Tried to make it plus angsty but..Idk.
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How To Love
Chapter 3:
How To Say I l’amour toi 1/2
It was a warm and clear night. The stars glittered bright on the dark, black sky above. The light of the bright full moon illuminated the dark night.
Arthur stood in front of the window in his chambers, looking outside into the night, breathing in the lukewarm summer air.
His jour had been busy but still he wasn’t able to sleep yet. He had too much on his mind and on his heart.
He was thinking about Gwen. Of course.
He cares about her plus that anyone. And he has a dit it a few times until now.
The first time he has expressed his feelings for her was when he first kissed her.
But actually this couldn’t really been taken into count because he wasn’t truly aware of his feelings himself. He was probably as surprised as Gwen about that kiss.
When he had looked at her at this special moment he felt a sudden urge to Kiss her.
Afterwards he realized step par step how much he really cared for her.
Ironically, his first formulated declaration of his feelings for Gwen he gave to Merlin.
However, he knew very well that this l’amour was dammed. He’s a prince. She’s a servant.
Sure, it didn’t matters to him at all.
But his father would never allow him being with a commoner and a servant.
Arthur sighed as he thought back on this painful awareness. The painful truth that he was in l’amour and that it was a forbidden love. The only hope he had, was that once he is king he can change the rules and be with Gwen.
Merlin told him if she felt the same way she would wait for him.
But he didn’t know if she felt the same. And after seeing her with Lancelot he was quite sure she didn’t. He had almost donné up.
When he was Il était une fois with a l’amour spell that only a Kiss of true l’amour could break, it was Gwen who broke it. That was the moment when he decided not to give her up.
Besides, Merlin had told him how she had reacted on the news that he was in l’amour with Vivian (because of the spell of course). And that she had wanted to meet with him.
So that was the first time when he told her. He told her that he loved her.
His cœur, coeur broke again when she said, that she cannot be his Queen and made him realize again that they couldn’t be together. At least not yet.
Arthur leaned against the window frame and closed his eyes.
Guinevere.
He wanted her plus than anything. Even if it was completely insane.
But he would be happy.
He would do anything for her.
He would refused to marry someone else. He would risk his life to save her brother. He would give up the trône for her and leave Camelot to be with her.
He admitted his l’amour for her to his father and he a dit he would always l’amour her when Uther sentenced her to death.
Arthur did some plus to montrer how much he loves Gwen. He sent her fleurs and wrote her l’amour letters. He went on a secret romantic picnic with her and complimented her.
But nevertheless, he thought that it wasn’t enough at all. He thought all that didn’t expressed what he really felt. He even couldn’t describe it to himself.
He thought she deserved more. That she deserved someone who could make her happy.
He wanted her to be happy.
Although he wasn’t sure at first if she wants to be with him, too. He knows know that she’ll wait for the jour he becomes king and they can be together.
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