Later on the same jour Drew left.
I cuddled on the canapé with Louie.He had his arm around me tight,with a blushing grin apon his face.
I had felt guilty and shallow about s’embrasser Drew,but i decided not to tell Louie because he wouldnt understand unless I told him the whole story and I didn't like talking about the time i tried suicide.It would put me to shame when the memory came to mind.
In the corner of the room sat Niall in the recliner,he didn't talk but he just scrolled through his phone.He had that upset look on his face like he used to.I hadn't talked to him ever since that night,we hung out and i found out he was a really nice guy.My curiosities had me wanting to know why he didn't talk to me and acted like we never talked,but I decided it was better not to question it.I assumed he just didn't like me.And if my assumtion was right,I couldnt really do anything.
Louie yawned,as I played with his hair.I dragged my fingers through his soft locks,and twirled his bangs.
"Your putting me to sleep playing with my hair.."he mumbled.
"You need a hair cut."I said.
"Nope."as he was falling asleep on me.
I reached and grabbed some scissors frrom the end tables draw.As I opened the scissors holding his hair,he snapped back to reality and jumped up then he jogged away into the foyer.
"Come back!"I yelled as I hurried to my feet,nearly tripping.
Niall looked up at me,but I continued on into the foyer.
Louie caught a glimpse of me and ran to the kitchen.
I chased him in through the dinning room,living room and back to the foyer.He being sleepy gave me an advantage,so I caught him.I grabbed him from behind as he laughed.
"Fine,I'll get a haircut."
"No,I like your hair."
"What,but toi just..."
I giggled and snickered as he turned around to Kiss me.
In the corner of my eye,I seen Niall pass par and angerly walk out the door,with a loud slam.
"Huh?"I looked back at the door.
Louie and I caught up with him outside.
"Just go away."Niall a dit with out looking back,he sounded frustrated as he walked out in the dark.
"What's wrong?"Louie worried.
"Just leave me alone."he told him.
"Why are toi being so selfish lately?I just asked toi a question."Louie seemed a bit irritated.
"I just want to be alone."
"Why?Just quit being an cul, ass hole and go back in the house."
Niall took a deep breathe in,turned around and staring at Louie in disgust.
"Just get the fuck away from me!"Niall shouted stepping closer to Louie,getting in his face."I mean damn it's not that hard to understand!"
"Louie..."I a dit grabbing his arm,but he shaked me off.
Niall pushed him and started to walk away again.
"You may not know what your problem it but I do!You can't get a girlfriend,and toi blame and take it out on us.Lets face the facts,Your lonely and always will be!And no one likes to be around toi because your so damn moody like little bitch!Its not our fault toi can't déplacer on from Carter.She's dead and She's never coming back!The only way you'll see her again is if toi rejoindre her."He spit out in rage.
"Liam!Zayn!Harry!Somebody!"I yelled for help.
"Fine!If toi want to fucking know what's wrong,I'll tell you!That girl toi don't know her!"he a dit pointing at me."You don't know not a God damn thing about her.But toi act like toi do,You act like toi l’amour her and its fucked up because toi don't deserve her!"
Suddenly Louie forcefully punched him.
Niall stepped back dizzy but rebounded and threw a fist at Louie hitting him in the face.He moaned in pain,as Niall ran toward him.Louie dodge his charge and Niall ended up punching Anna's car.He yelped in fierce pain,Louie tossed him on the ground.He jumped on haut, retour au début of him and started throwing punches.
He ran outside with the others.
Zayn and Harry dragged them of each other.Niall stood up and pushed Harry off of him.
Niall spit on Louie,Louie tried to break free from Zayn but failed.
"Stupid bastard."he a dit vainly.
He brushed of his clothes and and walked off into the dark night,no one chased him.
I had took Louie inside and gave him ice for his nose.The one time Niall got him,he punched him pretty hard.Louies nose was a bit crooked but it wasn't noticeable.We sat on the canapé discussing the ou deal.
"Why was he mad?"I asked.
"He a dit something about me not knowing you..Do I know you?"
"Well yea it's been over 4 months."
"And toi know I l’amour you,Right?"
"Yea and I l’amour you."
"then why would he say that?" Louie tried to make sense of it all.
I could tell he felt guilty,but he was still ticked off.
"I don't know,sometimes people say things that don't make sense just because their angry.So they blame people for there anger."
He kissed me on the cheek.
"I think he's just jealous.He wishes had something like this."he told me.
"I guess so,but toi need to go find him."
I knew why he was mad,How could Louie ever understand someone like me?It just possibly couldn't work out.
"Yea I guess so,um..Can I ask toi something?" he said.
I looked at him,but I saw Drew.I couldn't get over Drew,the only way I would is if he died.Not even then.
