Hi guys. I felt I would ask you guys what you thought of my scenario because all my friends are truly awful listeners!! My basic situation is this:

I live in London, England, but for a few years I lived in America. My best friend there was called Josh, and by the time I left America I knew I thought of him as more of a friend, but had never told him how I felt. About a year later Josh and his family moved to Australia, about as far away as he could get!! Since then I have visited him three times. The first time I only had about a week, and it being about 3 years since I last saw him I never made up my mind on whether I would tell him or not. The second time was a year later, where throughout the 2 weeks I was trying to work up the courage to tell him how I felt, still not knowing how he feels about me.

I have regretted not telling him then ever since, it was the best opportunity of the lot, but I could never build up enough courage, I am quite shy.

Then this year I went down to Sydney (where he lives) again, and went with his, his mom and his brother to a little island. I thought how perfect this was! Out of contact with our friends (no internet/ no credit on both our phones) so we will only have each others' company. (and his younger brothers)

However, during the 9 days on Dunk he was telling me all about his quest to win the heart of a girl named Ellie, and how he had finally asked her out just before coming to Dunk (he's pretty shy as well), and of course she said yes. The way he was talking about her made me think that he really cares about her. This put me off telling him how i felt a little, because if he was happy I didn't want to ruin it.

Anyway, now I am still in Australia, staying at my aunt's and uncle's for a while, however, I will be going back to Sydney for 2 days in about a week, the question is, do I tell him and live to regret it if it's not what he wants to hear, or say nothing and regret that for the next few years because I will be left wondering what could have been, again.

I guess there is an option 3, which is I tell him sometime on msn, (which I am talking to him on at this very second) however that couldlead to all sort of complications... so much awkwardness!!

Thanks you guys for reading this, sorry it was very long and boring, I just wanted to see your takes on it.

Thanks, have a nice day :)