You’ve been back in South Dakota for about a month, toi start school today. None of your Friends know you’re back yet. You’ve just been hiding out in your room. The first 3 weeks were terrible, crying yourself to sleep, stomach aches, throwing up, head aches, hardly any sleep, depression and many other things. The past week you’ve trying to pull yourself together, just for school and your friends. You’ve also been keeping it a secret form your parents that toi are pregnant, which would explain the throwing up in the mornings. Your terrified to tell your parents that your pregnant, terrified on how to handle it when they find out, terrified to have the baby, to take care of the baby, your just a kid yourself. Also the baby will probably grow up not knowing its father. Even know Marshall a dit he would come find you, but he probably wont just because that’s how things work in life. toi still miss Marshall so much, and your somewhat glad your having a baby with him, and your going to keep it because its apart of Marshall. Your in the bathroom making yourself look ‘pretty’ even know toi don’t really give a shit. Your Mom walks in with that stupid grin on her face, toi stare at her annoyed.
“You ok?” she asks. toi nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes toi wanna cry. toi sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” toi explain hoping she would montrer some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make toi feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make toi feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him ou her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” toi ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but plus like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school toi don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, toi think that she got the idea that toi were annoyed with her. toi walk in the room and the first person toi see is you’re best friend, Annie, who toi haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. toi walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging toi immediately, toi hug her back.
“Hey! How have toi been,” toi ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making toi wanna cry….
“What are toi doing back here? I thought toi were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to déplacer back here,” toi say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” toi say summing up the best toi can so toi don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once toi got back to South Dakota so they put toi him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense toi moved and toi haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to toi ou something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. toi nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend ou something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” toi say sadly.
“Aww, did toi really like him?” she asks, toi nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. toi smile and nod, toi pull out a picture of toi and him, hes hugging toi from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a arbre par your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” toi say looking at the picture, toi flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. toi put the photo back into your folder and sit down suivant to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past mois you’ve been thinking about Lily and toi have also tried écriture some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, toi cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first an of ninth grade. toi miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all toi have is pictures, toi keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And toi tell yourself everyday that someday toi are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Friends keeping asking toi why you’re back. toi kept telling them that toi would let them know during lunch time so toi wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch table, tableau with one of your Friends Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, toi sit down suivant to Mary and Chelsea. “So are toi gonna tell us why toi moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 minutes of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like toi guys are disappointed that I came back,” toi say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. toi sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” toi say. They all stare at toi like your kidding. “Im serious!” toi sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking par stops and stares at toi guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. toi sigh.
“Nice one,” toi say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and toi giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” toi yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” toi yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do toi like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. toi laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. toi shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” toi say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” toi say.
“Hey, Annie told me toi had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she a dit toi showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. toi stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at toi seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. toi reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, toi pull out the picture toi showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” toi scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of toi and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” toi say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. toi glare at her. “Not that I would wanna rendez-vous amoureux, date him ou anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to toi after about a second.
After school toi walk accueil with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. toi stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” toi ask.
“Well did toi see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” toi say.
“Do toi like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” toi say. “ I really liked Marshall,” toi say. toi place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do toi have something toi have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” toi say plus as a question rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, toi have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do toi can hate me forever and toi don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, toi know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that toi have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. toi stop on the side walk par a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if toi should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby ou not tell her…
“You ok?” she asks. toi nod your head a slightly smile. “Still miss Marshall don’t you?” she asks. Hearing his name makes toi wanna cry. toi sigh and just stare at her. “Look, honey, its for the best,” she says.
“I know what you’re trying to do Mom but I don’t think me being this miserable is very healthy for me,” toi explain hoping she would montrer some sympathy for how you’re feeling.
“You’ll get over it, there’s plenty of guys out there,” she say as if that’s supposed to make toi feel better, even know its not going too, knowing that your having a baby with him. Just looking at that baby is going to make toi feel pain everyday seeing Marshall inside of him ou her.
“Whatever Mom, Im ready to go, so can we just drop the whole Marshall subject and go?” toi ask her leaving the bathroom grabbing your bag off the hallway floor.
“Yeah,” she says sort of sad but plus like shes annoyed with you.
The whole car ride to school toi don’t say a word to your Mother, she don’t talk either, toi think that she got the idea that toi were annoyed with her. toi walk in the room and the first person toi see is you’re best friend, Annie, who toi haven’t talked to for about one year. Shes standing with her back towards you. toi walk up to her and tap her on the shoulder, she jumps and turns around.
“Lily!!” she yells hugging toi immediately, toi hug her back.
“Hey! How have toi been,” toi ask putting on a happy act, you’re happy to see her but the thing about Marshall is still making toi wanna cry….
“What are toi doing back here? I thought toi were staying in Detroit forever.” she asks.
“Naw, things got…uhh bad with Nick so we had to déplacer back here,” toi say.
“What he do?” she asks.
“Stupid shit,” toi say summing up the best toi can so toi don’t have to explain what he did to that poor hobo. Your bother went completely insane once toi got back to South Dakota so they put toi him in a psycho ward. Hes been there ever sense toi moved and toi haven’t even talked to him.
