** just wanted toi to know how much i l’amour toi JT and i never meant to hurt toi par fighting with toi and i just want toi to know that every word toi read is true as hell -Bee **
Ok, toi know how i used to tell toi that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the jour i found out toi went to the hospital....i kept going to your profil and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) posté the bad news on your mur and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with toi Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment toi told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the suivant day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with cerise and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI plus LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and cerise and geai, jay reached your room Chris was already in there with toi but toi were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like toi knew we were there and toi woke up and me and cerise and geai, jay just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about toi ou cerise ou Spunky geai, jay and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell toi this cause i just want toi to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about toi and i just want toi to know that i dont hate toi and that i have ALWAYS LOVED toi JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I l’amour cerise AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope toi know that and i never wanna hurt toi again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like toi were ....i hope toi get better and i am praying for you
l’amour Back To toi From
Bianca<3
Ok, toi know how i used to tell toi that i got these vibes sometimes? Well, the jour i found out toi went to the hospital....i kept going to your profil and thinking "omfg something is wroong" and then Chris ((smart dude:)) posté the bad news on your mur and obviously i was the first to know..on fanpop.... and i was like freaking out and ....i remembered fighting with toi Sunday night..and i felt HORRIBLE omg..i was cryin. Then i didnt know what to do with myself, right? well then i told JayJAy and she just felt as bad as i did...and Chris kept telling us.."its not your fault, dont beat yourself up" and then i knew i had to tell Cherry, and i was scared cause i knew if i took the news hard, she would probably take it harder...but she did pretty well and she tried to blame herself..but i didnt let her..i had to take the blame and i told everyone if they wanted to blame someone i had to be blamed and i probably should have known something was wrong the moment toi told me your headaches were back and i didnt get the bad vibes till the suivant day...well then i had to get off cause i was just going to cry, and cry and cry some more..so i got off and i just lay there freaking out and i didnt know what to do with myself..well then that night i had a beautiful nightmare...**i wanna cry again** ok in my dream..i was with cerise and Spunky Jay..we went to the hospital and it was kinda funni (NOT HAHA FUNNI plus LIKE I CANT BELIEVE IT FUNNI) that i could smell the hospital and here the beep beep of the intercom and we me and cerise and geai, jay reached your room Chris was already in there with toi but toi were hooked up to all these wires and we us three girls walked in it was like toi knew we were there and toi woke up and me and cerise and geai, jay just shrieked and cried and hugged eachother so hard and damn i could feel that hug .....but then the sucky part was that i woke up in a cold sweat crying cuz i didnt get to see the end of the dream and cuz it was the first time i ever dreamed about toi ou cerise ou Spunky geai, jay and i know for sure Chris...
but i wanted to tell toi this cause i just want toi to realize that i never really mean all those things i say about toi and i just want toi to know that i dont hate toi and that i have ALWAYS LOVED toi JSUT AS MUCH AS AS I l’amour cerise AND JAYJAY AND JORDAN i hope toi know that and i never wanna hurt toi again and i promise i will try to keep my cool and my head ok? Cause i was also brought up not to let people get the best of me and i was brought up pretty much like toi were ....i hope toi get better and i am praying for you
l’amour Back To toi From
Bianca<3
