so stressed out Imma pull out my hair!

Me, a person with Trichotillomania: https://tinyurl.com/y8fvjeqz posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly, I'm not the type to be like "OMG toi ARE MAKING LITTLE OF MY DISORDER" because Trich is pretty poorly covered and that is a common saying, but I still kinda just take a pause whenever I hear it il y a plus d’un an
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Cos like... chienne I doubt toi are literally gonna pull out your hair :v Stop appropriating my culture il y a plus d’un an
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Jk jk il y a plus d’un an
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I just find it funny-ish whenever I hear that line il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
I text Riku too much. Confirmed. RIP posté il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Ha I bet ya do! Y’all are so close! :) il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
*deep breath* *sigh* Honestly, searching for a roommate is a pain in the cul, ass with my family issues and vulnerability issues and just my global, ensemble trust issues and stuff. Like I know I'll be fine regardless and I'll make Friends and all just fine. Its just my brain being stupid about it while I'm waiting for a reply combined with how this whole "I cant just get this done with" stuff does not fit with me who likes to get things done with before moving onto the next. posté il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Good luck buddy. Try not to listen when toi tell yourself stuff like that. You’ll get through it and everything will work out. :). [Wow. Listen to me, little motivationist. I’m trying.] Stay Alive |-/ il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Nah, to be honest, the things that concern me are genuine issues I need to keep in check. Some of the issues I have with making irl Friends are deep rooted with family issues of mine and I actually genuinely do sabotage them myself with how my anxiety and stuff reacts to certain things. Its a work in progress and all and I know Ill get through it XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Its just a stinkin pain in the asssss il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts a dit …
Hi I’m back! A few days is like a an when toi live here posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Welcome back il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, Im waiting for plus information on Osoro Shidesu specifically from Yandere Simulator. Cos honestly right now she kinda borders relatable, but there is so little actually donné out on her character.

Im super interested tho. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
She looks interesting. Has a pretty cool appearance too !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
So got back from Infinity War.

Not nearly as depressing ou sad as like.... 99% of people make it out to be. Maybe its the fact I bathe in tragedy ou because I write stories and tragedy as much as I do, but it didnt really hit me too hard.

Also rather predictable if toi ask me. Like I wasnt shocked ou surprised with anything other than the abrupt ending. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
With that being said. I loveeeed the movie. It was great and I honestly like how the first like... half of the movie had my favoris XD Thor, Loki, Dr. Strange, and Guardians of the Galaxy. Just awesome XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Oh and Stark. Thats the other one. XD haut, retour au début Five Marvel Characters. ((Yes GoG is counted as one imo XD)) il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Great to know. Looking vers l'avant, vers l’avant to seeing it myself !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
My dad pissed me off. My dad just wants us to keep breeding my bird and wonders why we arent letting Smokey breed and every time we tell him its not healthy for them, its abusive to make them breeders for money, and that it adds to the problem that most parrots go to shitty homes, he just scoffs.

I called him out at constantly scoffing at it and hes like "You could make money"

So like. Fuck that greedy cul, ass bastard. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Ill stuff that asshole in a cage with a woman and force them to have children for money. See how he fucking likes it. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Not really but still. il y a plus d’un an
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I dont HATE him as much as I sound like I do. I just refuse to forgive him ou give him any leeway ou even truly see him as my dad / family until he gets his behavior straightened a bit and honestly and genuinely makes amends and realizes how shitty of a person he was / still sometimes is il y a plus d’un an
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Honestly, smart charismatic people are some of the last people toi want to trust. They can analyze people way too well, and with charisma, they can pull strings way too well to make things happe-

.... oh shit wait. posté il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Lol! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Also a aléatoire fact

Birds are literally dinosaurs

I raise baby dinosaures posté il y a plus d’un an
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Also, toi doubt it until toi hear what baby cockatiels sound like. il y a plus d’un an
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link il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Also aléatoire fact about Riku

On an average, I make sure to get at least 30-60 minutes of bird vidéos within each day.

