Everyone always tells me its the last time
But then why am i still here to be the one who is constantly crying
Im done with fake smiling
Im done with the crying
Im done with the lying
Because right now im the one that is dying
It's selfish for them to want me to stay
But is it not selfish to take my own life away?
No its not fair but nothing in life ever is
Everyday i cheat death is the jour i took a dare
I keep up my strength not only for me
I keep up that smile because i want them to be happy
I feel the blood sinking in as a i put preasure on my life
Im just not a person who would take happiness from their to decide
But i can't go on like what i have been anymore
This whole time i have been staring at an unlocked open door.
Barely enough time to save me from myself but i have just that enough time to save someone else from themselves
what is sinking me down and burning my life is that one single time i decided it was time
Its my choice if i choose to hurt
It was me all this time that decided to burn
My choices effect their lives aswell but its never my fault i hurt myself aswell
The risk i took that people would see the blood stained slicer dipped in my skin
It was my choice to do that i have only me too blame
But i cant let them take my pain to heart
In the end all i need is just one persons love.