how should I start to believe ?

hello fellow believers ! im new here , i know there might not be people who is active anymore ou people who stopped believing. & im here to say that i always believed but never actually put enough thoughts into it ? severals times i tried to reach peter but there's always no luck. I even sing him a song, tell him some adventures stories even tho im not that good. but there were still no sign , so i wrote a letter and decided to put it on my window once, but still no luck there . still I never stopped believing, but i did stop trying to contact him tho and I feel bad for that. i am 15 this year, i really hope that i am not too old for this haha i believe in peter pan, always! i even tried to reach out for jack frost but honestly idk how either, i tried but no luck. // so im here to ask if anyone would like to talk abt this and just update eachother every-day ¿ and talk abt how we can try to meet peter ou jackfrost . it's might be a little difficult to talk here so private msg me and I'll try to give my contact number if i want to. Thanks for the help!