It makes me happy. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
On another note, as I begin talking of my plans for the future and all, the rate of which my l’amour and knowledge on birds began to become well known rapidly sped up

At this point, I can now expect that if I hear any talk of birds between two people and there seems to be disagreement ou uncertainty of facts, that within five minutes Ill hear "Hey Riku! toi are the bird expert, give us some info on this topic!" across the room posté il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
It’s expected par now I imagine:) il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Im just shaking my head here at this argument between two people over Akashi.

One side is arguing "Akashi doesnt care for team work and bringing people together and only cares about winning." The other side is arguing "No, Akashi is all for team work and bring people together. Its one of his strongest characteristics and his main role in his team."

And Im just like.... Neither of toi are right ou wrong. toi are just ignoring an entire half of his character. posté il y a plus d’un an
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Like I dont even know how they just ignore one side ou the other. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Honestly I really need to see "The Last Game" since there is a lot plus interaction between Bokushi and Oreshi. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
GONNA WATCH INFINITY WAR TODAY.

#HYPE posté il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
It was a great movie. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ #ThanosDemandsYourSilence MDR !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Annnd my dad didnt understand me when I a dit we had to leave early cos itd be busy / sold out XD So going tomorrow! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Decided to take the trumpet solo in the Game of Thrones theme for Zeppie cos she seemed happy enough that we were playing it, I figured Id do that in her name as well. posté il y a plus d’un an
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Honestly, Im tired as hell despite me constantly sleeping at least an heure ou two early most nights.

I am really just a permanently exhausted and tired bun.

I just want a good night to sleep and all.

.... did I not have a weekend to rest ou something? I dont really remember 5 days back XD posté il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
take care of ya riku =( and try to sleep if ya can , want to see ya healthy il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ This, pretty much. Make sure toi rest whenever toi are able to. Still hyped for #RelaxedRikubun at some point !!!! il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts a dit …
salut this probably sounds really weird but I l’amour toi guys. Feel free to ignore this if toi want. Most people either feel very uncomfortable ou just don’t understand.
Stay Alive |-/ posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Its cool dood XD il y a plus d’un an
nightiee commenté…
toi too il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Most people could feel uncomfortable but I doubt that they wouldn't understand. Your feelings are much appreciated. Right back at toi !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
So in my school we have this thing called a Senior Exit Project required to let us graduate and all where we have to present a powerpoint to a panel of teachers about our plans and all

I dont get why everyone is freaking out, trying to memorize it, and some barely passing it.

I did little to no preparation other than setting up the power point and just par talking about what I did for my Job Shadow and why I wanna do what I wanna do, I got a perfect score on the mock posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Relax. Talk genuinely and tell them what toi feel and mean. Its not that hard. I get the shy introverts struggling with it, but even some of the large known extroverts are stressing out il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Good job. I bet you’re glad that’s over thou! |-/ il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly if I watched Madoka Magica again I feel Id relate to Kyoko plus than I did the first time posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I could see toi relating a LIL bit to Mai from Ghost Hunt il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Kyoko has always been one of the Characters that interested me the most in this Series. I am pretty curious about which Character I could mostly relate myself when I finally continue and go even further with this animé !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Yeah honestly though, I am such an extrovert.

Now that Im not a ball of anxiety, depression, angst, and massive distrust, I find that a lot of my goals surround people and having them around me and being a speaker and stuff.

Im not even an ambivert. Im a strict extrovert XD Just a highly selective one at that. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
link il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Wow 5hats pretty cool il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
❤️ il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Alright Im back. And with an emote of my own. -x- posté il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
MDR il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Good to know. Welcome back !!!! il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
welcome back wanta! il y a plus d’un an
sunny
TheLefteris24 a dit …
Attention everyone! ''Rikubun'' has been added to the liste of Nicknames available for Riku. I would like to make this Official. Fluffy Rikubun will certainly be referred to as such from now on.

