i don't know why i say alice anymore, i think now i write these emails to myself, to secure me that toi were real, that toi all were , that he was.
There is evidence that toi were here. and was my best friend. But sometimes i dont know wheither i was dreaming ou not, But i stop that thought to think again, if it was a dream and toi diddnt exist,then how did i know your name, ou did i make toi up, along with every one else. Maybe i'm going crazy, from without toi i dont know. But i want to find out. Do toi think a crazy person can be the one to digiosed themselves?? Lets hope for my sake that they can.
I know toi wont read this, ou that fact that toi havent even read one. they jsut get sent back to me, unread, failed, jsut like i know this one will to.
But i think this is the only thing that stops me from doing what i shouldn't do. what ever that is.
Charlie would say hi, if he knew anything. I've been so quite that me andcharlie no longer talk.
And jake. Well, he reminds me of you. Your friendship, your beauty, your loveliness. And the easiness to be normal around, someone i diddnt have to try,that i will never experience again.
But jake could never replace you.
school sucks, i think only toi and him was my only exucuse to get up and out of lit for school.
i havent spoken to my mum in ages. she calls and calls and abuses dad. but i just cant. she will be too concerned and ask questions that i dont want to answer ou just hear.
Well i l’amour toi alice. i have to make dîner for charlie, in silence again..
talk to toi in the suivant few days. funny how i say that, when i wont."