"Why do toi wear this bracelets all the time?I have seen toi once with out them."
I took a deep breath out.
But He continued to eye ball me.
"Why don't toi want to tell me?You can tell me." he was being a bit pushy and I didn't like it.
"Its just to."
"okay I respect your choices."
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me once on my cheek,then going down and s’embrasser my neck.I giggled in excitement but I felt him touch my wrist.He started to slip off my bracelet.
"What the fuck,Louie!?"I yelled at him and pushed him away.
The bracelets popped and the beads spilled all around us.
He stared at my scarred wrist with his mouth agap,speechless.
I started to cry,I ran away to Anna.
"Jerk!"I yelled the rushing upstairs.
"Wait Amber!" he shouted.
I banged on Zayns Door.Anna stepped out and looked at me.
"Whats wrong?"she asked.
She seen my bare scarred wrist.She ran down stairs immediately.
"Amber!Im so sorry!"Louie yelled at me as I looked down at him.
"What did toi fucking do!?"
"I..um" he studdered.
She slapped him.
"You fucking bastard!What were toi thinking??She didn't want toi to know,She didn't want anyone to know!She only tells people she trust and sure as hell she doesnt trust you."She yelled at him.
I had walked the streets alone.I didn't know where I was going,I just needed to be away from everyone for awhile.My head hung low as I pasted par cars and streetlight after streetlight.If I pasted par people I'd walk faster and ignore them.
I was thinking about going back home,not to the mansion but to ireland.On my walk,I did alot of thinking.
I was ready to leave this American dream that easyily turned into a nightmare.It's funny,how people say to live with out regrets,when the only way toi could do that is if toi were perfect,for I have many regrets.
My nose was all bloody and I probably had a black eye.Also my hand was swollen.I needed to clean up myself.
I just felt like such a loser,I wanted to die.
I came a traverser, croix a gas station,I went inside and went up to the cashier.
"Hey,Do toi have a bathroom I can use?"I a dit to the girl.
She turned around,"Niall?Gosh,what happened?"Courtney stared back at me.
Courtney was sister,I had spoke to her once.
She had long black straight hair pulled back in a poney tail and a red lipsticked halfhearted smile.She was bit taller and girler then Anna ou any girl i knew.And to complete her appearance,she had sweet baby blue eyes that could stare into you.Very attractive,but she had her standards high.
"I got in a fight with one of the boys."I told her in shame.
She stepped out from behind the counter with napkins and a bag.She went to soda fontaine and put ice in the bag.
She pulled a a volé, étole from behind the counter and had me sit.
"Why we're toi fighting?"
"it started out as an arguement."
She wet the napkin with water from the fountain,and patted my face gently.It strung from the cut on my face,I flinched.
"Stay still."she said.
She wiped the blood and dirt off my face so the cuts wouldn't get infected.
"Oh my..."she a dit looking at my hand.
My knuckle was bleeding and was swollen.She put the ice on my hand.
"I'll be right back,I have to lock the doors."
I nodded,as she walked to the back of the store.
I wondered why she was taking care of me,I didn't have to ask.She just did out of her freewill.
Shortly,she returned to me and flicked off some of the lights,I guess to not attract costumers.
"Who was it toi fought?"
"It was me and Louie.We were arguing really over nothing,now that I look back at it."
"Oh,I know about that.It sounds like me and Anna to be honest."she admitted.
"He a dit something about my ex and it went off from there."
"What happened to your ex?"she asked thoughtlessly.
"Nevermind,That was a stupid question."she a dit in shame,looking down.
"No its okay,She pasted away but it was a long time ago."
It had been 5 years since Carter died,and I never l’amour anyone since.It put me to shame how I couldn't déplacer on.
She cleared her throat and changed the subject although I knew what she was thinking.
"Let me see your hand."
I took off the ice off.She took a piece of ice out the bag and gave it to me.
"Hold this on your knuckle."
She went down an aisle and picked up a box of bandages and a finger brace.
She put the brace on my finger and wrapped it with the bandages.
"It's broken so I'd keep this on for a few days."
"How are toi sure?"
"Well,I want to be a nurse so this is just somethin...."she a dit as she finshed wrapping the tape.
"You look better."
"Well,thanks to you."
"Do toi have a bathroom?"
She nodded yes,and led me to the back.
I went inside,hit the light switch and locked the door shut and checked to see if it was secure.I quickly pulled the gun from out the back of my pants.I took a deep breath,inhaling slowly.
I stared at myself in the mirror,my body was trembling and I was sweating heavily.I wiped the driping sweat off my face,with the bottom of my shirt.When I lowered my shirt,I glared at the mirror in amazement to what my eyes came to see.Her smile shined bright,as a glistening halo hovered above her head.She wore a long white diamonded robe as wings like an eagles sprung out behind her.