KANPAI !!!! posté il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Got it :^; il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Uh what was that I just did?! il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ Are toi talking about the Emoji toi made? It certainly seems unusual. A Typo, I guess? il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Yup. MDR il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts a dit …
<3 thanks for the hope posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Keep the hope alive. <3 il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Preach 🙏 !!!! il y a plus d’un an
nightiee commenté…
Keep the houe alive il y a plus d’un an
2ntyoneplts commenté…
Oh Satan! XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I always wanna write but dont have the energy and/or the creative flow XD posté il y a plus d’un an
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Gosh Im tired XD Im still good and all tho guys. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Sorry about all the trauma talk out here lately XD I usually like to keep things fun and all, but Ive been too busy to be full on obsessed with anything, and dealing with trauma has been one of my largest focuses and goals these days XD

I dont any of toi mind but I wanted to put that out there. posté il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
don`t say sorry riku we understand it totally il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ !!!! il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
riku it's your club. You're entitled to do anything toi want. It's a blog of sorts. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
XD I know. I just wanted to put it out there il y a plus d’un an
sunny
TheLefteris24 a dit …
Also......

HAIL HYDRA !!!! posté il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
xD leftie il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
sunny
TheLefteris24 a dit …
#PidgeonLivesMatterToo !!!! posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
#PigeonLivesMatterToo il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ Preach !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
So I asked my therapist out of curiosity and all, and I do have PTSD apparently. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
I see. It makes a lot of sense when thinking about it !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Just gotta keep urging Riku to shoot someone in broad daylight. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Aye il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Riku: The Highly Selective Extrovert. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I actually saw that while scrolling Tumblr and I think that description fits me VERY well XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Better than Ambivert tbh XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
WOW MY DAD JUST DID THE MOST CARING THING I EVER HEARD HIM DO IN ALL MY CHILDHOOD

HE OFFERED TO GO ON A WALK WITH MY MOM TO GET HER OUT OF THE HOUSE WHEN SHES DISTRESSED COS OF MY SISTER posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
omg

My mom and dad are watching a horror montrer about where parents go crazy and try to kill their children and my dads like "Its like your husband" posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
At least we now know hes aware il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
I... Kinda have my concerns about your father watching Horror Shows... il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
^Eh... hes a child il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
What I planned on doing:
-Get all the last Z Crystals in Pokemon
-Write another piece to my stories
-Write RPs
-Relax
-Play Hitman and other Steam
-Take today off to relax and have fun as I rejected activities to do so

What I got done:
-Six scholarships
-Researched and planned out plus of my college stuff
-Got my Health homework done
-Researched aléatoire stuff
-Finished two essays for an application
-Finished everything I can do right now for Davis posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I had a super productive day, but Im not satisfied since I barely got anything at all I planned today done XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I did one post to the RP and like... Kinda took some Flight Rising time but thats not really there either? XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
UC Davis: For a chance at a $1000-4000 scholarship, write an essay on your leadership experiences and how it affected toi and will continue to help toi in the future

Me: *flips through 900 things I could talk about cos leadership has played a major role in my life and Im super thankful for it and very passionate over it* posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Dude, Id write a 14 page essay on Leadership for free chienne il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Like I literally might even be dead if I never found myself in a leadership position some how. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
PLUS IF THEY ACCEPT ME THEY WILL BRING ME IN FOR AN INTERVIEW AND I LIKE THAT KIND OF STUFF ESPECIALLY IF ITS ON THE TOPIC OF LEADERSHIP il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Personally, I dont really believe too much in not chasing what I want. Its part of the reason I cant sit and relax too much, but if I determine I want something, I weigh out how badly Im willing to want it, then charge full on ahead.

I make excuses from time to time, but if I cant get something done in the long run, its often capable to blame myself for not taking action. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
At least partially blame myself that is. There is a level of rationality to how much one can and cannot control il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, I personally wonder where I stand on the trauma scale. I know I probably fit under the "traumatized" title, but I dont really know if I actually fit one of the trauma disorders. Its something Ill probably ask my therapist ou psychiatrist about at some point. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I'm probably a lot better now. Had a really bad moment related to shitty stuff of the past and all but direclty after a lot of the depression and massive amounts of anxiety withdrew for the most part. Ive been shakey when I wake up for the past few days, but I think Im good so for anyone worried ou concerned, I should be fine.