“Oh, I see,” she says. “Nice dog tag, some guy give that to toi ou something?” she asks pointing to the dog tag around your neck. toi nod, she lifts it up and stares at it. “Marshall Bruce Mathers III,” she reads, she drops it down. “So was that your boyfriend ou something?” she asks.
“Yeah, was…we broke up when we moved,” toi say sadly.
“Aww, did toi really like him?” she asks, toi nod. “Was he cute?” she asks. toi smile and nod, toi pull out a picture of toi and him, hes hugging toi from behind your hands resting on his, your fingers are laced, and your heads are pressed together its taken outside there’s still snow on the ground and your standing under a arbre par your house, your mother took that picture. “Aww he is cute,” she says staring at the picture. “You two look cute together,” she says. “You miss him?” she asks handing the picture back to you.
“Yes,” toi say looking at the picture, toi flip it over, on the back it says Marshall Mathers and Lily Jones spring of 1987. toi put the photo back into your folder and sit down suivant to Annie.
MARSHALLS POV>>>
The past mois you’ve been thinking about Lily and toi have also tried écriture some raps about her, but its just to damn depressing for you, toi cant write anything. Ronnie thinks your crazy and so does everyone else. It’s the first an of ninth grade. toi miss Lily so much your trying to get over her but its been hard, all toi have is pictures, toi keep them in a shoe box under your bed. And toi tell yourself everyday that someday toi are going to find Lily no matter what it takes, you’re going to find her…
LILY’S POV>>
Its lunch time, school has gone ok, and all your Friends keeping asking toi why you’re back. toi kept telling them that toi would let them know during lunch time so toi wont have to repeat yourself 6 times. Your walking to the lunch table, tableau with one of your Friends Chelsea. Everyone else is already at the table, toi sit down suivant to Mary and Chelsea. “So are toi gonna tell us why toi moved back here?” Chelsea pipes up after about 5 minutes of silence.
“Damn, it so sounds like toi guys are disappointed that I came back,” toi say.
“No, we just wanna know what Nick did that was so bad,” Chev says. toi sigh…
“Well he got into drugs, and shit then he killed a hobo,” toi say. They all stare at toi like your kidding. “Im serious!” toi sort of yell.
“He killed someone! Sweet!” Chev cheers, he likes violence. A teacher walking par stops and stares at toi guys. “A movie,” Chev says quickly.
“Ahh,” he says nodding, she walks away. toi sigh.
“Nice one,” toi say and toss a piece of carrot at Chev, it hits him on the forehead and falls to his lap. He glares at you, and toi giggle. He shakes his head.
“Stop flirting at the table,” Kathy says.
“What the fuck!?” toi yell at her. “We’re not flirting for cryin out loud!” toi yell.
“Seems like it,” Kathy says laughing.
“I don’t like Lily like that thank you,” Chev says then takes a drink of milk.
“So…. Do toi like boys?” Chelsea says laughing.
“Sick no!” Chev yells and throws the carrot at Chelsea. toi laugh.
“You guys should stop before we get yelled at,” Annie says annoyed.
“Aww is someone upset?” Chev says staring at her.
“No,” she says with a smile then throws a Skittle at Chev. toi shake your head.
“Ok, I really think we should stop,” toi say. They all stop laughing and stare at you. “Thank you,” toi say.
“Hey, Annie told me toi had a boyfriend back in Detroit, and she a dit toi showed her a picture can I see it!?” Jessie says being all jumpy and in your face about it. toi stare at her for a few seconds, once she realizes your being serious she stops smiling and looks at toi seriously. “Well?” she says after a while. toi reach into your bag and pull out a green folder, toi pull out the picture toi showed to Annie this morning and hand it to Jessie, she grabs it quickly.
“Don’t bend it!” toi scream at her.
“Ohh calm down, I wont,” Jessie says staring at the picture of toi and Marshall. “Whats his name?” Jessie asks, as he hands the picture to Kathy.
“Marshall,” toi say trying not to get sad.
“Hes hot!” Kathy says. toi glare at her. “Not that I would wanna rendez-vous amoureux, date him ou anything,” she adds. The picture goes around the whole table, Chev looks kind of angry when hes looking at it, he hands it back to toi after about a second.
After school toi walk accueil with Annie, she lives a few houses from you….
“I think Chev likes you,” she says randomly. toi stop walking and stare at her.
“Uhh?” toi ask.
“Well did toi see how he acted around you, and how he looked mad about the picture of Marshall,” she says. “I think hes jealous,” she says.
“So?” toi say.
“Do toi like him?” she asks.
“I.. no, I just got out of a relationship that Im not over yet,” toi say. “ I really liked Marshall,” toi say. toi place your hand on your stomach randomly.
“Do toi have something toi have to tell me?” she asks.
“No?” toi say plus as a question rather than a straight answer.
“You do don’t you, toi have a secret,” she says with a smile. “Tell me I wont tell anybody I promise, if I do toi can hate me forever and toi don’t ever have to talk to me again,” she says, toi know her saying this she wont tell anybody, she never has told anybody anything before that toi have told her not too… but you’re still afraid to tell her… “Well…?” she asks. toi stop on the side walk par a old abandoned house and stare at her….wondering if toi should tell her that your going to have Marshalls baby ou not tell her…