Shadowfan here!
In case toi all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years il y a today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so Lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this jour to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, toi know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised par my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask questions I may never know the réponses to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to déplacer forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have a dit all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see toi in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
In case toi all didn't know, today is my birthday. (Well, when i wrote this, it was still Aug 13th, now it's the 14th) 25 years il y a today, I made my way into this fascinating, yet dark and mysterious world we call: Earth. Over the years, I have learned a lot about the world around me. I've learn that there is not only evil here, but also good--even when it seems so Lost and buried. Now, although today was a pretty good birthday, I'd like to take a moment out of this jour to talk about someone I know. Someone that left me too soon.
I don't talk about him much, but now I think it's time to. 25 years ago, my mother gave birth to twin boys--Me and Jeremy. He was born pretty healthy, while I was the one with a lot of health problems. We were born 3 months early, but somehow, Jeremy turned out OK for the most part. However, it seemed like one of us were just destined to leave rather quickly. 2 months after birth, my twin brother sadly passed away. Granted, he had problems, too, but not as bad as mine were. I basically got the crappy end of the stick....
And so, I grow up without a twin--and I often wonder what it would have been like, toi know? Now, also granted, I have 3 other siblings (two bro's and a sis) and I'm grateful for them. But it still gets to me at times, especially since I was raised par my grandmother, practically being in an "only child environment" my whole life, which stunk most of the time.
Sometimes, I do actually wonder what it would have been like to have a twin--would we have been exactly alike? Extremely opposite? Guess I'll never know. For the past few years, I went through that depression phase I talked about in my other article, and at that time (and sometimes even now) I wonder why I couldn't have joined Jeremy. Why couldn't I die with him? Why was it that I had to stay here while he left before he could even understand what world he was born into? *sighs* I ask questions I may never know the réponses to, but it's OK. As for my depression, I am trying my very best to déplacer forward. I have a few days like I use to, but I manage. But one thing I know is that I do actually miss him. I mean, I can't really cry over him, because I never even knew him. But I wish I could have at least knew what it would have been like to have him around. Well, anyway, I have a dit all I wanted to say, so....
Jeremy, if you're out there anywhere, just know I'm thinking about ya. I may not have known you, but I hope to see toi in Heaven. Love, your older twin, Joshua.
I’m just putting it out there that the aléatoire fan club is for posting anything and everything hence the name the aléatoire fan club and those who don’t understand that should be removed from this club as the word aléatoire means being weird ou not normal just means to be different to be unique to be a thing for all things i always thought that the aléatoire fan club could be a MLP commentaire the below it a HP commentaire if no one understands this then the meaning of the aléatoire fan club lives no longer so i beg for toi to see reason this club is for everyone to post everything and anything they want see reason it is a fact being aléatoire is a good thing but blocking out peoples randomness is not cool bros
The moment toi took your life
I felt mine ended too.
If I could only turn back time
there’s so much I would undo.
I didn’t see the warning signs.
toi held them deep inside.
Struggles toi were going through
toi did so well to hide.
I’m left with guilt and sorrow,
and confusion as to why
toi didn’t tell me of your pain
and felt toi had to die.
The Sadness of the sight was just to much to bare
And now its me lying here
Cold,Crimson and Dead
toi will never know how I feel inside,
The pain that still resides,
Happiness was once in my life,
Those days have long since ceased.
I felt mine ended too.
If I could only turn back time
there’s so much I would undo.
I didn’t see the warning signs.
toi held them deep inside.
Struggles toi were going through
toi did so well to hide.
I’m left with guilt and sorrow,
and confusion as to why
toi didn’t tell me of your pain
and felt toi had to die.
The Sadness of the sight was just to much to bare
And now its me lying here
Cold,Crimson and Dead
toi will never know how I feel inside,
The pain that still resides,
Happiness was once in my life,
Those days have long since ceased.
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This is really stupid but I was feeling bored...
This is really stupid but I was feeling bored...