Thank toi so much to everyone who watched out for me and helped. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Some part of the whole fiasco with Wanta 'triggered' something I think and it kind of let plus of my really bad mental state thats usually disappears when Im online carried in il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Im back to normal I think. And now that I see a massive unprocessed wound, Ill probably take goals to addressing it in my suivant therapy session and individually on my own. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
It is certainly good to know about the progress that has been made and will continue to do so. For the both of you, I hope. Always here when needed, Riku. We l’amour toi too !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
We officially have a baby bird. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
NOICE! A NEW MEMBER IN THE FLOCK! CONGRATULATIONS, FANPOP'S LOCAL BIRDKEEPER !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
We might have two il y a plus d’un an
GDragon612 commenté…
congrats riku our birdmum =D *throws confetti and open a bottle of chamapaigne*, for the non alcoholics jus, jus de xD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
#StartingTheHitmanSeriesFromTheLastGame posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly though.

Akashi I am officially going to call my favori character from now on. He super deserves it. He absolutely does deserve it. Outside of loving the character, he has always been consistently a significant figure in helping me process and work through issues, helping me make the right decision, calming down, self reflecting, etc.

And fun fact, his vidéos can calm down one of my poor mental states so quickly and successfully posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
That I have this thing on my phone called "Emergency Akashi" since I could be in a really bad mental state and if I recognize it, Akashi vidéos can almost always return that bad mental state to AT LEAST a neutral ou calm and managable mental state il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Even if his character sucked ass, the fact one fictional item could have helped me so much through my mental health journey and all, it alone is deserving of it il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Yeah Im doing better now but honestly, I still need to take time to chill. Who knows I might wake up and have another bad time ou something. I cant be sure but Imma take it somewhat easy. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I apologize if it takes me a bit to get back to being my old energetic and peppy self I like to be on here and usually am.

The récent events through me into a bad loop and pool that might take a while to fully get out of.

Im alright though. I just don't feel in the right place to have the energy and exorbitant positivity I usually do. Its not anything Wanta did ou anything Im pretty sure.

Thank toi to everyone that has been putting effort into this situation and helping me out. posté il y a plus d’un an
Zeppie commenté…
Take all the time toi need. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
It is understandable really. Take your time, Riku !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Feeling better ish rn il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
A little il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Figuring out which Akashi icone to use when toi have so many is hard. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Literally every time I want to display a new icone showcasing favoris of mine. It takes a while !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
For me I have to like the icone and have that feeling like my mood at the moment likes the icone either cos it represent it ou because it soothes ou it just feels fitting at the time il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Its liking it and then finding one that I feel is kinda nice at the moment and like the look of how it looks when I post il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Same here XD Relatabilty is a major factor when I am going to display an Icon. It makes things all the plus harder honestly with such a variety !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I can always rely on Akashi and KnB to neutralize shitty mental health crap. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
aléatoire Anxiety: "I want to die."

Me: How about no toi over-dramatic sensitive edgelord? Take your damn cul, ass medicine posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I don't have time this morning to read through the uh... five ou six messages since on early start days I always wake up for just barely enough time to work through my regular routine.

But I see there is a lot of misunderstanding the in meaning and intent of the words.

And also, I figured with how often Ive talked about my issues with relationships with other people before addressing it with them to toi specifically, that toi knew the difference between mine and Zeppie's stance posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I dont believe in going directly to the friend if the situation is serious ou important enough. Doing that is how toi make bad, emotional, and irrational ideas off of current feelings. For major and very important issues, it is best to go to other people for conseil and a seconde opinion. Ive always lived par that and only kept my avoidance of following it for Zeppie in specific since she gets majorly hurt par it otherwise. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I wanted to say that one for everyone who reads this. il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
Honestly I might be out of turn. But if something is really important. I wouldn't make an exception. It might seems like I would be a dick ou something. But I rather be a dick than let a problem fester with no easy way ou solving it. il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
Feel free to say your peace as much as toi like, Blind. Riku apparently won't talk to me about it for another heure so...*shrug* il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Everyone gets all upset when things that aren't directly related to the story in Pokemon games are not post game. I loved rejoindre Avenue from Black 2 and White 2. I loved where they placed it and found it entirely relevant and helpful posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
toi know, one of the shittiest things about mental health, especially as a kid and teenager, is that it steals away your childhood.