She didn't speak but she nodded.
"Did I kill myself yet?"I questioned.
She giggled and shook her head.
"Then why are toi here?"
She mouthed something,a name?a book?My name?
I couldn't decide what she said,suddenly I heard Courtney call my name.I looked at the door but when I looked back she was gone.On the mirror,it looked as if someone took a hot bath and written "Courtney." in girly cursive.I glared at this for a moment,took a photo with my phone,and wiped it off the mirror.
"Niall,Are toi okay?"she a dit through the door.
"Yea,I'm okay."I a dit chargement my gun.
"Okay,just checking."she a dit in a cheery voice.
I cocked it,and put it to my head.
I put my finger on the trigger,as my body shaked.
As hard as I tried,I couldn't find the good in goodbye.
My eyes widen,for I knew that sound and I knew it well.
"No Niall!"I yelled.
I heard the gun shot,and I ran for my keys despite my fear of blood.I hurried back,and unlocked the door.He was sitting on the ground,and leaning against the wall,I knelt down to him.
He looked beat down and broken as he let the tears fall from his face.On the wall,was a small hole and a bullet.He missed.
"I'm sorry....carter."he mumbled.
"Amber,I'm so sorry!"Louie yelled through the door.
"Go away,Haven't toi done enough?"yelled Anna.
We sat in harrys lit room with him,Anna was trying to comfort me as I cried.
"I understand,"harry nodded his head after Anna finshed explaining what had happened.
"Amber,Please talk to me."Louie a dit through the door.
"Louie,Just go away."Harry spoke for me.
Just why would Louie do that to me?I didn't want him to know,I didnt want anyone to know because I was ashamed.I wanted to déplacer on and forget my past,but everytime I look at myself in the mirror I am reminded of the pain I once bared.I let tear after tear fall from my flooded eyes,watching it each time as the drop fell to the ground and scattered.
"Amber,Are toi gonna be okay?"Anna looked at me in worry.
I glanced at her but I didn't say anything.
"Let me try,"Smirked Harry."Amber,How do toi keep a person in suspense?"he asked.
I looked at him,and wondered about his question as he grinned back at me.
"What?"I finally said.
"Think about it."
I thought about it,and understood his joke.I smiled slightly and giggled,he didn't tell me the answer so I was left in suspense.
"I don't get it...."said Anna cluelessly.
I chuckled at her.
"That was funny."I murrmurred.
Tittered at his joke,as Anna looked confused trying to comprehend it.
"Now for the rest of the night,when toi think your gonna cry,think of two t-Rexs trying to play patty cake."he smiled.
"Your aa bit full of yourself."I chuckled.
"I still dont get it!Tell me."begged Anna.
"Ill tell toi later,but we should go chercher for Niall."he suggested.
Anna agreed then looked to me,
"Are toi going with us?"she asked me.
I took a moment to myself and looked down at my wrists.
I still had a set of bracelets on my left arm,that were hiding my scars.Did I really need to hide anymore?How was I going to déplacer on from the past if I continued to lie about it?
I had great Friends who accepted me and never judged me.
So what did I have to be afraid of?
To déplacer on to a new chapter in my life,I had to read it from the beginning and knowledge it,because I couldn't rewrite what was permanent.
I looked to Anna,put on a smile and pulled off my bracelets throwing them on the bed.She understood me,and hugged me.
"Think of the t-Rexs,just don't cry."harry smiled.
I chuckled,He was very good at cheering people up,i was heartbroken but he some how made me smile.
We walked out the door,instantly Louie tried to talk to me.
"Amber, please talk to me."he looked at me with chiot eyes. link
I looked back at him vainly with the most cold heart.
I rolled my eyes and kept walking downstairs to the foyer.
He followed me still begging and apologizing.
When I was about to walk out the door when he grabbed my hand.
"Amber.."I looked at me.
I sighed and turned around.
"What do toi want from me?I just dont understand why would toi do that to me,You say toi l’amour me,maybe Niall was right.You don't deserve me."
But suddenly he grabbed me and kissed me.I pulled away and looked at him vainly,and shook my head in shame.
"I really dont want to see toi right now."i a dit then walking out the door in to the dark night.
Maybe Louie wasnt the one for me,which is what I had feared all that time.Would I even be able to forgive him?And if I did would he be able to live with someone so unstable like me?
The thought was just so overwhelming.
Writers thought and shit(Adding "and shit'makes toi sound thug.Example.I was playin with my bubbles and shit.):
Well, hope toi enjoyed this because this took a but load of time since this book is coming to an end.Ill be opening a new book based on your vote.
Courtney And Niall in love? ou Liam and a new charecters l’amour story.
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