~this absolutely sucks,maybe listen to A Drop In The Ocean par Ron Pope to make it seem better? Haha~

toi threw your head back,covering your eyes with the sleeves of your hoodie. toi were trying so hard to not let the nasty tweets get to you. One tear made its way down your face,ruining some of your eyeliner. toi started wiping instantly,fixing your makeup.

"What are toi doing?" Niall walked in,taking your hands away from your watery eyes

toi glanced into his bright eyes,looking away,"Nothing"

"Lemme see your laptop!" Niall shouted as he realized what might have happened

toi shooed him away,"NO,NIALL!"

"GIVE ME THE LAPTOP!" Niall shouted again,taking the laptop from your desk

toi stood suivant to him as he scrolled through all the nasty tweets toi had recieved just an heure ago. Niall glared at the screen,slamming the laptop shut. He stormed towards his room,taking his phone in his hand. toi stayed in your room,hopping up onto the bed.

Eleanor walked in,her hair tied up in a messy bun,"Hey! Niall told me what happened..were toi really listening to those fans?"

"Yeah..I mean,most of the times they say something,they're right!" toi argued,covering your eyes once again as toi lay back

Eleanor sighed,lying down besides you,"Let me tell toi something,they don't know how in l’amour toi and Zayn are!"

"ELEANOR! They hate me for being in love. They hate me for even knowing Zayn!" toi screamed,"They think that I'm using him for fame. They think I'm a or digger. They think I'm a whore. They say I'm a slut. They say our relationship is for publicity! They say I'm using him for everything!! THEY EVEN THINK I'M CHEATING ON HIM!" toi let the tears stream down your face

"I know what you're going through..I got hate as well..but I'm going to tell toi one thing. Don't listen to them! They don't know what they're talking about. If toi were cheating on him,you would know. If you're using him,you would know! So don't listen to them!" Eleanor wiped a tear from your cheek as it started falling

toi stared at her for a while,"I-I miss him so much right now. If he was here..he would've made me feel better..but he's not. Because he's probably looking for a better girl then me. I don't deserve to be with Zayn..." toi got up,"I'll be back,Eleanor. Tell the boys the same."

toi threw your hair into a ponytail,clipping a black bow into your bun. toi shaked your way into your Hollister sweats and put on a tank top. toi stepped into your brown boots,heading out of the house. toi knew it was cold,but toi didn't care right now. toi headed towards the train station. The tweets went through your mind once again...

...@VSpinkZayn toi don't deserve to be with Zayn...

...@VSpinkZayn ur a whore...

...@VSpinkZayn ur pretty,but forreals..ur obviously using Zayn..

...@VSpinkZayn ur a pain in the 1d family's ass...

You waited patiently at the station. toi heard the honking of the suivant train and felt the sun sparkling on your pale skin. toi stood up,stepping onto the tracks.

"Zayn,I want toi to know I've always loved you. Don't end up like me. This is a foolish mistake,but I let the hate get to me. Don't quit the band because of me. Just know I l’amour you. I've always loved you. They never knew what we did best. They never knew what toi did to my heart..I will always l’amour you,Zayn" toi muttered,shutting your eyes.

toi heard the train approaching you. The honks became plus frequent and louder. toi held your hands at your side.

"I l’amour you,Zayn" toi mutttered as the impact of the train hit you.
Zayn waited at home,waiting for toi to come home. Not knowing what had went wrong.

"Where is she?! Eleanor,she didn't tell toi where she was going?" Zayn started screaming

Eleanor shook her head,"Zayn,calm do-"

Zayn's phone began ringing. He ran towards the phone,snatching it up quickly. He glanced at the number before answering.

"This is Zayn Malik. WHAT DO toi MEAN SHE'S GONE?!! SHE CAN'T BE GONE!" Zayn screamed into the phone

Zayn hung up the phone,throwing it at the wall. The tears were already streaming down his red face. He waited for the boys to come. He slouched to the floor,blinking.

"I always loved you..." Zayn muttered