A lot of people have good memories of their high school life, they remember the fun with their friends, they remember all the fun risks and activities they did...

But when it comes to mental health, toi just kind of have all those times stolen.

I personally realize... As a senior, I'm far too late to regather them

But Ill cherish what I have. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Ill be happy that I have it right now and not let what I have left go to waste because of what I already Lost il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I do wish I could have my childhood back, heck I wish I could REMEMBER my childhood again, but theres no point in crying over spilt milk. Past is past, its time to accept it and déplacer on. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I owe people in my highschool plus credit and appreciation than I give them since I've spent most of my time around them being a reserved, angsty, emotionally-scared child.

Like one of my Friends from 7th grade... never really opened up at all to him. Apparently I was a huge inspiration and role model for him. We talked a lot but it was really one sided

ou the trumpet brother of mine I'm not dating. He dealt with so much of my stupid jokes and I l’amour him. Hes family. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Those two really helped me out even if it was no where near direct. Honestly, they both opened their doors to me if I ever needed to escape my house even though they dont even know the tiniest tip of the iceberg of how horrible my house can and could get il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Ill be honest. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
For the first time, Ill say it. I will miss them. I will be sad. But its not bad. Its kind of nice. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Geesh. Lucy - The Eternity She Wished For is a super sad story

#FeelsBad

#Sad posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
College: Has your dad been physically present in California for at least three years-

Me: Not emotionally present but sure I guess hes been physically present posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
"And squaring numbers are just like women, if they are under thirteen just.. do them in your head" ~ Bo Burnham posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Thats actually going to be my clubs new quote il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
True, I suppose !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
My body is so damn worn out XD

Going to the fitness center for like 45 minutes is always good for when the brain is being stupid. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
#Relatable !!!! il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
It is great to know Riku. Exercise will do toi pretty good !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Heres to never having heard your dad ever say the word "love" "care" ou "proud" to toi in a positive way over the seventeen almost eighteen years of being alive.

Heres to him instead liking to get violent and yelling when anyone even remotely asks for him to say something remotely similar to it

Heres to him getting your therapist to give up after thirty minutes of being asked to compliment you. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
At the very least I get "good jobs" here and there for doing good things regarding his money and my money. Its something. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
TFW toi get hit par a sudden wave of mild depression and anxiety and are about to post about it

Then realize toi forgot to take your anxiety medication this breakfast and thats probably part of it. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, I dont think I can watch the new season of Supernatural ou really much of any of it until I deal with my issues entirely.

It brings back bad flashes of really bad coping mechanisms and mental states I used to way too heavily relate to back when I practically binge watched it.

Sam and Dean are strong members of my relatable character list, but theres a reason for it. Some of those citations hit way too close to accueil and their dynamic feels too personal. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Like anyone else get that 'flash' feeling in their head when something reminds them of something unpleasant ou tempts to bring toi back into a précédant bad mental state? Like toi dont actually fall back to it, but toi feel the pull for a seconde in your head and its kinda uncomfortable but not immensely so? il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Like a mini panic of a warning? il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
XD this is just a question for anyone XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
@Me a an il y a saying "Am I the only one that wonders when my signature would randomly become something fancy? Like adults seem to always have one (parents and all) and some of my classmates have one then theres me thats all like "What is cursive?"

Yes, it did happen. I dont know when but it did posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly going through my mur for an article is interesting cos firstly, this icone makes all the posts super hilarious and secondly, because Im really realizing how horrifically depressed I was.

Even plus shocking since I actually tried not to post it on here too much and to keep it subtle.

Honestly super concerned for my past self posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Me: Okay I literally wasted an heure of my time doing the most stupid and wasteful things. Before I can feel comfortable doing osmething slightly unproductive but also not stupid and wasteful, I have to do something fully productive. *groan* Ugh fine posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Flights Rising is literally the largest waste of my time but I still do it so much XD il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
That's me with whatever aléatoire app has my interest for the mois XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, I have a weird relationship with change. I hate change coming into my life up until it hits me and there is no return. Cos once I jump straight into it ou get run over par whatever change came my way, I just kind of go 100% into it and embrace it to the point I l’amour it.

Im someone really happy and comfortable with my natural normal schedule, but Im also someone who likes to take change as an opportunity to massively fix things. So its just interesting. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Im officially committed to UC Davis XD

God I have to many massively long trips coming up in the future posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
That is great to know. Wish toi all the best Riku. Have a good progress most of all !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Pokemon knew what they were doing when they let toi name your rival. Honestly it's the most cathartic release. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
IM FINALLY accueil AFTER A 15 heure ROUND TRIP OF DRIVING OVER A LIKE 35 TRIP OVERALL.

IM FINALLY NOT SITTING

...

and Im back at my computer. :) Nice. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Maybe even 16 hours idk XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Welcome back XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, being a "leader" is a great feeling and isnt something Id really ever want to give up. I always l’amour having a team that I can work with and helping them / maximizing their potentials and getting work done and all.

Plus the respect and ability to influence another person's life positively is always nice. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Watching a PS4 gamer try PC Gaming for the first time is hilarious. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Currently off in Davis checking out UC Davis today and tomorrow. Took like... an eight heure drive to get here but Im here. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
link

Please do take and enjoy.

Wanta and I put a lot of work into it XD posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
I certainly did enjoyed it. Well done, to both of toi !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Riku confirmed that Professor Oak is a Totem Pokemon in Pokemon Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon and can be unlocked with a sticker. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
There is something really wonderful about learning about yourself in all ways possible. Looking deep inside yourself and finding all the good, bad, weaknesses, and strengths and accepting them. Its really wonderful to be honest.

I never loved myself plus than when I started doing this.

It hurts like Lucifer's wrath on steroids at first, but the longer and longer toi do it... the plus magical and wonderful and secure and confident toi feel. posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
It is certainly wonderful recognizing that. As I a dit before, pretty admirable !!!! il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Seeing toi making those positive remarks alone feels pretty satisfying to me as well :') !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
God Im tired XD posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Being tired honestly isnt good for my mental state Im guessing. Go wonder XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Im alright tho. Its just amusing the amount of intrusive thoughts Ive been playing baseball with il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
#StrikeAllThoseHomeruns il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Relatable XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Riku is oppressing me! posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Never name your Pokemon after mental issues.

Duskull used Foresight.

Codependance was identified.

Me: "...." posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
:v il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly, if I got into Harry Potter, Id probably fall in l’amour with Snape. The issue however is that Harry Potter is everywhere. After étoile, star Wars and Kylo, I fear having two populaire series holding characters I l’amour posté il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
toi would l’amour Snape. Snape would be hands down your favorite. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
He currently is from the little, tiny bit I know from the series XD il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^^ I agree about Snape as well. He certainly is your kind of Character XD !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Jeesh. Yuki Kajura is an amazing composer. Pandora Hearts OST, Fate OST, Madoka Magica OST, Sword Art Online OST, Tsubasa Chronicles OST.

Those are all some of my favori works geesh.

*knows plus animé osts than animes* posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
I have listened to some of them and I agree that there are quite a few amazing Tracks. Pretty interested to check out the rest !!!! il y a plus d’un an
BlindBandit92 commenté…
You've listened to the fate ost even though toi haven't really seen the anime? MDR il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
toi continue to sin, Riku. Not that I cannot understand that but still MDR !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
I decided and I am committing to it.

I am going to process through my trauma and try to see if I can clear the fog on my memories and bring back, experience, remember, and accept what happened for everything it is.

Its not going to be fun, but I want to be able to pull myself back together before I leave off to college.

Honestly the hard part is though I only get really bad over my trauma when its abruptly brought up. I dont really get connected to it much on command posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
The thing about trauma though, especially at a young age, is that it steals away a lot of yourself and a lot of your ability to be an entire person. toi forget a lot. toi loose your history and your past. toi loose your childhood. toi loose your sense of identity. toi become a grandly incomplete person il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I really cant be me at my full potential until I work through it fully so as much as I hate it, I want to do the most with my life. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
That is quite an admirable way to look at things, Riku. Making peace with the past is a major step towards one's Improvement. I too believe toi can do it. There is no doubt about that !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Honestly one of the things i appreciate the most in Friends and people close to me are people who have experienced stuggle and can manage and handle it well.

I really appreciate and like that since they usually do good with conseil and keeping me under control when Im at my worst. c: posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I often, especially in thr past, need people who can handle and keep things in a good perspective while keeping me from doing anything stupid off of stress ou anything il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Cos I can lack self control at times and have too many demons on my shoulder. Its kinda why I like Lefteris a lot. Hes my "positive echo chamber". Hes full of nice health lines to encourage positive growth. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
I am all about encouraging one's Growth XD It helps when I feel myself strongly relating with a dit person. I am always here for you, Riku ^_^ !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
DUDE. POKEMON GENERATIONS LOOKS SICK.

THEY A ADDRESSED POKEMON BLACK 2 AND WHITE 2 SCENE SO NICE.

IMMA WATCH IT. posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Wantadog's depressing introspective about Love.

l’amour is nice when toi think of it like "Oh two people who were meant for each other" but sadly the case is that when they say true l’amour is one in a million, they mean it. 90% of relationships are not true love. 90% of marriages are not true love. 90% of true l’amour CASES are NOT true love. Odds are no one here has even seen "true love" in action. posté il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
"Love is not equal" il y a plus d’un an
wantadog commenté…
I won't dismiss someone else's relationship, but my statement on the main post holds true. il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
^ I'll have to agree with it !!!! il y a plus d’un an
wantadog a dit …
Three cheers for depressing yourself par asking for the impossible posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Also, Im a really strong advocate for taking medication for mental health issues, especially when it starts to get too extreme.

Taking medication for anxiety, no matter how much actually thinking about taking it gave me plus anxiety, was probably one of the best decisions of my life

It lowered how bad my anxiety got to a manageable level. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Personally before I got it, I got the horrible feeling like I was going to kill my real self off. It felt like a half assed indirect suicide. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I actually got super suicidal over it I think. But it really helped in the long run. il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
I mean I was already suicidal during that time, thats why my therapist was like "You really need to see a psychiatrist and get medication", but it made it worse il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Ive been on medication for like.... ten months I think now. Its been helpful without a doubt il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Its interesting how Psychosis and Dissociation are commonly seen talked about in the same areas. They are strictly different, but I can see where a lot of the similarities come in play.

Psychosis is a break away from reality, dissociation is a cut off from reality. posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Baujel is such a wonderful character il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
The only issue I have to be honest with écriture his character is that I par no means depict him par his actual age XD There is no way a kid would act this way at his age XD il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
But sh.. this isnt a formal écriture peace. I dont have to be that realistic. Its just hobby écriture and its a side story to depict things. Maybe Im écriture it how he remembers it so it comes out as plus mature since people have trouble fully making themselves as immature as they were when they think back to their past experiences :v il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
tfw toi have symptoms of a large portion of mental health issues but write a character whose main issue is the ONE toi dont so toi gotta research :v posté il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
Okay I decided. I will l’amour Lusamine begrudgingly posté il y a plus d’un an
TheLefteris24 commenté…
Riku: I hate you... But I l’amour you... But I hate toi !!!! il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 commenté…
Accurate il y a plus d’un an
Riku114 a dit …
But for people that struggle to realize the difference between "OCD" ins a colloquial sense and OCD in a literal diagnosis sense, the single phrase of "If I dont do _____, then ________ will happen / ____ might happen" paired with genuine anxiety if the latter statement occurs to the point it locks toi into doing the first statement. posté il y a plus d’un an